Finding our Light.

I am still amazed at how many of you resonated with a previous post Cracking our Inner Shells. And I am so grateful for your responses and for those who shared this post with their own readers.. 

Knowing that we are the only ones with the power to dim our lights, is often  a hard  pill to swallow. As Human’s we often apportion blame for our emotional feelings  upon others or circumstances we find ourselves in. Yet in truth only I allow myself to feel sad, as likewise only I can choose to feel happy.

It’s natural we sometimes become overwhelmed, especially when the lessons keep coming. But it is important to remember that learning to understand yourself and your world is an on-going journey which we are all  gathering  through our experiences.

We do not come to Earth with instruction manuals, its all about learning and finding ourselves as we progress.  We are  spiritual beings, we need to determine where our spiritual light is being subdued or blocked.  Sometimes life throws up those much needed lessons so we have a chance to remove the layers of debris, so we can get out of our own way to feel our own light shining again.

Those lessons are intended to help you become more of who you are. And as you grow through this self-discovery, you begin to create your own instruction manual. And as with any manual, we often refer back to it as we tap into our intuitive thoughts, which help guide us through the pages of our everyday lives.

Answering the many responses upon my own posts often allows me to reach much deeper within my own inner self..I find myself instinctively saying the right things..As I tap into that Inner World which guides, And then I check myself and then question my self.. As I ask myself “ So why are you not following your own advice?”… Practice what you preach is another pill to swallow!..

When we buy a car, we make sure we maintain it properly, we put in the correct fuel, we keep it topped up with oil, and clean and polish it.. Our Bodies are vehicles for our Mind and Spirit. So too we need to polish our thoughts  clearing away the accumulation of mental  debris that keeps us from operating at our fullest capacity.

A simple shift in our thoughts can positively affect our mental state, moving from complaints, and negativity  into gratitude and Positivity by applying the light of love to any shadowy thoughts. .. Learning to nurture oneself instead of chastising oneself, Applying liberally that Polish we seldom use upon our selves… The Name of which is Love. 

How many negative thoughts flit through our minds in a day?  This morning caught me in this mood, Until I heard myself speak my thoughts aloud and I realised just how pitiful they sounded.. And I burst out laughing as I learnt another valued lesson.

At times we need to embrace the stillness, connecting back into the power within our centre, Meditation allows us to reconnect back to the source..  I know this is true of myself, I give my power/energy away by being pulled in too many directions all at once.. This Power Source  is always there for us, but when we forget to connect, we forget to put ourselves first and gather back in the energy we need to power up our own inner Lights. And so our lights become dim..

Sometimes it can be difficult to find the stillness if our bodies and minds are in the way. Depression plays its tricks that we are not worthy.

I can dish out advice until I am blue in the face.. But my lesson in this is clear..

I need to practice what I preach.. As we practice steps to keep our energy flowing freely and without obstruction, we shine our light more brightly, illuminating our own paths and making the world around us brighten as well.

Many thanks for reading

Shine your Lights

~Sue~

 

Cracking our Inner Shells!

Sometimes we have to go within to the silent places we all have in order to find out what is really going on with our emotional bodies. Even knowing all the things I do, we are within our Human form to learn and grow..

I needed to ask myself a few questions as to why I was feeling so lost, depressed and sad… More was going on than just bereavement. Yes the fall  I had had,both bruised and shook me, but what else was shaking me to the core?

For those who know a little about my Soul Journey, You will also know that my own Mother and I had not spoken for 10 years prior to her passing some eleven years ago now….Despite many attempts I knew I was only wounding myself more by continually trying to bridge the rift, to be continually rejected.. So this rejection and other issues related to overwork and stress, resulted in a Nervous Breakdown in my mid forties..

So when my Mother died, while I was sad, I guess I never really grieved her loss. Because to me.. I had grieved her long  before her death as lost to me.. As I had had to shut down my emotions to cope with her rejection..  I had undergone counselling within my breakdown, and my Mother jumped up at every dark corner of why even in my teens I had suffered from deep depression.

