True Awakening Stories Part III ~ Puzzle of Life ~Final Pieces.

Barbara over at http://memymagnificentself.com/

has invited others and myself to take part in the continuation of our stories on our Awakening journey. She asks us to tell us where we are right now on our awakening journey.  

The posts of which are linked on Barbara’s Blog post entitled http://memymagnificentself.com/2018/09/17/a-selection-of-true-awakening-stories-part-iii/You can find the ebooks on Barbara’s site or the bottom of my own

Part Three of my Awakening..  Fitting all of the Pieces Together  .

When does our true awakening begin? Looking back over time, there was no flash of inspiration, no NDE (Near Death Experience) that brought me to my awakened self. There was no Light bulb moment where I got some mystical revelation. 

 

We are never truly Complete, until each of those separate pieces wake up and return. Understanding we are all God Parts.

Like most of us who wake up, it can be gradual process, it’s not until you look back at the beauty of this orchestrated life, and see how one thing leads to another, and how people you meet, places you go, all lead you on the path you are meant to be on. Then you can look back and see how far you have come as all of those pieces of the puzzle came together. 

 It shows you how childhood was the learning ground that set you on your emotional journey of discovering yourself. I was lucky… I was guided and listened to my inner promptings …. Many are not. And it shows me again and again how we should all nurture our young children for they carry so much within their emotional bodies for the rest of their lives which shape their thinking and perception of the world about them and their own self-worth.

I don’t wish to repeat what I already shared in parts one and part two of Our Awakening process, for they can be found in Barbara’s eBooks.  But I can pin point a pivotal turning point that allowed me to travel along my own pathway of discoveries.  You know how sometimes, you just know you are being guided, Well that is how this ‘Sign’ jumped up at me, when searching for job vacancies, the advert a Meditation Class just JUMPED off the page. The first of many signs.  And if I had not seen it, I am certain I would not now be on this path. When you begin to wake up, to see how everything is connected you will see an escalation of ‘Signs’ Synchronicities, and you will start to notice numbers that keep repeating, and marvel at how once you open your mind how connected and orchestrated this Universe really is. Because we then begin to see how Thoughts are Energy. 

All seeds emerge from the darkness into the Light.

Where am I now in my awakening experience? Some would say I am deeper down the rabbit hole than ever before. And if I were to tell you of what I have discovered about the world and it’s history along the way many wouldn’t believe me, so I won’t even try..

What is important is your own soul journey, and waking up to all You can be.

The pieces of my puzzle have been coming together all of my life. We experience how the universal plan unfolds for all of us. And it’s only through our choices we live and learn. We were given Free Will after all!…  

Our waking up is not an easy journey, it takes work. It can be a painful process, there will be tears too. Painful memories which we think we have dealt with will often crop up again when you least expect it as something triggers a deeper subconscious memory deep within. Only recently at the beginning of the year, more digging deep  I had to do, as those childhood emotions of unworthiness  I had thought dealt with surfaced yet again. This time I looked at them not from my perspective, but I tried to look at the  reason why I kept hanging onto them.  So I revisited my childhood through my Mother’s perspective. And why she had perhaps not been able to show me and one of my sisters as much affection as she did my other three siblings. And I was able to extend more compassion out to her than before. And this time around I truly believe I forgave her treatment of me. And I was able to hold that inner child to reassure her she was loved by her Mother, but for what ever reasons, her Mother found it hard to give of herself.  

 Flower Petals created this bird each a separate piece to create the whole. Nature continues to create and just BE seeking no praise for doing so. 

It takes courage to dig deep to bring those hidden wounds to the surface. They’re many layers, and often many tears as raw wounds need to be dug out and exposed to the light of day.   

We have to Learn to forgive, and that is not just others, but we need learn to forgive ourselves and the guilt we so easily pile upon ourselves. Sometimes we discover it’s not just the guilt of this one life time. And after experiencing Past life Regression, I learnt I was carrying many things over from one life into the next.

And so it has to be with you, I cannot tell you how to awake, I can only tell you that you have to begin to trust a deeper ‘knowing’ Follow your intuition. Let go of old programming that holds you trapped within this ‘Matrix’. And as you begin to let go of the emotional baggage we carry around with us, you will also discover this world is not all that we have been programmed to believe it is. 

When you wake up you come to look at those who wound you in a different light, as you try to fathom what lessons did we learn and where it shaped our paths to take a different route. Some of our biggest enemies maybe are our greatest friends. As they perhaps agreed to be part of your wake-up call.

