Stepping Back, to Step Forward.

 

Taking a step back often feels like you have somehow failed, but in not stepping back I would be failing myself.

It’s hard this internal knowing, when you have no words to describe what it is you understand. It’s like you have spent years gathering together the various bits and pieces of a giant jigsaw puzzle in your mind. Each piece comes along at various points in your life and you have to juggle them about to see if they fit.

Then all at once you get one piece that slots into place and all the other pieces which you held suddenly now all fit into place. And yet you are still trying to make sense of what it is you are putting together, because we don’t have a picture box lid to understand just what kind of finished picture we are creating.

I felt the jumble of the pieces suddenly make sense, and in the next instant it felt like a huge wind had come along, and the pieces scattered in a thousand directions. I felt such a void of confusion, sadness and pain. 

Pain for a world that is caught up within its own journey, as we each try to make sense of the pieces we hold.

The pain of my heart transferred itself quickly into fatigue as I  found myself shutting down, and shutting out the world more and more as I slept, slipping into a void of depression, a feeling I know only too well. And were it not for family, friends, and my granddaughter’s wonderful presence, it’s a void I know I could easily slip into again if I were not mindful of the signs.  But I have been to the depths of despair many years ago now. And never again will I plunge back into that deep dark well.   

So, my smile is ever present as I keep positive in the face I present to the world. I took my mind into that tranquil zone, I painted, and I painted some more.  I allowed the painting to absorb and transform those feelings. For I also have come to understand that other forces are at work, as our Light codes and energies are adjusting as the Geomagnetic Storms now intensify their frequencies which in turn are affecting our moods and health and our DNA.  I painted out my heart as I faced my fears as I raced into the unknown.  I painted, as the snow fell outside, the snow transferred to the canvas, or was it water? Both cleansing, I will let you decide.

Finished Tiger Painting. More Information about Tiger to be found Here.

 

I know I am not the only one who has been going through the emotional washing machine. We have been tossed around, wrung out, to feel drained and left to feel crumpled and limp in the face of feeling helpless to that which we see occurring around our world and our neighbourhoods.  Wondering where it is all leading, and for those of us like myself, we wonder if our energies will  ever make a difference.

Stepping back, pausing and taking that deep breath away from the constant bombardment of negative news allows us to view life from a different perspective. 

Those who read my posts regular, know I am a great believer in ‘Signs’ my recent posts were trying to make sense of that ‘Knowing’ some of us feel. So, it was no surprise that over this period of time I had a ‘Sign’ come and visit me not once but three times in as many weeks. As a Sparrow Hawk which is a rare sight at the best of times, landed not once, but three separate times into my garden as she hunted the sparrows I feed. She has been coming on an off since January when I first took a photo of her or him. But since I have been absent from WP she landed three more times in full view in my garden.  

Her presence came to remind me to lift my own wings and concentrate upon raising my own higher vibrations. So, I have been meditating more. She taught me to lift myself higher, and look from another perspective, to that which I had allowed myself to wallow in… the pain of others and other people’s stories. Showing me while we are all of us connected, I need not take on their pain.  

For each of us agreed what roles to play, be it a Hawk a predator or a Sparrow its victim. She came to show me I should not get hung up on the details of life, but trust to the currents to which way the wind catches my wings.  I saw how the Sparrows cleverly avoided her clutches, as they flew into the thick branches of my shrubs and how all the sparrows along with blackbird cried out their warnings of her arrival.  I saw how unity of species played a part in their survival and now how they have altered their feeding habits in mindfulness of the hawks presence. I see how some keep guard and watch, while others feed. I also observed how some are selfish and fight fiercely to possess the feeder not giving an inch. Nature is a constant reminder of our fight for survival. And when the snow came, we helped nature along. 

Snow in my Garden March 18th 2018 Last Sunday

The Hawk has a wider view of the world than ourselves, and reminds me to broaden my own perspective and to trust and let go to the Winds of Change.  Being Empathic I feel at times raw emotions as their currents ebb and flow through humanity, I also feel the cosmic energies that pulsate which are coming to open up our hearts.

I think this is my longest ever absence since I started blogging in 2007. I started out wanting to make a difference as my words rippled out, and during my recent void I wondered what possible difference I could make.  And yet by reading the many comments you have all left me over time. I see how my poems have touched you and how connected we all are in this our Earth Journey.  

I could write thousands of words and never come to express that which I have come to understand of our human self and our existence on planet Earth. Nor could I ever explain what I have learnt through the years of my Spiritual involvement via the communications I have been privileged to part of and witness. 

Those of you who are upon their own Soul Journey, know of what I speak, others perhaps have yet to soar to find their own flight paths, for we are all of us at our various levels of evolution as we fly in our ever-expanding circles as we search and explore our own destinies, and make sense of who we are and why we are here.  

At the time of writing this I have no idea how long I shall be flying, it may be a matter of days, or another few weeks. And I thank all of you for your patience, especially those comments still in moderation waiting to be answered. Thank you those who have sent me your beautiful emails. I will be answering all of them over time.  

All of you are loved and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for the love you share and show me here, words never seem enough in appreciation. But you are all greatly loved and I feel Blessed for having you all in my world.   

Sometimes we may not make sense of the way we view events of our world. But some events acts as triggers, that change the perspective of others. The Hawk came to show me there are no victims. For we all came to play our parts. 

I did tune in yesterday and saw how 17 lives lost on the 14th February were not lost in vain. If a country with a young generation of all creeds and races can come together in Unity to stand up and voice their views.

This world is on track.

I see Unity Consciousness working right there in the eyes and hearts of the next generation that will have to stand strong and firm in their beliefs, as their courage comes together to create the kind of world they wish to live in.  And the ‘Knowing’ I see within my heart will be worth the sacrifice of those who agreed their particular parts so that Humanity may evolve through Love. 

Hawks are masters of flying, they enjoy the landscape, I need to soar a while longer as I adjust my energies as I ‘Paint Pictures’, as I accept ‘What will be will be’. (Que Sera, Sera).

In Love and Light 

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  1. laurabruno
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 13:22:15

    Oh, yes, I am deep in hermit mode and have been for years now, especially since we moved this summer and I “injured” my collar bone/rib/higher heart chakra. It was more of a reset than an injury, although physically stopped me in my tracks and kept me solitary while David was finishing now things up in Goshen. It has lately become such a journey of such immense gratitude and beauty. I cannot even describe it, but that’s the other side of the soulful withdrawal.

    Your tiger painting is STUNNING. Really powerful. Lots of love, Sue! Thank you for being you. 🙂

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  2. laurabruno
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 13:22:15

    Oh, yes, I am deep in hermit mode and have been for years now, especially since we moved this summer and I “injured” my collar bone/rib/higher heart chakra. It was more of a reset than an injury, although physically stopped me in my tracks and kept me solitary while David was finishing now things up in Goshen. It has lately become such a journey of such immense gratitude and beauty. I cannot even describe it, but that’s the other side of the soulful withdrawal.

    Your tiger painting is STUNNING. Really powerful. Lots of love, Sue! Thank you for being you. 🙂

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  3. derrickjknight
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 13:43:24

    Great depth here, Sue. Good to see you stepping forward. Excellent painting

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  4. Miriam
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 13:58:02

    Nature teaches us many lessons and brings us so many signs Sue. I do believe you were shown that there is in fact light and hope. Your tiger painting is absolutely stunning and the power comes through so very strong. Keep painting Sue and never doubt that your positive thought provoking words make a difference because they absolutely do. Sending you peace, love and my warmest wishes xo ❤️

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  5. Soul Gifts
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 14:40:36

    We each contribute to increasing the Light in the world according to what guidance and skills we have, Sue. I question and doubt too at times. The going gets heavy, as it has been of late again. It is at those times I am reminded that what we see on the physical plane is the cleansing in action – and it looks and feels murky and ugly. But it must be done. Just like a boil cannot heal until it has been lanced and the pus released, so too the earth and all that is in it. There already is much Light. Each time we send it out it increases exponentially. I prefer to focus on peace, Love and healing. Like a magnet energies also attract more of the same. Energy cannot be destroyed but it CAN be changed. So changing fear, anger, hatred etc etc to Love will always make a difference.. Your paintings are powerful and are sending healing energy to the world. Spread your wings and soar high!!!