We often  go through  whole chapters of our lives creating a protective shell around ourselves because we need it in order to heal from some early trauma. I know I had built many such Layers of shell around myself from various experiences over the years..

So my own fall, and the death of my aunt in affect broke the shell, leaving a wide crack as the emotions came flooding back up to the surface and out.   I took time out to meditate deeply and Looked  in on myself.. I can now see that the new part of ourselves cannot be born within the confines of the shell of our old selves..

Sometimes  part of us must die before another part can come to life. Even though this is a natural and necessary part of our growth, it is often painful  if we don’t realize what’s happening,  we become confused. This disorientation is  often part of the messengers that tell us a shift is taking place within us. These shifts happen throughout the lives of all humans, as we move and grow through adolescence into adulthood.

Each of us are shifting, changing daily. We can surrender to this process of letting go of our old self with great love and gratitude, and welcome in the new with an open mind and heart, ready for our next phase of life.

I also looked deeper still, at why I am getting so wound up with world affairs at the moment, Why was I being so affected? Am I not just as guilty of not letting it go..  Do I not just need the World to just be, as it shifts to find its own new identity as the old world dies, as the layers of our established reality now crack and shatter from our disillusioned view.

Is not the world we are each part of ready for the Next Great Shift as we enter the next phase of Life on Earth I asked myself?  Are we not ONE and the Same.. Each affecting the other?

And as I already knew the answer…. Many of us seek the answers to life’s questions by looking outside of ourselves and trying to glean advice from the people around us. Each of us is unique, with our own personal histories, our own sense of right and wrong, and our own way of experiencing the world that defines our realities. We all of us have than inner compass which we can go within to seek guidance. 

Only you can know the how’s and why’s of your life. The answers that you seek can be found when you start answering your own questions,Sometimes we have to get a little lost in order to fine oneself again..But the journey in finding oneself is all part of our Earth Journey.

Maybe the World too is going to get a little lost before it too can find itself again..

Lets hope it can also learn and grow! 

Many thanks for reading…

 

Love and Blessings

~Sue~

Image Source: Google Images..

 

 

To my WordPress Circle..

Firstly let me say how overwhelmed I have been by your kind responses to my last post ‘Fear of the Future’ So many of your comments, (Comments which I will soon be answering in full. ) all which have resonated deep within my core of seeing how our lives are often entwined within our Circular journeys as we bump into each other, even if only for the briefest of moments. Each meeting of minds is meant to be.

Life is a circular journey, whenever we work to release a habit, change a pattern, or overcome a fear, we often encounter that issue one last time, even after we thought we had conquered it. This is why I can get so frustrated with myself, for it reminds me I am only Human and needing to pass through my own lessons. And despite all of my ‘Knowing’ the reappearance of these old patterns of sadness, depression, or fear, is often a sign that we have come full circle, and that if we can maintain our resolve through one last test, we will achieve a new level of mastery in our lives.

Sometimes we have to come full circle which can be like stepping into a opening of a forest where, for a moment, we can see where we came from and where we are standing at the same time. Remembering that we will be tested again is important, but it’s also important to pause and take a look at the ground we’ve covered through the dense forest we at times get lost in, we cannot always see the Wood for the trees..

I have come a long way upon my own awakening to the realities within this world. It is that awareness that often leaves us feeling helpless as we try to bring others to this realisation of the truth of co-existence upon our planet.. The truth of it I Can’t change the World, only my own perception of it.. Yet I cannot bury my head in the sand like some of our political heads of governments seem to be doing either..

My awareness is heightened as I sense a great change which not only has affected my own inner world, but I sense on the horizon a Change which will affect also many of you.. Most of you have read some of my thinking on how we are often manipulated via the media within our lives.. New revelations are now breaking up the trust some had in believing all that we are told.. This can only be a good thing.. For we need to Question and find our own answers something again I have often said in my posts. Believe not one word I say, but find out the truth for yourselves..

Many of us throughout the world are facing tests I can only be thankful I am not having to go some of those others are experiencing at the moment.. My own small test of lifting my spirits is nothing in comparison to theirs.