Creation is Constantly Evolving

All was meant to be, as I tried to unpick those childhood feelings of unworthiness which hung deep within.. And I would not then have learnt how to move blocked energy or delve into past life regression. Or read the books on Self healing. 

Solving the Puzzle is an ongoing process. We will never truly find all missing pieces, because we are all of us creating new experiences as we grow and evolve.

But to wake up, we don’t all need a spiritual path, we can come from ALL walks of life, From vagrants on the street, to Doctors and Scientists.  No one is higher or lower. We have all come to  Re-Remember who we Are as we raise our vibration and learn that we are Energy Beings,inside our Human shells. 

Each of us are on our own individual journey’s as we wake up to the world around us and as we discover the Universe is far beyond what any imagination could visualise. When you start digging deeper into searching for answers, you begin to uncover for yourselves that you are ALL so much more that we have ever been led to believe.

We are Powerful Eternal Beings who have been held trapped within this dimension for far too long. Held within our perpetual wheels of this merry-go-round. Now is the time to break this cycle. As we let go once and for all of this material realm, as we raise our vibration in love. 

Waking up means you have to be prepared to step out of your box, and you have to be prepared to be able to accept that which you find. For many things will take you outside of your comfort zones.  But you have to search to find yourself and your own answers, for its your journey, your awakening.

We are all hear to remember! That which we know, but which most of us forgot.

 We raise our vibration Through Love.  

To Love ourselves.

I learnt to let go of ALL of that which you think is important.

I Learnt to Let go of the past, the hurt, grief, guilt, judgement and open your heart

I learnt to live with what I have within my grasp right NOW.

We have to stop blaming the past, and try to stop worrying about the future

For the only Moment we live is in this moment of NOW.

And I learnt to embrace the peace and beauty,in the minutest details from micro flowers to ants.

You have to Learn to love that Inner Child again, Laugh, play, and enJOY.  

And as you do, as you let go of thinking that this material world is all that matters

You shed the bonds that have kept us captive via our own ego’s and the deep emotions we have held within us.. A new sense of Freedom suddenly surrounds you. 

We came back to remember, and when we do, when we really remember WHO it is we are, No fear can stop us, for we are Eternal BE-ings of Light.

 

All photos taken by Sue Dreamwalker  ~Flowers and birds are from a Well Dressing. 

 

The Puzzle of Life~ Part Two.

 

Now was the time  the woman needed to share her thoughts. Yet here was her dilemma. How to place all of those pieces that had taken years to gather so that others could make sense of them was almost impossible, unless they too had also been searching and gathering similar pieces to think ‘outside the box’ that so many found themselves encased within.

Some were not even remotely aware there were pieces to find, let alone go searching for them, while others would contentedly sit within their own picture never wanting to create a new landscape of other possibilities 

She knew her own pieces were making sense, but would they make sense to others. She dipped her hand yet again into the pile of scattered thoughts, to reshuffle them and turn them over into view.

She smiled at how the Truth was often held hidden in plain sight and she marvelled at the speed at which those synchronicities had jumped up at her long ago on her journey, nudging her ever forward, confirming she was on the right path.  

The very first piece that jumped out at her was when she was looking for a new job in the 80’s as the stress was getting to her, but instead of finding a new job. An advertisement jumped from the local paper. The print seeming larger than life….

“ MEDITATION CLASS”

are you wishing to de-stress, relax and learn how to meditate?

Then come along to our Meditation Group….

She thought back to that very first piece, it was the one that had started her journey to discover more about who she was and to seek answers to unanswerable questions.

That one piece had opened doors to a new world, as she began to view this world from a different perspective, as she began to see how this world told its stories. And how hidden within them were messages, if one cared to look at the hints which were thrown out. Yet all the while the Truth was distorted.   

It never ceased to amaze her how truth could be found at the core, even if well hidden. From Star Trek,in the God scene, to The Matrix, and our choices, as to which Pill we swallow!  To  Avatar in the scene the tree of voices as we connect with the light which permeates everything.  Even in the successful Cartoon epic of Frozen, as the words of the song ‘Let it Go’ when we allow ourselves to be ourselves as we let go of fear, echoed in her memory. 

Yet she also knew what she had discovered was far from fiction. She was far from being on her own in fitting the pieces together.  For technology was also progressing, playing a vital role in allowing others to gather their own pieces together and connect. A.I. may well be gathering intelligence on the masses for its own ends, but the masses were also gathering their evidence and using their voices to unite.