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  6. nonsmokingladybug
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 14:42:28

    Wonderful painting. I am glad you are stepping forward.

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  7. Teagan R. Geneviene
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 14:58:01

    Sue! The tiger is absolutely breathtaking!
    Never give in to the darkness. Hugs on the wing. ❤

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  8. Visionkeeper
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 16:02:03

    Well lady, when you disappear you always return with amazing gifts, amazing insights and amazing clarity…A truly beautiful tiger! Every little detail, the overall image.Well done DW. It really is beautiful. You are at a much different level of creation now…Very professional.

    As For your thoughts I could not agree more as I am sure you know. Quite a bit of this turmoil has also included quite large solar flares so we’re being blasted open I think 🙂 These times are often overwhelming. For those who have been on the journey all this time, we probably know more about the reality unfolding than we would like to know, but it has all been part of the learning process. Knowing what can be but seeing what is, now that is tough. We will get through this together!That said, I just want you to know that this march while nice for some kids to be heard and I appreciate that completely, I also have to say that it is manipulated as they all are, most likely George Soros 😦 They had a news guy out there asking them questions about the second amendment, gun control etc and many of them couldn’t answer the questions because they didn’t know! They are there because they are being encouraged to protest/march but they don’t even know why! I know you know what I’m talking about. …

    And to Mrs. Hawk I say, thank you for coming your way. Signs are such a wonderful way to live. It is what puts the magic into life! What a strong totem animal to show itself! Lucky you. The timing was obviously spot on and off you go 🙂 I’m happy she was there for you with her messages. You and your hawk and me and my ‘Bizzy Bunny’…Oh yeah! Have fun communicating with her.

    Thanks for sharing your beautiful self with us all…Words, paintings and insights. One stop shopping my friend 🙂 🙂 🙂 Thanks! Be well and have a good week ahead…Hugs and love your way….VK ❤

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Mar 29, 2018 @ 16:10:14

      Yes I agree with the solar flares VK, and thank you for your compliments.. And I rescued your comment, and Hope all is well now with Akismet.. Its a pain I know when we leave comments and they vanish.. I was blessed by Mrs Hawk and I am blessed by your friendship also VK.. Thank you.. Sending much love dear friend.. Take care ❤

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  9. marina kanavaki
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 16:10:35

    Your pictures are a true reflection of your heart, my sweet friend: BEAUTIFUL! Stepping back is …elementary, is it not? Or, as I like to say taking a deep dive and then reemerging! 😉 Sending you love and many hugs! 🙂 xoxoxoxoxoxo

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  10. Seenorway
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 16:19:16

    Your tiger looks very friendly, which may be a serious mistake on my part! 🙂

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  11. thespiritkeeper
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 16:52:41

    I know exactly what you are going through with the piece of the puzzle fitting.I call them coincidences, mistakes, accidents, what is meant to be but some people know that these don’t exist and when the pieces of the puzzle fit at a quick pace I call that being in line with Spirit. I have gone through this in the last couple of months and still keep going through this to this day. It is hard to explain as you have to tag so many incidents back and forth in one post people would think I am babbling so I just enjoy the process and I know on these point how you feel.
    The events surrounding us are truths now coming to the forefront. These incidents are sometimes not the faint for heart. The signs as you say are coming to the forefront now as humanity is to view these incidents, some not pleasant and others not pleasant either. Unfortunately I look at this as Humanity being cleansed Spiritually. Yes, Consciousness is being elevated in this time. This is to allow a new chapter for the better for humanity. Yes we must lift our own wings as this shows strength. The Sparrow Hawk fulfills its destiny what sometimes we perceive as an aggression but it is part of nature as the sparrows are part of nature as well and are aggressive to their own species and other species of birds. We can go to the top of the food chain and we have mankind at the top and mankind is aggressive as well perhaps the most aggressive. Like I said everything else in the world fulfills its destiny and the only ones that don’t is mankind.
    Beautiful painting of the tiger. Sending you healing and strength ❤

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Mar 29, 2018 @ 17:23:49

      Dearest Joseph,what a beautiful comment with so much wisdom.. I agree Humanity is undergoing cleansing, we have built so many layers in our karmic records, so much needs to be peeled away as we learn to let go and release that which we no longer need. I am not surprised you understood perfectly my words. Spirit often work best through us when we go into our quiet zones.
      I so thank you for your healing thoughts, and for your lovely compliments upon the Tiger.. I am striding forward stronger, but not rushing.. It may take me several days to answer all of your amazing comments.. I was touched beyond words and brought to tears by the kindness of your words and those of others who have shown such love here..
      Many many thanks Joseph.. Have a wonderful weekend,
      Love and Blessings ❤

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  12. Sageleaf
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 16:58:11

    Sweet Sue, honoring yourself in this way means that, in a way, you give the rest of us permission to do this, as well. You can feel all your feelings in your words. The goings-on of the world are also going on in your heart. I understand this. I also understand what it is to need to step away. I love your beautiful analogy about the soaring bird. Just by coming here to this site, and by reading all your words, and seeing all the responses and community that gathers here, it is like a big blog circle of peace minded friends. We are metaphorically smoking the peace pipe. We are metaphorically elevating our vibrations to create more love. As you mentioned the students yesterday who did the March for our Lives, my mind drifted to the moment when I tuned in and heart Martin Luther King, Jr.’s granddaughter telling the crowd to repeat an affirmation. It brought tears to my eyes that, perhaps, we may yet change the way of things. I will never understand the need to own military-style guns and I hope that there are enough enlightened people in this country to stop it. There is a lot of love, and a lot of strength in our young people. They are taking their responsibility seriously and doing a pretty good job of it. 🙂
    Ah, friend. I hope you soar and heal, and paint and feel the love coming toward you from all over the world – in the people who are part of your community. Sending you big hugs full of love and light. ✨💜✨💜

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Mar 29, 2018 @ 17:57:14

      Loved your own analogy too Cynthia about smoking the peace pipe. And yes I saw the speech of MLK Jr’s Granddaughter, I was in tears also.. As I was with all of your comments that each of you left here.. I have soared higher and my spirits have been lifted even higher since i wrote these words. But I am not rushing back too soon.. I am giving myself breathing room.. I have a painting half finished and will be enjoying an Easter break also.. Sending you huge hugs also Cynthia.. I am so grateful for your friendship.. Love and Blessings Sue ❤ x

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  13. InfiniteZip
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 17:18:38

    this post resounded so loudly with me Sue, although like a whisper of a wind pushing through I knew how you felt even without you having to say the words, gathering my dreams in the wind catcher and sending healing thoughts and prayers to help. Hugs and love and you are missed but we are all connected so you are here 🙂 peace, K

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  14. balroop2013
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 18:31:39

    Dear Sue, your reflections going up and down in this post truly show how out thought process works…how we oscillate between hope and despair, each time pulling ourselves into light…positivity always triumphs if we try to balance the blessings around us.
    Love that painting of the tiger…looks so real…reminds of the poem ‘Aunt Jennifer’s Tigers’ which stand in sharp contrast to her personality.
    Your garden is looking fabulous! Nice to see you back dear friend. Love and hugs.

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Mar 30, 2018 @ 12:30:48

      Bless you dear Balroop, and yes we constantly oscillate between the two, thankfully we have grown in wisdom over time and can reach down deep to pull ourselves back up into the light.. Thank you for your lovely compliments of my painting, I so enjoyed painting it. And it now hangs on my wall to watch over me.. 🙂 As a reminder to keep going forward.. 🙂 ❤

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  15. Playamart - Zeebra Designs
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 19:35:12

    powerful!

    the painting confirms that ‘inward’ retrospection does not marry well with immersion in society, even thru cyberspace. it’s important to get ultra quiet and sometimes just go ‘blank’ and allow that higher self to take you to calming places.

    it’s a very powerful painting that almost makes me cry; cry, because i am so touched by its beauty and of your story and knowing that you followed your inner voice which led you to creating this painting!

    i’m sooo glad to be online and able to view and comment while it’s still ultra fresh!