We have to Remember we will be tested many times over, but it’s also important to pause and take a look at the ground we’ve covered, honouring our courage, our persistence, and our achievement. Only then we can begin the next leg of our circular journey with a fuller understanding of where we are coming from, and to where we are heading.

The world right now is being tested over and over in many places. People in power are reluctant relinquish hold over their Control over what they perceive is right to them. Many places upon the Earth in conflict over Differences, be them territorial, race, or religion. Large companies rule with their Iron fists of greed to gouge even greater scars as their paths sweep clear whole sways of communities and natures habitats.. They are unwilling to live in tolerance and co-exist in co-operation with one another and expect everyone around them to change to suit their needs rather than accept and work together for betterment of the whole to find more sustainable solutions for our Earths future.

Political parties are squabbling like children, one blaming the other, while no one is pulling together to solve the real problems facing the world. And many of the population oblivious to the mechanics of World Events and how many are interlinked..

It seems sometimes we have to come full circle before we stop and take notice.. I ask those who are aware to take notice to the Signs we are being shown, And be prepared to take responsibility for the parts we all play in our part within the Whole of which we are One.

I thank all of you for the parts you have all played in helping me see where about on that circle I now stand.. And I am ever thankful for the Love you share.

I feel more empowered by your outpouring of support than any of you can know..

I am taking a short break from visiting, but will be answering comments very soon. And will be back with a new sense of purpose..

Many Blessings for being with me on my journey right now..

Sue

Wakeup ~News~

Continuing on this months theme of Awakening. Waking up is not just about Spiritually Awakening. Waking up means seeing the world from a different perspective.

Have you never wondered why the media constantly dishes out the negative? What purpose does it serve?

Some may say its so we can be kept informed. But why not keep us informed about all the good being done in the world too? Why not dedicate some time to the positive deeds being done around our globe. And promote how many serve selfishly to help their fellow man.

The Media is designed to create negative waves of emotion, this keeps the population in a constant wave of anxiety. This way you create uncertainty and stress and fear. This way you sell a lot of prescription drugs.

I recently re-read an article published in the early 90’s  which stated way back then, that American pharmacies filled 2-5million prescriptions for tranquilizers every week.. Yes Every Week!!.. It calculated that an average prescription is 50 pills, so on that basis America ingests over 6 Billion tablets a year. So goodness knows what it stands at in todays figures some 20 yrs later?  It may interest you to find out for yourselves who in politics have other agenda’s and  connections within the pharmaceutical industries! Waking up is all about researching for yourselves..

Finding your own truth means piecing together the puzzle.. 

While its important to be aware of what’s happening around you. You should try to defend your mind from negative waves.

At the beginning of my own awakening I think everything swamped me. Too much information too soon maybe. But I digested what resonated and threw out that which I couldn’t cope with, which at the time seemed to be coming from some Science Fiction Novel .

It was only over time-years that those Science Fiction pieces kept cropping back up, and each time they did they added more sense to the complex jigsaw I was trying to solve.

I know in various past posts I have touched upon detachment. This has upset I am sure people’s views as they cannot see how to detach from the horrors we as a species create… This was true too of myself and I still catch myself as I find myself getting so angry and depressed with the world we’re creating.  I am definitely not perfect… I am still evolving, as are you!.

Its only once you begin to understand how energy works that you see that  every time we attach our emotions on the negative, we give those negative dark forces more power. 

This is the whole intent of negative media. A trap which many of us fall into as we repeat negative News, even the state of weather we latch onto the drama and get drawn into the bleakness as we get pulled further down the black hole.

When we see the future as corrupt and getting worse, then our very thoughts create the conditions  of our external experience.. So then we too become corrupted as our mood reflects our misery as we then turn to those mind numbing pills..

Change IS happening, Change will always happen its evolution.

How life on Earth Changes IS up to us.. 

We can only start with ourselves.  Change our own Minds.. We need to believe in ourselves, Build bridges, make peace within.  I can only change my own world. and my perceptions. And if each of us do just that, if we spread out the thoughts of caring, peace and unity. We then are joining together in Unity Consciousness.