 More were stirring from their slumbers as they began solving their own puzzles pieces.   And more and more were uniting, unifying, comparing their findings with others, and were beginning to see the larger picture take shape. And it wasn’t always what we had been taught. Uncovering such pieces could be disturbing, because it could shake the very foundations of our beliefs, but the more pieces of the puzzle she gathered. The more it started to make perfect sense.

The woman understood there would also be those who would never entertain sitting around a table, and have the patience to inspect each piece. They were content to sit in the boxes of their limited thoughts.  They wanted only their Piece only, and believed what they had been programmed to believe, for they thought only their piece mattered. So, it was up to others to fit in and around with them.

The woman had worked for many bosses of this nature, they would sit smugly in their office, while others did all the work. Showing little respect for the man-hours it took to build their empires, and they cared little of how each other piece had come to be in their box.

But wasn’t this the way of Life? As she thought of the Hierarchy at the top of their pyramids! They cared little for those who slaved away, so long as they reaped in their profits, they cared little as to how each struggled to maintain themselves.

And when those little pieces became self-assured and it looked as if their Lights were beginning to break through, as they united together to protest at their conditions or others well-being, suddenly new fears were created.

But Darkness, is only the lack of Knowledge, Light is knowledge,

Seeds, like the seeds she planted, needed darkness to grow.

Humanity she saw was pushing its way through the darkness into the light through knowledge..

And more and more were now coming to understand the way of the world and how Fear controlled. 

Fear kept Humanity enslaved.  The woman thought back throughout history, it shows us when we build, work hard and think things are going smoothly, something comes along to shock us, knock us back, and in one fell swoop economies could come crashing down, Wars would begin, just as people were beginning to climb back up, stock markets would crash. And people believed all were unavoidable.. But the woman had discovered how these pieces were especially contrived to create turmoil and chaos within the mass’s. Nothing was by chance.. 

And all the while those at the top of their pyramids would prosper rake in their rewards, the little people had the lid closed firmly down on them as they were kept in their boxes.  They were the ones who went to war, who came back disabled and shell shocked.  While others sat in their ivory towers pressing their buttons.  One only had to look at the repetitive cycles, of the past to see History is cyclic to view Historic events throughout the world repeat at various intervals.

The question is, are we going to allow those same mistakes of the past?

 Are we brave enough to envision a New Earth, one of Peace and Co-operation?

Or are we going to allow Fear to rule?

The Media of News, Films, and advertising is used as a tool to constantly mind control.So that we begin to believe this world is darker than dark, and as we do, we slowly let go of vital pieces of ourselves. While companies pile on more pressures to the workforce, cutting people for more profit, we find ourselves crumbling under pressure. The woman had experienced first hand, that crumbling, and taking those prescribed little pills she thought would aid her depression..

It happens in our education system too. Pile on the pressure to our young children, some schools, not all, agenda’s are mainly about Statistics, good grades, as schools promote themselves in Ofsted’s Marking system in Schools. Is it any wonder that in the UK the number of children prescribed  anti-depression drugs has increased by 50% in the last seven years according to the World Health Organisation!.

So we turn to what we think are creative games…. Alternative escapism, and its all part of the ‘grand design’, as smart phones are used as another tool to de-sensitise the mind. As its jingles and tones pings your brain, with its gambling additives, You WIN! Free Game, sprats to catch a mackerel!  or Zap! your dead, Game Over!!  all alter our senses.

We are unaware Vibration is altering our Psych, while computer games and films teach us Killing and torture is normal.  And people no longer seem to care or feel disturbed by it, because its being streamed into our lives, into our very homes.

So, as we join the herd mentality, many now are throwing in the towel. They want to escape, but don’t understand what it is they are escaping from. They just feel out of place, and so is it any wonder suicides are on the increase. Because to be different means you get singled out and labelled.  We so easily point the finger and label, So, we conform and we no longer think for ourselves, because we have Alexa and Cortana to think for us.

But the woman knew this was all part of the Illusion, The Grand Deception. This was what we were all of us creating within our reality. If one believed this was real!

But what was real, and what of other realities, and other dimensions, how did these pieces fit?

Letting Go of Emotional Baggage

How long do we hang onto Emotions, that hold us in the past? 

 If you are going through an emotional trauma this is teaching us how to let go of the emotions we hold onto in the past while honouring the emotion, but not hanging onto it..  