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Mar 30, 2018 @ 12:48:57

      And I am so delighted you were able to access the internet to leave me your wonderful message Lisa.. I had to follow my instincts and lay low for a while, In fact I am only surfacing for a time to respond here to the wonderful comments that also brought me to tears. And yes I agree we have to go to that calming place, and we both get taken to that place when we paint. Your compliments of my painting, from such a great artist as yourself I am overjoyed at receiving.. Thank you so very much Lisa..
      Many thanks my friend, take care on your travels xxx ❤

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  16. thinkinkadia
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 20:01:28

    Dear Sue!
    Hang on to hope knowing that everyone is trying to make a difference in our world; just that some are operating at varied levels or diverse frequencies. I had felt very disillusioned after doing my work in Kashmir, India, but my mistake was that I thought I could make a difference and I couldn’t.
    Having evolved over time, I found a new way to reach people and wrote a fiction book to convey what’s possible. But again, I told myself, this is a never ending, evergreen assignment. I must continue to be tolerant, be respectful, keep writing, and never give up. One day the right person might read and understand the book. Or, come up with a better idea, and that is what matters!
    ❤️You are doing your part and that is important💞

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  17. Wendy Gillissen
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 20:35:07

    Ah, dear Sue, the tiger is lovely! Oh, the emotional washing machine, it can be such a challenge… I’ve been going through it too, the ”dark night of the soul” for years and years now, and yes, sometimes it can feel like it’s too much to bear. This year especially, it feels like the everything is coming to a head in a very forceful way. And yet I have moments of utter clarity in which I KNOW that all is well, everything exactly as it should be and it all serves a purpose. The universe is truly nurturing and gearing towards our highest good. Thanks for sharing your experiences and lovely pictures of Nature communicating with you, and your lovely tiger of course! Lots of love ♥

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Mar 30, 2018 @ 13:15:12

      Likewise Wendy, I had come to that stage of Clarity, them BOOM! I got knocked sideways emotionally as I allowed the collective energies to swamp me too much.. I thought I had protected myself more, but somehow it felt like the rug had been pulled from beneath me.. I did lots of cleansing and went back to basics, I know you will understand this.. I had allowed myself to be too open..
      I know our karmic wheel is in motion and many things which we view as chaotic have to unfold to be cleared out, I understand this, but my emotional body was not in sync with my energy body.. And I crumpled for a time…
      Thank you for your lovely compliments, Tiger is now on my wall, watching over me, and a reminder to keep moving forward while cleansing ourselves..
      I can not wait for Spring to open up her heart as I reconnect to plant seeds.. Gather nettles and Just sit in her magnificence
      Much love dear Wendy and thank you again for the love .. And that ‘Knowing’ xxx ❤

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      • Wendy Gillissen
        Mar 31, 2018 @ 19:29:07

        Ah, Sue I so understand! I’m glad you’re finding the way back to yourself again. Enjoy sitting in Mother Nature’s lap – I can’t wait to gather my nettles again too! Big hugs xxx♥

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  18. Jacqueline King
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 20:54:48

    I have been having experiences that echo yours for five years now, Sue and have rested and taken stock, feeling that I have nothing to say. But now I’m beginning to find my ‘voice’ again ~ and I know you will too. Your tiger painting is absolutely stunning, keep working at your art and it will all come good. Take care, dear lady, lots of love. ❤

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Mar 30, 2018 @ 13:26:50

      Many thanks Jacqueline, I so appreciate you stopping by to leave me your love and I am delighted that you have started to post more frequently, I am still following you and yet they do not have appeared to have come into my reader.. Which I have been using more than email links recently, before my absence as my inbox is overflowing.. Something I have to sort out.. Many thanks for your well wishes.. Sending Hugs right back xx

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  19. mihrank
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 21:00:05

    Your title stepping-back-to-step-forward – tells many important elements and facts – the picture is powerful talking about our thoughts to move forward!!

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Mar 30, 2018 @ 13:31:29

      Thank you Mihran, Sometimes we have to take one step back in order to take two steps forward 🙂 Many thanks for your compliments upon my painting, I very much appreciate your words and visit my friend xx

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  20. smilecalm
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 21:08:56

    i’m happy you’ve popped back out
    sharing your aches and hopes
    living in this out of sorts world, Sue!
    may you take the steps in each direction
    necessary to feel safe, cared for and happy.
    may we all ride of the earth’s changing winds
    as caring beams of light
    fearless of the dark
    and unknown 🙂

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Mar 30, 2018 @ 13:46:32

      Many thanks dear David for your kind warm and welcome words of comfort. Indeed may we all ride those winds of change as we aim to bring light into the shadows.. Love and Blessings my friend and thank you ❤

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  21. The Coastal Crone
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 21:27:35

    Perhaps the Sparrow Hawk is telling you to let go of the woes of this world and soar above them and take care of yourself. May you find peace in light and words.

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  22. Mark Lanesbury
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 22:05:58

    You have reached that part where your heart has let go of what no longer serves dear lady. It is most certainly a large part of who you are, but because of that will take some time to adjust. My journey left me so drained that I could barely function on a day to day level. The emotions are the hardest part as they also leave you in such a confused and questioning state trying to understand what is happening. But gradually you ‘shift’ into what you have become, that change you have been working on for so long even though we don’t think we are actually doing anything. That is why it takes us off guard because its like any journey, we have been doing the one thing (traveling) for so long that when we suddenly arrive at the destination, everything stops. We then have to adjust to this new way of being, especially the new view at where we have arrived. It takes time so allow that Sue, and like anything emotional we go through it will take time, and teaches us a little more of that thing called patience 😀
    You have sensed this by your paintings, allowing the change to come through faster by ‘letting go’ and meditating or picking up your brush. And I might add, beautifully ‘letting go’ at that 😀
    When it all settles you will ‘feel’ the change, it is much more peaceful and accepting. Even to the point that you begin to ‘let go’ of this world, and I mean that as in an acceptance of what happens has purpose, the good and the bad, and no longer holds you in its patterns ❤
    Just hold that peace my friend, it is a light in the wilderness, one that no longer needs to be lit by anything but what you have become ❤

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Mar 30, 2018 @ 14:17:08

      Dear Mark, words can not express, as the tears fell as I read your kind words.. I know you too have experienced the road of ups and downs. Learning to navigate it, one has to use our instincts a bit like a compass, following where our hearts needle points us.. The peace is once again settling, yet I still know I need more solitude to regain my balance.. This last wave, hit harder as my emotional body became swamped as I allowed myself to become too open to the collective energies.. A lesson perhaps needed as more layers I had thought healed once again peeled over to reveal an new open wound that would not close over and heal..
      So yes, I have painted some more and will continue to paint a while yet, as I regain that Peace..

      Many thanks Mark for your wonderful friendship and kindness and for knowing just what I needed to hear..
      Love and Blessings
      Sue ❤

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      • Mark Lanesbury
        Mar 30, 2018 @ 21:39:40

        The hardest part for me Sue was in finally seeing what was causing my pain (the rejection from my dad), I though I finally understood and began to let it go, and about twelve months after that another similar situation came up and flattened me again. I was so shocked because I thought I had faced my fear…but in truth it takes much more to go past it. It has taken a lifetime to build this monster and it does take time to break free and realign into the truth we have discovered in facing it. Over the last few years it has risen and ‘tested’ my heart and each time it becomes weaker and weaker until now it no longer ‘raises a sweat’ so to speak 😀
        And it is that process of understanding why we reacted as we did, realising that it was my view of my dad and how he treated me that slowly gave me the realisation that he too was a product of his own father, and was only doing what he was taught to show love.
        We all break free my friend, just by understanding why we held those walls of fear, and in doing so it loses its power over us and finally shows us a love we have always searched for…the ability to love ourselves in that understanding.
        And that is its whole purpose, one cannot be found without the other, through those conditions we place on ourselves in those fears, is the ability to break through and in doing so find what we have always been searching for, that happiness in finally finding ourselves, the unconditional love…our love ❤

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        • Sue Dreamwalker
          Mar 31, 2018 @ 12:39:18