Once more people join within this wave of living from our Hearts. We then tip the scales to bring about a more Unified Harmonious World.

We can then let go of Ego and create a brighter external world, but we first need to awaken to our own Inner Healing.

So lets get to work on ourselves!

Some links you may find of interest below.. Especially the first Link, I trusted to be guided as I trust those invisible worlds to lead me to find what I need.. So I  pressed Google search, and intuition delivered on the first click.  I wish you well in finding your own pieces as you ask yourself the questions you seek..

http://www4.dr-rath-foundation.org/THE_FOUNDATION/history_of_the_pharma_cartel.html

http://www.activistpost.com/2013/01/the-connection-between-big-food-big.html

http://www.naturalnews.com/020029_Byron_Richard_Andrew_von_Eschenbach.html#

http://socialinvestigations.blogspot.co.uk/p/mps-with-or-had-financial-links-to.html

 Wishing you well upon your journey. My Personal story of awakening is to be posted on the 23rd Jan… And still I am stretching as each day brings me more wide awake..

Thank you for reading

~Sue~

Star Children~ Orbs and Angels..

Have you noticed how much more intelligent our little ones seem these days?

I know with my own 3 yr old Granddaughter whose wisdom far exceeds her 3 yrs as she connects with the Earth and retains all information with a photographic memory which astonishes us all at time…Many say she is an ‘Old Soul’ and already she is reading certain words, she writes  small words, her name, and comes out with amazing statements that has us all in wonder. But then as her Gran I am bias lol..

There are many books out there upon the Indigo’s Crystal and Rainbow  Children so why would these intelligent, strong-willed children who seem to be so much more forward than in my early years be born and noticed more today?

To be honest it was only through reading about such children some 10 years back now, and I think one has to experience a connection to such a child in order to understand why they are special..

I remember vividly one day standing in line in a supermarket with my trolley waiting at the check-out.. When a small baby probably around 5 to 6 months old in her seat sat in the trolley  with her Mother who was busy unloading shopping, looked into my eyes and smiled.. …  I swear to you that in that instance there was a connection of ‘Knowing’ I saw these wonderful large wide lashed eyes blaze into my soul and an instant  there was recognition on a soul level.. I knew she was a child come to make a difference in our world..  I remember speaking to her in my mind, welcoming her and she squealed in delight, as I then spoke to the Mother saying what a beautiful child she had…

I often despair at  the world we are leaving our children’s children to inherit.. So no wonder the children being born today are so strong willed and many are so advanced as they absorb technology quicker than we do… They are going to need to be self reliant and strong to face the challengers we are leaving them to pick up of the mess we are leaving our world in.. They have come to help with the Shift we are experiencing in our world.. 

Over the Christmas Holidays I took several photos, and upon them appeared some Orbs

  which surrounded my Son and daughter-in-law.. I spotted one while looking at the uploaded photo’s and my Granddaughter spotted another pointing straight away saying ‘there’s an orb Grandma’… She instantly got what they were.. and has always had a fascination  with my Angel paintings.. ..

So this week I felt like painting a small painting and I intend to give it my Granddaughter for her bedroom.. The theme is Orbs and Angels.. And some Power Animals of Bear and Dolphin. The painting is only Postcard size.. and was just a quick fun painting to do.. and apologies as the photo was taken on my phone and not good light.

I hope you click onto the links and look up about the Star Children and find out more about Orbs.. And know there is indeed more to awaken your senses to our reality still yet to come..

Don’t take one word of what I tell you as truth.. You need to prove it to  yourself and so that is why Awakening brings us to seek out many things about our reality.. 

We have blindly followed what we have been told as truth for too long, and it will come as a shock to many to find out the many lies we have swallowed over the many life times..

Blessings for a Peaceful weekend.. and see you next week..

~Sue ~

 

 

My Soul Journey~4

I never intended this journey of mine to read like some sort of Biography. And While I need to explain how I opened my own self-awareness and how I found myself upon my path, I’m still a very private person.