          I can so understand that Mark, And recently trying to write my poetry into order and what prompted their creation into some sort of book form. I too re-opened a can of worms of my childhood and my own vulnerability of trying to fathom out my Mother and her treatment of me. I wish I could pin point it to the same, of a bad upbringing from my grandparents, But they showed us nothing but love. What ever was the trigger along with World Events my emotions felt in shreds. And like you I had thought myself over the worst and strong.. Seems my layers went deeper and who knows maybe they are life times deeper.. But I will keep working on shedding them.. 🙂 I have no intention of letting fear or negative energy pull me back down..
          So thank you so much Mark for sharing that here.. We all agreed to this Journey, and I have every intention of doing my best to complete it this time around.. 🙂 💚

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          • Mark Lanesbury
            Mar 31, 2018 @ 13:05:53

            From all I have seen dear lady, most cannot ‘see’ anything wrong with their parents or those they love and look up to. It is only because we are very young when these fears take root into a very young emotionally immature mind that our only defense is to ram it down hard and put that wall up to block that pain. And in doing that very thing we can no longer ‘see’ what built it because we are so afraid to look at that pain, and can’t understand its meaning anyway because we are so young.
            And we very effectively promote that fear into this ‘thing’ that we drag around forever, but in doing so we keep the fear at a grand level, on into adult hood, not realising that it is only a fear because we don’t understand it. We are still viewing it from that childhood terror.
            When it is understood, the relief and ‘let go’ is beyond belief, simply because of what we have endured and because we can now see it for what it was, and its power over us will then begin to be released, finally setting us free.
            Just be gentle with yourself my friend and take plenty of time for you ❤

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  23. Val Boyko
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 22:09:34

    Wonderful words Sue. They really resonated with me today. I have goosebumps and feel a rise of loving energy reaching across the ocean to you.
    The sparrow hawk has been visiting my back yard over the past few weeks too. At first I was dismayed, because of the havoc it brought to the birds at our feeders… and then I realized its message is about trusting in Nature and flying high to see the bigger picture that brings harmony.
    There is hope and love 💕

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Mar 30, 2018 @ 14:26:35

      Bless your heart dear Val, yes likewise about the Hawk, I too was dismayed about the havoc hawk caused among the feeders.. But as you say, she came to teach and show us both sides.. We have to keep that bigger picture in our hearts and see that all things have purpose and a reason, and nothing and no one is ever lost.. We all transform as we learn and grow.. I know, there is indeed HOPE for the future ..

      Love and Blessings dearest Val and thank you so much xx ❤

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  24. Val Boyko
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 22:12:42

    p.s. The moving tiger is wonderful! May you bring fierce kindness and kind fierceness on your path 💛

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  25. Writing to Freedom
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 22:30:13

    Wow Sue. Just look at the outpouring of love your words and painting have stirred. The Tiger painting is stunning and interesting that I just visited a big cat sanctuary with many tigers and lions. They’re such majestic and powerful animals. Please never doubt you are a blessing and make an impact. Thank you for sharing your gifts of words, painting, sensitivity, and modeling self-care. I’m delighted that you are so tuned into what you need and want. Big hugs and blessings!

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Mar 30, 2018 @ 14:57:27

      I know Brad, your wonderful comments reduced me to tears, Many thanks for your wonderful words Brad, I so thank you for your hugs and for your thoughts and blessings my friend.. I needed to follow my instincts and take time out for a while.. I know I am so blessed by your friendship and that of others here on WordPress.. I am ever grateful for your love and support.. Thank you so very much ❤ 🙂

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  26. Tom Merriman
    Mar 25, 2018 @ 23:01:38

    I love your tiger painting, Sue, and your words in this post as well. Your signs and triggers are definitely there as guides, and it is good that you are paying heed to them. Continue to look after you and come back when you are ready.

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Mar 30, 2018 @ 15:09:47

      Thank you dear Tom, and yes I paid heed, and now have Tiger up on the wall to remind me .. I am taking my return in slow stages as I get to grips with all of these fabulous comments you have all left me.. Enjoy your weekend.. Mega Hugs xx ❤

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  27. Paul Handover
    Mar 26, 2018 @ 01:13:15

    Dear Sue, I really cannot add anything more beautiful and loving than the words already penned by others. I read your post aloud to Jeannie first thing this morning and the sincerity and integrity coming from you was as bright and clear as an Oregon full moon rising over the mountains on a summer’s night!

    To know yourself in the way that you do, being so honest and gentle with yourself, is beautiful and inspiring!

    Fondest thoughts from Jeannie and me!

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Mar 30, 2018 @ 15:35:14

      Paul, thank you so much for your kind words and for your friendship. Learning to take stock and time out is important.. This time around I was hit hard emotionally as the ‘collective wave’ of humanity opened up my heart.. Lessons I needed to learn in order to move into a more balanced state of BEing. The Moon I am sure also played its part, lol along with the Solar flares.. 🙂 I have been nurturing my self and taking things in easy strides as I get back into the world of blog..
      My painting is still holding me in its grip as I am now painting a portrait.. Something I have never tried before… Which is keeping me busy and focused.
      Bless your hearts and thank you again Paul, I so appreciate our long firm friendship through the years.. Many thanks..
      Sue 🙂

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  28. Mabel Kwong
    Mar 26, 2018 @ 09:36:40

    It sounds like a bit of a tug-and-war time for you and your soul, for you and your searching heart. But in the process what wonderful paintings you have created. That Tiger looks so determined, leaping through the cold fearlessly and looking ahead, moving forward – which I think that is what all of us need to do. I also like the softness of the strokes about this painting, that it has a soft look and aesthetic too it – which reminds me in times where we are lost, it’s important to be gentle with ourselves and try not to stress ourselves out.

    I am also a believer of signs. For instance, right now we are in Mercury Retrograde and some things already haven’t gone my way. They aren’t massive things but things enough to annoy me because they always used to work and be that way. We all go through phases like this. Take your time and paint away. We will all be here when you are ready to come back and blog. Take care and stay safe. Hugs ❤

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Mar 31, 2018 @ 13:14:17

      Thank you Mabel, I am being gentle with myself.. and taking my time to fully be back here in WP..
      I so thank you for your lovely comment.. I came by and left you a long comment, posted it twice.. But it has vanished I hope you may rescue me again as I remember I ended up in Spam before.. Seems to happen a lot lately to me..
      So hope you find it.. if not its saved in my notes.. Hope I am rescued.. Much love dear friend xx ❤

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  29. Visionkeeper
    Mar 26, 2018 @ 12:17:19

    Well DW, I’m trying this comment again….Akismet has supposedly done some tweaking so hopefully I am back in business. I sent you an email explaining….Love everything about this post! And the tiger!!!! Wow! So beautifully and professionally done….Keep at it my friend….Hugs…VK ❤

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  30. Jennie
    Mar 26, 2018 @ 12:59:39

    Wonderful, heartfelt post, Sue. Yes, the emotional washing machine is at it again. Yet, it eventually cleanses the mind and heart. Your sign is a good one. Take heed. And, your tiger painting is outstanding!!

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  31. -Eugenia
    Mar 26, 2018 @ 13:47:31

    Your painting is stunning, Sue, and what a wonderful way to release living through these stressful times. We all should take a step back every now and then because that’s the time to take inventory of what is going on around us. We can make a difference by keeping ourselves on an even keel in order to care for others. Thank you for sharing your beautiful and heartfelt thoughts.

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Mar 31, 2018 @ 13:34:23

      Bless you Eugenia, And yes, stepping back is as important as stepping forward.. We do need time out to take stock.. Happy you enjoyed my Tiger.. 🙂 and i enjoyed your company.. Very many thanks Eugenia.. I appreciate your beautiful thoughts xx

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  32. Maria Wind Talker
    Mar 26, 2018 @ 15:46:59

    Sue such a powerful post, im sat here crying my eyes out!!!!
    This is most definitely a time of upheaval,not only for the planet but within each one of us. So with you on the jigsaw, its almost like we finally get it then what we learned is null and void and we start with a new puzzle. And what an absolute blessing to have Sparrow Hawk come visit with its profound message of truth. Even in our darkest hour we are always being guided toward the light.
    Lots of love and healing to you Sue. ❤ xxx

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  33. Maria Wind Talker
    Mar 26, 2018 @ 15:47:50

    Reblogged this on Maria Wind Talker and commented:
    Sue hits the nail on the head every time. Profound wisdom ❤

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  34. New Bloggy Cat
    Mar 26, 2018 @ 16:21:05

    The painting of the tiger is magnificent, Sue. Sometimes we feel the void because we love and care too much. It drains us mentally and emotionally and I believe this is part of life journey that we would go through at some point in our lives. When you’re ready, I know your spirits will soar again. Take care and take your time, my friend. Big hugs and love, Pat ╰(✿´⌣`✿)╯♡

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  35. insearchofitall
    Mar 26, 2018 @ 16:23:42

    I KNOW where you are and have been. You did exactly the right thing to bring yourself back up and stay out of that well. Pouring yourself into that painting was a good way to release the lower vibration and raise it full tilt. That painting is STUNNING! You can feel the tiger walking toward you. I’ve been some time resting and restoring myself. I’ve mentioned before that the only way I can watch the news of the world is to record it and watch in a fast forward motion with the sound off during anything but good news. I’m aware but not sucked down the hole. Most of it is nothing I can do anything about other than say a prayer for guidance. I started reading the material of Abraham Hicks many years ago and watching their videos on YouTube and it made more sense to me than anything I’ve ever come across. It answers those questions on why so many bad things happen. You are so on track with how to deal with the craziness of the world. AH is just another tool. Most of us that are “sensitive” need all the help we can get. The empath has a hard time watching the suffering we see. I’m always here for you. You can e-mail me anytime you want to share your struggle. It’s wonderful you have such a good family support. I have my daughter who keeps popping in and we help each other. Sending love and hugs. M

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Mar 31, 2018 @ 14:06:39

      Thank you dear Marlene.. I can not tell you how much your words meant.. We understand so very much similar things you and I.. And yes the paintings all were needed.. I too love Abraham Hicks.. and have several DVD’s which my daughter bought me.. Very inspiring and full of wisdom.. And puts a lot into perspective when we look through a different lens.
      Thank you for that offer of email too Marlene.. I will bare that in mind my friend.. We who are on a similar path keep learning to shed that which is no longer needed and releasing and letting go.. Which is what the world in fact is doing, yet we can not see it, for all we see it from is the human perspective of suffering..
      But the karmic wheel is being spun, and circles are closing as others are opening..
      Its wonderful to know your daughter is such a great help to you.. Family mean everything..
      Love and Hugs.. ❤ and Thank you so very much again.. ❤

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  36. sanctuaryofthewhiterose
    Mar 26, 2018 @ 16:29:16

    Reblogged this on Sanctuary of the White Rose.

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  37. Ka Malana - Fiestaestrellas.com
    Mar 26, 2018 @ 17:11:17

    Sue, Your loving energy and your beautiful image of the tiger, are breathtaking and breath giving! Hawk often visits us here, too. What you write about are thoughts that I often have, but it is, I suppose more about a sensation of awareness. I feel so much is right here, right in the ‘superspace’ of our consciousness, accessing quantum states and going beyond time. I find your paintings to be incredibly inspiring and your world that you share with us is sincere, and embracing of nature and in our oneness. Thank you for you. Aloha, Ka

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Mar 31, 2018 @ 14:26:51

      Many thanks dear Ka for you kindness and, yes so many things now are opening our awareness at greater speed. Time lines and energies are moving our thoughts and our realities which at times I feel exhausted in catching my breath.
      At times I just have to turn off and tune out to replenish..
      Hawk was a wonderful reminder for me that of victim and predator..
      Thank you Ka.. would that I had more energy today, I would love to go more indepth into our conversation over quantum physics 🙂
      Sending LOVE and Light my friend.. ❤

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  38. Bela Johnson
    Mar 26, 2018 @ 22:00:07

    Hey sweetie. I’m glad you’re taking care of yourself, but because I care about you, I am sorry you’ve once again ‘gone to the dark side.’ I’m often reminded of A Clockwork Orange from back in the day – I feel like the guy whose eyes were forced open, but to me it’s not a bad thing. I see the world for what it is and have no expectations it will ever be significantly different. There have been and always will be wonderful people in it. There have been and always will be cruelty and terror. As long as our precious Earth is held in a gravitational field, polarized north and south, I suspect those polarities will remain with all life upon Her. If humans continue to precipitate extinction of species, they, too shall become extinct and the earth shall once again renew herself. Life is certainly not without consequences.

    You know we share the visionary aspect, and I’ve often ‘seen’ different outcomes. But since my dear friend Lea died, I’ve been given certain knowledge of holographic overlays. I wonder, since these overlays are like ultra-thin glass slides in a microscope, if we are getting bleedthroughs to another frequency that will one day perhaps obviate itself to us directly. And the transition will be easy. So without getting into it unduly, imagine an undamaged earth where energy exchanges are all we need – no wires, poles, even food except for the sheer enjoyment of tasting it. I suspect you know what I mean. Yet to expect *this* reality to *become* that would be a tremendous exercise in frustration and perhaps futility, at least for me. Meanwhile I bless each precious sunrise and sunset and offer what I can, where it makes sense. And await the future with an openness to miracles.

    Sending you buckets of love and rainbows and blessings, sweet Sue. Aloha. The breath of life to you! ❤

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Mar 31, 2018 @ 14:47:13

      Bless your heart Bela.. Your buckets of Love are so appreciated as are your rainbows..
      I so understand what you mean.. Like dimensions are thinning and overlapping.. And I keep trying to envision that world Bela.. Which is why I often have to retreat from the one we call reality and dive into my own creative one..
      I think that I came to the point of realisation also, that the same patterns will keep on repeating.
      The trick is to break our own loop and live our own reality.

      The more you come to learn, the less you know.🤔 And I agree, we seem set for annihilation if we do not change our ways.
      My thoughts took me back as I read your comment to Atlantis.. Wondering just how far we came before, to start again.. And if this experiment of Human species will ever work.. or will it ever evolve through love?

      Bless you Bela. I so appreciate your love and energy you send.. Many thanks my dear friend.. ❤

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  39. dgkaye
    Mar 26, 2018 @ 23:28:32

    Thank you for sharing your enlightenment Sue. I’m still on vacation and caught this post. I can surely identify with all you’ve written. 2018 started out chaotic – more a continuation or the latter part of 2017. I felt the walls closing in on me in every direction and by some miracle my hub became well enough for us to be able to get out of dodge and it’s been a world of good spending a month in warm sunshine! Hope floats and we will prevail my friend.
    Sending you beautiful warm hugs from Puerto Vallarta, Mexico!!! ❤ xoxo

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  40. Infinite Living
    Mar 27, 2018 @ 00:41:19

    You created an exact mental picture of a whirling mind that can take us with it in its descent in to the void. The tiger that you painted exactly portrays the fierceness of your intention that would not let you slip away. That all the time you had figured out how the pieces of the puzzle fit before they blew away – has left a knowing in you of how they would fit back again, and you do have the courage to pick up the pieces again. It does make a difference Sue, your work, your words, your intentions, your presence and your absence (because it is felt) – it does make a difference. While you take your time away it does make a difference how you feed into your intentions, sending the ripples back to us when post this way.