The Journey of discovery first starts with oneself.

And to find oneself, sometimes you have to lose yourself if only for a little while in order to find yourself again. I did that too…. Many years later experiencing A nervous breakdown… through stress, over work, juggling career, family, guilt, inadequacies, rejection from my Mother, a whole range of emotions.. 

I wouldn’t wish that upon anyone.. the feelings of isolation, sorrow remorse, guilt, panic attacks,  all rolled into one big ball, making me  a twitching blubbering emotional wreck as my limbs literally would shake taking on a life of their own as I tussled with myself over the years of working  through guilt while my children were small…Feeling I wasn’t a good Mother as my own Mother who now had been one of the triggers rejected me which resulted in her not speaking for 10 years despite many efforts to begin with to heal the rift.

I came to understand I was only hurting myself even more by trying to mend that bridge which had grown  ever wider, only to find another door of rejection slammed in my face each time I tried, which would bring on more hurts and more wounds which needed inner healing. The last time I tried she ran in the opposite direction and 5 months later she had died, the rift never having been mended. Which again led to more healing work.

It was during that time of my nervous breakdown that my real journey of self began.. when I asked the question..

WHO am I?

It matters not what caused my breakdown, but it was how I recovered that is important..

The journey of Self discovery led me to understand that we are more than our Bodies, that in fact our Minds create many of our problems through our emotional body. which affects our Physical Bodies causing our Dis-ease with life, resulting in our illnesses.. 

It was then I was introduced to a book by Louise Hay  You Can Heal Your Life, I took to saying affirmations  which were put upon my mirror and fridge everywhere where I could remind myself I was a worthy being who needed to love myself.

Healing one’s self is never easy.. and as I explored the Inner Me, I understood that throughout my early childhood I had never really felt loved  and in fact I didn’t really love me..

As I explored my re-occurring illnesses that had dogged me all my life..  the Depression from my early teens, the severe Migraine attacks that would leave me bed bound in a darkened room, the constant Cystitis infections that eventually needed an operation to put right .. All these illnesses had been telling me something.. Even later on as various aches and pains took their toll from Raynaud’s Disease  which at one point was so severe even the temperature change from one room to the next would trigger a painful reaction in my fingers.

My Career path had led me from sewing machinist working on piece work rates, on a production line and for those never working in a factory,’piece-work’ meant you only took home what you made, so the faster you worked the more you took home in pay.. I worked hard, and worked my way up to become sample machinist working with designers in the manufacturing Industry to become head of Training over a period of 18 years. The climb wasn’t easy..  

I would not only be in charge of first production samples overseeing first production lines but also be responsible for quality, recruitment,  the Training School, Time and Motion Study/Method Technology improving Methods and Quality.  I could sit and sew and show others every Machine operation going in the manufacture of garments within the industry we were in. I would often stand with stop watch, but I earned the factory girls respect as I  would never ask anyone to do what I couldn’t prove I could do myself and would happily sit and show them and time myself just to prove it was possible… And yes I could keep that pace up for most of the day helping to get production moving if an urgent order was required to be out on time.

  I also assessed NVQs through Qualifications for Industry. as well as Mentoring in Schools  helping put on Schools Fashion shows …Life was busy busy..

So when every thing went Upside down my life did ‘break-down’, it hit doubly hard as I had always felt in charge and in control.. and to be left feeling this blubbering wreck was something alien..

But it taught me  I was More than my symptoms ..I started to see I could heal..And that the only one that could heal me was ME..

In the beginning I needed medical help, but I soon realised that Pills were not the answer.. And I swapped the Pills to Homeopathy, I didn’t just snap out of it.. I had lots of help from Family and friends, But even they couldn’t lift me up.. I was the one who needed to dig deep to the core of my illnesses, and that’s why Louise Hay’s Book helped me so much to see just what I had done and was doing to myself through the way I was thinking.

An important part of Waking up is that we wake up to ourselves.. and that we learn to stop blaming ourselves, To find ourselves we need to find our inner selves and understand you are neither Good nor Bad, you are simply you…

© Sue Dreamwalker – 2012 All rights reserved.