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  41. Tina Frisco
    Mar 27, 2018 @ 03:27:50

    Dear Sue, I am right beside you. I’m so glad you’re taking the time you need to reflect and heal. One of the first things my shaman teacher told me long ago was this: ‘What we choose not to look at controls our lives.’ Our wonderful community here is so supportive. It’s a blessing we don’t have to do this alone. Your tiger has such a look of expectation on her face ~ ‘Wait! I’m coming! Don’t leave without me!’ That’s often how I feel ~ that the boat is sailing and I’m being left behind. This hit me really had during my recent flareup. So I reviewed my research on Ascension and posted an article. It helped me immensely. Perhaps it will help you. My love and thoughts are with you, dear friend. We are all one ❤❤❤ https://sistersofthefey.wordpress.com/2018/03/21/ascension/

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Apr 01, 2018 @ 10:51:33

      I know, at times I get so despondent and tired Tina, and like you said in your article link here, we just want to go home.. Yet our work is far from done. Many thanks for your compliments and for the energies sent with your love. I agree, this Geomagnetic Wave has affected many of us who are sensitive deeply. Allowing no doubt our internal changes to keep Transforming to the frequencies we require..
      Words are never enough, but I am so grateful to have so many good friends walk and share our journeys together.. We are indeed ALL ONE! ❤

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  42. JoAnna
    Mar 27, 2018 @ 03:59:25

    Your beautiful tiger is so full of energy and life with an expression of knowing – giving me assurance that deep down, you are well and strong. It’s so good to “hear” your voice again through your words. We do need to take a step back at times. I’ve had a bad cold for over a week now, though it didn’t stop me from participating in the “March for Our Lives” locally. Hearing the young people speak up with such strength gave me so much hope. My cold has baffled me because I rarely get sick, but your explanation has helped me accept that I need to rest. I remember that old Doris Day song from my childhood. Like this whole post, it is such a comfort to me. Take care! ❤

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Apr 01, 2018 @ 11:44:34

      Dear JoAnna, I trust your cold is now on the mend my friend.. And Wonderful to know you participated in the March for our Lives too.. And yes their young hearts and words inspired me for our future.. I hope your Choir service went well my friend and that you have a perfect Easter Sunday.. LOVE and Blessings to you my friend and thank you so much for your warm well wishes 🙂

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  43. Denzil
    Mar 27, 2018 @ 08:53:13

    A beautiful painting Sue. And remarkable insights into your sign. I send you blessings

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Apr 01, 2018 @ 11:52:04

      Many thanks dear Denzil, I very much appreciate your compliments and thoughts.. I left you a comment upon your blog Discovering Belgium, the beautiful gardens post, but I am having problems it seems with being sent into Spam on some blogs.. So I hope if you have time you can go find me and fish me out..
      As it helps me not get spammed into other folders.. Many thanks again Denzil.. Sue

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  44. prenin
    Mar 27, 2018 @ 13:38:01

    Hi Sue! 🙂

    I have started to take my life back from the darkness that has been my constant companion since I was a child.

    It feels strange to be free after decades of abuse and persecution, but now I am growing again and getting stronger every day! 🙂

    Like a wise man said: “Don’t look back, you’re not heading that way!” 🙂

    Love and huge squishy hugs my friend!!! 🙂 ❤

    Prenin.

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  45. peggyjoan42
    Mar 27, 2018 @ 16:23:00

    Gobbs of LOVE to you Sue. I know what depression does to one’s body and soul – it takes the strength of a lion to fight against the challenges of this life. Bless you and prayers for your well being. xxoo Peggy

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  46. Robert Matthew Goldstein
    Mar 28, 2018 @ 01:45:57

    Sue this is a wonderful post. I know the feeling of looking at the puzzle pieces of my life and wondering if they’ll ever make sense, particularly in light of world events; that feeling of being wrung out, shut down. It’s important to know that it’s OK to shut off our computers to be present in the moment, to appreciate what we still have and to be glad that we are not on the side of chaos and destruction. Your tiger is a gorgeous animal spirit and you are a warrior. Thank you for sharing your thoughts.

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  47. Robert Matthew Goldstein
    Mar 28, 2018 @ 01:47:05

    Reblogged this on Art by Rob Goldstein and commented:
    from Sue Dreamwalker

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  48. Renee Espriu
    Mar 28, 2018 @ 05:14:26

    You, yourself, may feel your absence more profoundly but you are never far from the beauty of your art, your words, of your encouragement of others. I have not written in a very long time now but that is how I am when so much is on my platter and with looking for a place, finally finding one, packing up the apartment and now on the verge of moving….perhaps, after I get settled once again I will write once more. We will sign the lease finally tomorrow afternoon and have all day Thursday and Friday to move as much of the small things as we can before a few family members come on Saturday to move the heavy things and furniture for us. It is difficult since surgery to request help but partner is a cancer survivor, I, of course, now with an artificial heart valve and both at 65yrs of age tire easily. But it is yet another chapter, a page unturned and I am hopeful it will be better in this new place. I also hope for you that your art and family have given you positive support and that your smile will continue to show through for so many. Be well my friend. xoxo

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Apr 01, 2018 @ 13:06:56

      Bless you Renee.. I hope your move goes well my friend and that you find help with all of the lifting of the heavy things..
      My smile is still in place, and I am learning to nurture myself more than I have been doing..
      Many thanks for your kindness and your support Renee… I know when you are settled we shall be having wonderful poetry again from you and your own art creations..
      Sending Lots of love your way..
      Sue 🙂

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      • Renee Espriu
        Apr 07, 2018 @ 05:00:09

        So glad you are doing well. My move went fairly well, due to lots of planning and the fact that we spent 2 days before moving small things (no furniture). I had family help and although it was a very long day for me, the apartment location is much better. My fibromyalgia (as you know) causes me to be in lots of pain but I do what I need to do. After the move was done we still had to go back to clean the apartment but I am glad it is over. Now I will take it easy for a time, except when I go to help watch my granddaughters in a week or so, as my daughter just bought her first house….long overdue for her. Do take care. xoxo

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  49. kowkla123
    Mar 28, 2018 @ 12:07:59

    lass dich vom Wetter nicht entmutigen, Klaus

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Apr 01, 2018 @ 13:24:36

      Ich wünsche Ihnen frohe Ostern auch Klaus.
      Entschuldigungen Ich war eine Zeitlang nicht in WordPress, da ich mich schon lange nicht mehr mit dem Bloggen beschäftigt habe.
      Ich sende Ihnen meine guten Wünsche für einen schönen Ostersonntag ..
      Umarmungen Sue ❤

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  50. robbiesinspiration
    Mar 28, 2018 @ 19:13:10

    I am sorry, Sue, that you are feeling so much pain. You need to look at the positives and at the small differences you can make to change the world. Few of us can make massive changes that turn things around overnight but we can all make small differences to other people.

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Apr 01, 2018 @ 13:26:49

      Bless you Robbie, I so understand all of that… I am stepping back into the world of blog a little at a time.. and apologies its taken so long to reply ..
      Wishing you and your family a Wonderful Easter
      Love and Hugs.. ❤

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  51. stephensmustang1
    Mar 28, 2018 @ 19:35:43

    Love this post..I feel so much like you did. Love the painting. It is beautiful. The hawk is beautiful as is the snow.
    I hope to find some time for me to rest…thus far it has not happened but I am so very, very tired.
    Glad to see you back. Love and hugs.

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Apr 02, 2018 @ 09:51:56

      After visiting your blog Elizabeth I am not surprised you are weary and tired. Goodness, what a lot on your plate. I hope you managed to get some rest in over Easter, but I doubt that with your Dad’s new fall and injury.. But I so thank you for the time you took to visit.. And for your lovely comments,
      Sending HUGE hugs and sending prayers for all who need it near you, Including you.. Remember too we have to nurture ourselves more.. A lesson I am learning. xx ❤

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      • stephensmustang1
        Apr 03, 2018 @ 03:08:51

        Took another ride w/my man today so that helped. I’m currently dog sitting (son #3’s dog which Stephen will take to him tomorrow evening) and doing laundry..but it’s quiet since dil, Little Cutie and Son #2 aren’t here now..and that’s a plus. 🙂 Love and hugs

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  52. europasicewolf
    Mar 29, 2018 @ 17:27:33

    Beautiful tiger Sue! And there was me just about to track back to the older leopard one I saved bit never commented on! 🙄

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  53. Eddie Two Hawks
    Mar 30, 2018 @ 13:45:40

    The Universe has plans that include Earth and all life here. What happens to us
    as individuals is our doing (or undoing). Mankind does have the capacity to do
    great things either united or otherwise. Focusing on needs over desires will help.

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Apr 01, 2018 @ 12:42:15

      Many thanks dear Eddie, at last I work my way down to your comment my friend, and I agree, the Universal plans are well under way. I am now focusing on my own needs more.. 🙂 Sending Love and Gratitude…
      Sue 🙂 💚

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  54. natswans
    Mar 31, 2018 @ 09:39:42

    The painting is beautiful Sue each stroke of your brush . Good to see you back here. My mum was in the depths of depression and to watch her was so heartbreaking. When she came back I hugged her and told her everything will be alright. Yet then I didn’t quite understand why she went there, being so young myself.
    Sendings you hugs , hope to see more painting’s as you have a great talent.
    Love Sheila xx

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Apr 01, 2018 @ 12:48:03

      Bless your heart Sheila.. Yes I sympathise with what your own Mother went through.. My own break down in the 90’s I would not wish on anyone.. and I was determined never to plunge into those depths again.. But it has been a struggle and I am being gentle on myself. So there will be more paintings for sure.
      Thank you Sheila.. I really appreciate our long friendship and hope also you are well.. Happy Easter my friend take care also.. ❤

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  55. underthepeepal
    Mar 31, 2018 @ 17:01:14

    Your painting is majestic, Sue..Life isn’t smooth these days for me, but your post gives me the much needed hope.
    I’m taking a step backwards to prance several steps forward towards my life’s mission.
    Thank you, Sue..God bless you..

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Apr 02, 2018 @ 10:06:13

      I am Happy Surya that my post in some way helped you.. I am sorry to hear that life has not been going well lately either, So many I see have been travelling this road recently.. So I hope and pray it soon passes..
      Many thanks for your kind words and compliments, I very much appreciated you taking time to visit and comment ..
      Much love and Blessings to you xx ❤

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  56. litebeing
    Mar 31, 2018 @ 23:37:45

    Hi Sue,
    I had read your post before and came back to bask in its sincerity and wisdom. You are becoming more of you and your art and musings reflect the love that you shine. Thank you for being you and loving yourself enough to take good care of you.

    namaste my friend

    love and hugs,
    Linda

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  57. Barbara Franken
    Apr 01, 2018 @ 08:20:18

    You know to lay now, it’s the body that is now changing and needs all the attention to relax and just be as it changes. It takes a while and while the body/mind does its natural job we can indeed focus on playing with paints, words and nature as we keep our vibration high… celebrating all life is and looking forward to the unknown territory that we are stepping into now. I love you tiger Sue… and love how you noticed the owl, just to remind you not to fall back into the void! No their are no victims, everything is just perfect. The Human is learning and the DivineHuman is remembering their true beingness. Much love and keep warm x Love Barbara x

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  58. Nihar Pradhan
    Apr 01, 2018 @ 14:44:14

    Dear Sue always a delight to see you back where you belong and where we all eagerly wait for your pearls of wisdom. That has been coming for decades and you deserve every break and that sets new dimension to the way we perceive the thoughts that comes from your deep, deep reflection, profound insights and the deeper philosophy of life, the questions that keep coming and many times these questions are innocuous in its presentation but other times these questions leaves us in deep lurch and we need to lift ourselves from such vortex of turmoil and turbulence. The flight we need to lift ourselves. Time is the best healer. Patience has power to fight the emotional patient we become because of the constant bombardment of things happening around us and we are pulled in agony.

    We need the clue and we need the support and it is nature that always comes to our rescue provided we are connected with nature and the signs and signals are there and it is for us to receive and process for our better reflection and realization of life. You have been doing so for years and constantly churning out one master piece of art to another master piece of inspiration through your poetry and there is no end to your source of such wonderful repository of hope, love and joy.

    Taking a much deserved break and making the break count through the brilliance of the colorful strokes on the canvas, I must say the painting looks simply stunning, so real as if the tiger is there in front of us, animated and enchanting the beauty of art. Everything is in the nature. The story of fight and flight sums the way nature and the creatures of nature exist and co-exist but that cannot bestow mercy on the prey by the predator, the sparrows are watched and the Hawks are constantly looking for such traps. That’s rule of nature. We as human beings are the biggest predator and the nature is crying foul and praying not to keep hammering and harming them the way we have been doing and there is a limit to such destructive subjugation.

    We need to be observant and we need loads of patience and life has its ways and means to show us what is right and what is wrong and though we get wrong end of the stick for being mean but when we are mindful of things around us we get the shower of nature that has all its beauty and bounty.

    I agree dear Sue we all need to step back and reflect before we could take that step forward in life and there is nothing wrong taking that step backward that what’s makes life so beautiful provided we are ready to let go things we have been holding so tightly and see the world in different perspectives.

    Thanks so much Dear Sue for sharing such lovely thoughts and the picture of your garden covered by such beautiful layers of snows and always always a delight and breathe of fresh air the moment I land here and then I take off with loads of inspiration.
    Have a wonderful week ahead.
    Take Care!!!
    😀

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Apr 08, 2018 @ 14:25:27

      Thank you dear Nihar firstly for your patience, and secondly for your lovely thoughts and observations. The Hawk and Sparrows indeed come to teach.

      This week has seen me out in my allotment gardens more, as the weather has been better. But to say it is April the temperatures here are still not as they should be.. It has been a long winter this year. But colour is not returning to the garden and I hope to be back to posting more and visiting soon..

      Stepping back is sometimes needed, as we need to focus and we prioritise that which we often put last. And that is upon ourselves. A task I have often failed to do. And then paid the consequences.. So this time around dear Nihar I am listening to self, and allowing my self room to just BE.

      Some days I am the Gardener, other days I am the artist.. And some days I am the writer.. 🙂 .. It is wonderful people like your good self here on WP within my blogging community that also have made me come to realise, You are like family..
      Each of you encouraging and so supportive and who understand that sometimes we need to step back a little every now and again..

      Many thanks again Nihar.. I hope you have a wonderful weekend, And I am working my way around back to your blog..

      Many thanks my friend xx
      Sue 🙂 💚🌈🙏

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      • Nihar Pradhan
        Apr 10, 2018 @ 16:52:11

        Dear Sue it feel so good to hear about the way you have been engaging with yourself, and more often in today’s WordPress World we have neglected it more than we expected it to cut ourselves off from the real world. I feel so happy about your musing with nature to art to garden and so much to do there and we have to get where we need our mind and heart needs the depleted gasoline needed to keep going in this digital space and after all it has become our extended family and in a strange way…not to worry at all dear Sue, just be there and enjoy every bit of the dialogue with nature and art.

        This part of the world has been hot and summer couldn’t resist its entry and have made an early arrival, and it shows what’s going to come this summer…we are trying to get adjusted to changing temperature and good to be back home and be in front of the computer rather than confronting the heat wave outside.

        Thanks so much dear Sue and have a lovely lovely time in the wonderful garden and also the creative beauty on your canvas…
        Take Care!!!
        😀

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  59. Dalo 2013
    Apr 03, 2018 @ 06:40:13

    Sue, this is an incredible post ~ I love the beginning “Taking a step back often feels like you have somehow failed, but in not stepping back I would be failing myself.” as it holds truths we need to listen to (and is what you have taught us all as well!). And your painting shows this spirit in such vivid and great detail, simply beautiful and inspiring. Wishing you the very best as you continue your path on discovery and life ~ we are all thankful for your wisdom. Take care.

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Apr 08, 2018 @ 14:28:37

      Dear Randal thank you kindly my friend, so lovely to see you, I hope also you have enjoyed your travels, and will look forward to catching your latest images and wisdom which you always manage to impart to bring deeper meaning to them.
      Thank you for your compliments and I wish you well as Spring gets underway at last..
      Many thanks..
      And you too take care..
      Sue 🙂

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  60. Lisa Hutchison LMHC
    Apr 04, 2018 @ 17:24:12

    Sue, It is difficult being a sensitive, caring soul in today’s world. I know you are not alone in your struggles with these energies. I believe in the power of expressive art and have seen its healing therapeutic effects. Out of your pain and struggle, a beautiful tiger has emerged to help heal others, along with your words. Thank you for sharing your art and process with us all. I also am a believer in signs sent from spirit to let us know we are never alone, no matter how badly we feel. Sending you a big hug! xx Many Blessings Lisa

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  61. charliezero1.wordpress.com
    Apr 04, 2018 @ 20:43:00

    I know the dark deep energies too well. I fought them off being having such a strong support of my family and my girlfriend. And reading and writing got me back on my feet to write again and feel stronger than ever before.