 

 

Continuing My Soul Journey~3

And so began my next steps within this new home of Spiritual awareness. I started to practice meditation on a regular basis and was taken upon some wonderful visualisations. It became apparent very soon that with the coaching and nurturing of established Mediums I was encouraged  to strengthen those dormant gifts which lay within us all. And I began to trust what I was being shown and trusted to those intuitive senses more and more.

Over the next few years my life revolved around my Spiritual Connections.. Working a full time day job, my children were now teenagers, I would eagerly look forward to my Spiritual Awareness/Developments group and Healing Nights as I became a qualified Spiritual Healer with the SNU,   Completing a two year course of dedicated Healing work before being qualified..…My Hubby and I joined a Physical Circle which we  would attended every week for around 9 years in which we got Trance communications and a little physical Phenomenon, but nothing like  we would both travel to witness around the country as invited guests of other great established Physical Mediums who produced some excellent evidence through Phenomena..

My Hubby needed things proving, and was quiet a sceptic to begin with, but even he couldn’t doubt what we had both witnessed and heard as I spoke and shook hands literally with those who had been Spirit side for 80 years. all of which you can find within my various posts of Life with Spirit category

In those early years I was taken under the wing of a Medium she encouraged me to accompany her to her venues as a fledgling medium, and I would link into that other realm and bring my messages to those who had lost loved ones. Such were my messages well received I started to get bookings in my own right… 

We became  very dear friends, sadly she is no longer here in this realm, but it was through her own gentle coaching and introducing me to various reading matter that I became engrossed in the Subject of Life after Life..

I would travel to a place called Stansted Hall which is the Arthur Findlay College for advancement of Spiritualism and Psychic Studies of which she herself had been a student. I was introduced to well known books, some of those early books I read were a delight, White Eagle, and Silver Birch  as well as reading many of Arthur Findlay’s Book’s such as the Psychic Stream , On the Edge of the Etheric and the Unfolding Universe  These later 3 books took a lot of digesting even back then.. Since revisiting them now they make perfect sense.. But at the time of buying and reading them, I was not ready to compute their information.. I have to say that we are given pieces of information along our journey.. and we either digest it or discard it.. And then something just clicks within us and everything seems to make perfect sense…

I ask that you all seek out your own information, and believe not one word of what I say to be truth.. This journey is about us all finding our own Truth, some of it will resonate, some of it will not, for we all grow at our own pace each receiving that which we need. And at the end of the day we are all of us given ‘Free Will,’ to choose to investigate further or ignore it. Remember each of us are on our own Soul Journey… 

I have to say some of those early days reading material had not always resonated within my own soul… Like many now who dismiss much of our alternative realities as Rubbish I too questioned what I was reading in the late 80’s early 90’s.

I read many channelled books which at the time of reading I found way above my own perception of acceptance. Why? because I had nothing to measure it by, only the words which I found on the page.. I had to Trust what I was being told was true, and like most of us in this world we need proof.   Books which I found hard to swallow in the 90’s which I read and put to one side and said Ok… Maybe that’s a possibility.. But I wasn’t ready at that time to understand the complexity and the simplicity of our minds, or the concept of there being more to our Human-race of which we had no understanding. For we had been taught a totally different reality to that which I was now reading..  I found it hard to comprehend that people could communicate to our Earth Gaia for instance, and yet years later I understand totally…

Those first few books I read opened my thinking to other realms of possibilities and made me think deeper about our reality. I read books such as

• Deepak Chopra’s Ageless Body Timeless Mind
• The Gaia Dialogues by Murry Hope
• EARTH Pleiadian Keys to the Living Library by Barbara Marciniak
• The Only Planet of Choice –Phyllis V, Schlemmer
• The Experiment is Over by Paul Lowe 

It wasn’t until I went through my own Trauma of a Nervous Breakdown that I understood I had to use my own mind over matter, as I was put to the test!. I think the Greatest Book that had a lasting impression which showed me I was more than my body was You Can Heal Your Life by Louise L Hay A book which woke me up to how we think affects our health and wellness…  

To Be continued …….