    Your painting of the lion is brilliantly well painted. Also, I would say; that your lion painting may represent the lion itself protecting you from negative forces at work…you have a strong support system from your friends here on WordPress and myself. I’m here for you my friend.

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Apr 08, 2018 @ 14:35:29

      Thank you Charlie,I remember, We all of us at times experience both highs and lows in life.. both are needed in order for us to experience life.
      Many thanks for your patience, I have still to work my way into visiting blogs, as I take small steps with the computer daily.
      I am only on an hour at a time as believe it or not Charlie it feels like I am plugged in to the electric, and being drained as I type.. But I am working slowly down my list..
      Wishing you well also, and hope you had a good Easter Break.
      Hugs and many thanks Sue xx

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  62. Mahesh Nair
    Apr 04, 2018 @ 23:17:19

    Dear Sue, I’m sure you realize how happy all of us here are to see you back. I just felt so good reading your post, and look at the picture of the tiger! You’re right that we must step back once in a while to understand (and often decode) all of the puzzle pieces that made us over the years. The pieces might look perfect from the outside but from the inside it would always be a puzzle, hence the need to take the break. Always wishing you the best of everything, my friend. God bless.

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Apr 08, 2018 @ 14:37:48

      Dear Mahesh, Many thanks my friend for your kind thoughts and for your lovely compliments and well wishes.. I so appreciate them
      Also I thank you for your continued patience as I gradually work my way back into visiting and catching up with blog posts and comments…
      I so thank you for your well wishes..
      Take care also.
      Sue 🙂

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  63. AmyRose🌹
    Apr 06, 2018 @ 15:29:55

    Oh, Sue!! (((HUGS))) I too of late have been asking why should I even bother to continue to bring Light and Love into this world? What good have I done? Have I even made a difference? My mind once so full of words and “wisdom sayings” just so quiet. So many times over the past few weeks I’ve been hit with situations some leaving me just so exhausted (again) and just wanting to give up. And then I began to. Yep, I know all about that Darkness. Then two things changed. I threw something back at someone who I knew deliberately wanted me to sink and die. Doing that a major lifting came and with it my determination to begin to MOVE. Went back to the gym. And then I spoke with my chiropractor (event 2) in which I poured my Heart out to who understood exactly what I was saying. Just “connecting” with him spurred me on to fight back, stand tall, and grab back ME! I’m in the process of doing that very thing. I’ve also stopped looking at the world just to focus on my private life. That is more then enough.
    Your painting is magnificent, dear friend! I wish I could paint like that! My “thing” is my camera so I continue to play with it and with the 2 NEW lenses I recently bought. As for that Hawk …. POWERFUL sign! Fly, Sue!! Fly above the madness that is found on this planet! Soar!!! 🕊🕊🕊

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Apr 08, 2018 @ 14:42:08

      Thank you Amy for your lovely compliments of my painting firstly and secondly, for your understanding and knowing that we share about the World and Energy..
      Self preservation at times has to come first and foremost. And as we are sensitive souls we often feel we are shouldering guilt and letting others down by not being there etc..
      But the time has come for us to be there for ourselves and nurture our own selves more..
      We are both learning to do this after always putting others first.. 🙂

      Thank you dear Amy for your support and your love.. We are both learning to flex our wings and Soar above that which we are thrown..
      Love and Blessings always
      Sue ❤ ❤

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      • AmyRose🌹
        Apr 08, 2018 @ 21:19:34

        Sue, I am learning to put ME first when I can. It feels SO good too! I don’t do it enough to be truthful with you. There are days lately I wish I was “free” in order to pursue my photography the way I would love to. I’m so involved with my life as is and once committed, I will not walk away until I complete what I myself started. Do you know what a luxury it would be for me just to have one entire day off just for ME from start to finish? The moment my feet hit the floor I am involved with my babies, doing even before my first and only cup of coffee. I cherish the time I do have with my camera and perhaps that is why I am so darn grateful for what I have and the time I do get. In so many ways I have such a good life, Sue. I lack for nothing.

        BIG (((HUGS))) again and you please just take care of you. Women especially those like us, tend to be the Caretakers of this world. I so encourage you to paint more. You really have a Gift. Soar with it!!! 🕊🕊🕊

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        • Sue Dreamwalker
          Apr 11, 2018 @ 13:03:12

          I can imagine Amy having many such days when I was pulled this way and that.. Now I have time, And cherish every moment.. And yes I am picking up my brushes to paint more.. And going with the flow my friend.. Thank you xx

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  64. Lady Jude
    Apr 07, 2018 @ 06:20:18

    Blessings to you dear Sue may you find your way back to the light quickly. Hugs Lady Jude x

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Apr 08, 2018 @ 14:45:03

      Dear Jude, wonderful to see you here dear lady, Its been a while, and I hope life has been treating you well also..
      Many thanks for you kind well wishes, I am much brighter and learning to listen to self more.. So taking things here on WP step by step as I give myself more space to heal..
      Sending much love your way..
      Love Sue ❤

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  65. thetruthaboutmentalhealth
    Apr 08, 2018 @ 11:02:21

    So well said Sue. Sorry to hear that you have been feeling wiped out and fatigued but it sounds like you’ve made the most of it and explored the spiritual insights that time out/ stepping back presents. I just love the tiger painting!! “during my recent void I wondered what possible difference I could make.” … you have made a difference to me with your kind words so wanted you to know that. 🙂 Best wishes and hugs!

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  66. Sue Dreamwalker
    Apr 08, 2018 @ 14:48:10

    Dear Rachael, Bless your heart, The voids we visit are not always pleasant, but some times we need to wade through them in order to pull ourselves upwards.
    Many thanks for saying those kind words.. It is wonderful to know some of my words have been helpful to you .. That means a whole lot to me.. And makes my blogging world most worth while..
    Thank You so much..
    Take care also.. 🙂

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  67. lavendermoongirl
    Apr 11, 2018 @ 10:27:36

    I love your tiger painting and your photo of a sparrow hawk in your garden. I’m sorry that you have been going through such a traumatic time Sue. Hugs and love xxxx💓🙏💜🌿🎸

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    • Sue Dreamwalker
      Apr 11, 2018 @ 12:44:03

      Hi LG… I am venturing into the world of Blog again LG.. and I thank you for your well wishes and compliments.. The hawk was here again yesterday 🙂 ❤

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      • lavendermoongirl
        Apr 11, 2018 @ 16:06:37

        I’m glad to hear you’re blogging again. I had a period of worry and couldn’t concentrate, you have to feel like doing it! Sometimes I find writing or drawing on paper much more satisfying and therapeutic but then I’m not sharing my work and I enjoy sharing. Hugs my friend. I’m glad you’re here!
        Interesting about your hawk…a protective spirit? 🙏💜🌿

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        • Sue Dreamwalker
          Apr 12, 2018 @ 13:50:33

          Hawk was here again yesterday.. And yes we have to be in the mood.. And when we are worried or stressed its difficult to concentrate I agree.. I hope you share more of your art with us too.. I loved it. xx

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  68. Lynz Real Cooking
    Apr 11, 2018 @ 14:14:07

    Your words are so amazing Sue! You describe the void and washing machine so well! As you said you pick up bits and pieces of knowledge that are often hard to put into words! Thanks for hope and joy! Xxx

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  69. House of Heart
    Apr 11, 2018 @ 20:19:42

    Lovely Sue, I missed this, you don’t come up in my mail or notifications , so annoying! Have a beautiful day.. Missed you! ❤

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  70. lorriebowden
    Apr 15, 2018 @ 23:48:02

    I understand, Sue. And I know I am late reading this post but I think we have been experiencing very similar energies. I too, know how easy it could be to sink back into that darkest of depressions. It is something that feels very possible…some times more than others…but I just keep walking…and guess what…there are many times we take two steps forward and three steps back. I just think that as long as we continue to try to move forward…all things have a way of working out. Much love to you and I hope that you are feeling refreshed…renewed.
    ❤ ❤

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