My Journey of Souls~2

A little Background knowledge about me.  Part 2.

So what is happening in our world and why are so many of us appearing to be going through our own personal traumas, Just what is this ‘Shift’ and Ascension people are going on about? And how are we all involved in this journey?..

Before I can answer these questions you may have to be a little patient for I first need to tell you a little of my own background and how I woke up!..

Waking up to who we really are hasn’t just happened, no one turned a switch on within my thinking mind and said ‘Believe This, for this is Truth, far from it. Its taken me over 20 years of ponderings, reading, researching, listening, watching, and Feeling, to understand that this ‘Knowing’ within my being was guiding me to come out of the cocoon of what I believed to be my reality and discover we’ve only perceived part of what our true reality really is… And even then No one holds the whole picture, for so incredible is this Journey of Souls…

We each of us grow up within our families within our societies within our various cultured backgrounds, being taught morals, beliefs, history, science. We absorb knowledge by which we measure our surroundings and reality of our world. Believing totally all that we have been taught because there was no reason to disbelieve, why would there be?

Being spiritually aware from a young age I guess you could say I had always connected to whom we term as ‘God’, ‘The Great Spirit’. ‘Our Heavenly Father’, our ‘Divine Creator’, ‘The Source’  whom ever your particular teachings of beliefs put as that ‘ALL Mighty Creator of All Life’, I would constantly as a child pray to this ‘God’ whom I was taught lived in Heaven, which to me was up there in the sky.

I would pray earnestly each night for the rows and fighting  of my parents to stop. I would pray for my brother and sisters, I learnt to pray about many things.. I was not brought up in a religious home, my parents didn’t go to church, But I was sent to Chapel each Sunday to Sunday School where I would take my younger siblings, I sang in the choir and attended Bible Study, So religion played a huge role in my upbringing. I believed in Christ Jesus,the Bible and knew most of the New Testaments Stories. I totally got it that Jesus could heal the sick and wanted to show people how to love one another and created miracles to happen…

I would talk constantly to my invisible friend God and my invisible Nun, I had seen her as a child around our home, she calmed me, helped me, and soothed my Soul…Even one of my younger sisters had seen her which verified it for me when I was around 14 years old.. She wasn’t a nun who had a headdress like the Nun’s I had seen in my neck of the woods, no her hat was white, like a 3 pointed star…

So religion as a theme ran close to my heart from a very young age.. Then as you grow life takes over… I got married, moved away and it was in our first home that those senses I had as a child started returning again. As I would hear footsteps climb the stairs, bumps in the night that no amount of jumping up and down on squeaky floorboards could replicate. 

One time I even witnessed a form of a first world war soldier materialise from the waist upwards as if he was asleep in a chair, He opened his eyes to look straight at me, as I summoned up the courage to find my voice to ask who he was, as I spoke he vanished into the ether’s in a blink of an eye…

I was looking to de-stress and was reading the local paper when a small add just seemed to jump! out of the page at me advertising ‘Meditation Classes’ They happened to be held at our local Spiritualist Centre.  Now this advertisement was only put in the paper once, and I swear the first time I read it, it just Jumped off the page at me, have you ever had that happen? And that ‘feeling’ of just knowing you had to follow as your gut instincts kicked in…

That was the first Sign I knowingly followed. To me back then Spiritualists were supposed to be spooky weird people, such had been my religious upbringing and my perceptions had been coloured by others opinions and teachings, saying they walked with the Devil…

But once I walked through those doors and was greeted with such genuine warmth and sincerity, my curiosity and thirst to find answers led me to return..

So began the opening up and understanding of my own awareness of my psychic abilities and that Knowing that we were in fact ALL Spiritual Beings here on Earth.. And that we lived in the physical here in this dimension to experience and that I had senses that connected to that other realm, The World of Spirit…

So I was set upon the first rung of my Journey of Souls… The Next steps are what I found out about our Soul Journey…     

To be continued….