So many of us fall victim to our emotions, I did. For many years I felt unworthy, but once you begin to see how Emotions rule our present, because we are holding onto emotions held in the past.

When we begin to see life from a different perspective, and change our Programming, amazing strides forward into Health and Wellness can be made..  

 

This video is self-explanatory… 

ENJOY

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Going from the OLD Self to the NEW Self..

 

Dear friends..  Here is a little exercise to practice.. 

 I Know so many people whom seem to be struggling, feeling their is no hope, as they live in their circumstances. Often they are waiting for something to come along to change or heal their lives. Yet  often  they are uncertain how to step out of their comfort zones to change their daily routines or negative thinking, to break the cycles they are experiencing. 

I have some projects that are taking my attention away from WordPress over the next few days.. I may well pop back and in and out of your own blogs.. But over the next few posts, I am posting a series of videos..  

I know of several of you who are wanting to make positive changes in your lives.. I hope this video and some others in this series of Diving Deeper into yourselves  will help you see that you are SOoooo much more than your bodies….

And when you begin to practice this way of BEing it really will bring in those Changes to your lives..

But We  All have to put in the ground work and effort...  

I hope you will find time to listen to this 5 minutes from Dr Joe Dispenza..

And I hope you find 10 minutes at the start of your day to put this into practice.. 

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Knowing Empathy.

 

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I have sat down many times this past couple of weeks with pen poised over blank pages in my journal. My head full of so many things that are crying to be heard, yet they will not tumble out onto the page.

My heart has broken, with every mother’s cry, my tears have risen at the slightest cause. So, I put down my pen, and pick up my brushes and I paint.  

I paint into the eyes of another whose own story of their kind have also known the burden of humans who seek glory in their power of weapons.  

My bones have become heavy, my heart heavier still, and a tiredness sweeps over me like a wave that saps the energy from me that I have found myself just wanting to sleep, and shut down the replay of the internal chatter and visions that screams to be let out.

I have tried shutting out the world, and lost. Because the world is within me, and I am within the world, we are one.

At times I can detach, step back, but then I have to look in as the observer, and what I observe is the reality portrayed through a key hole of a window through the lens of those whose view is wanting us to feel as I have been feeling, helpless, and bereft.  

But we are not helpless, we are strong, but we have to be prepared for change. I have said many times being empathic is not an easy journey. It can wear you down, drain you, and drag you into the depths of despair if you allow it to grab hold of you.  You have to be strong and realise not all moods are your own. And you have to understand how our energy is being affected in our addictive behaviours we may not think we are subjected to. But we are all of us being played in this game of life.

So I will keep painting a while longer as I leave you with these words I wrote some time ago

Knowing!

Here is the thing about internal knowing

It’s difficult to explain in words that are glowing

For many people step away, thinking you quite queer

When they do not understand, and live in fear.

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Our internal dialogue will banter to and fro

Revealing the truth, is something you just know

No words can describe the feelings deep inside

When you get this knowing, which inside resides

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We can search out all the knowledge written down in books

But a few of us find our answers, until inside ourselves we look

Once we’ve found the key, that opens up our hearts

That’s when our Knowing, and knowledge begins to start

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Trusting in our instincts each have long forgot

Brings that instant knowing, as we focus on the plot

You then begin to see the world through a different set of eyes

As you realise this world is made up of many lies

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The deeper that you focus, you uncover many layers

As you peel away your skins, ignoring all the stares

You begin to understand there’s more than man-made laws

And as the Knowing grows, so you open up more doors

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The labyrinth of life, well hidden in the maze

Stands right before you, hidden from your gaze

Make-believe becomes real, while reality is but a dream

While everything you touch has holographic seams

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The pathway to knowing, is letting go of what you know

Because when you open your heart, love begins to flow

Love is the key, it may turn you inside out

Universal laws, you will see no one can flout

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You then begin to see, we reap what we have sown

When you access ‘The Knowing’ your heart begins to grow

Knowing what I do, I often feel quite sad

That most have lost their knowing, and no, I’m not quite Mad!

  written 27th Oct 2017. © Sue Dreamwalker. 

 

See you all sometime soon. And I hope you will be patient as I may take time to moderate comments. Thank you.

What I have been painting will be shared next time around..

Much Love and Blessings.

Can a Leopard Change its spots? Can we change our ways?

Leopard half finished

How many of us put ourselves down, and tell ourselves we are not good enough, as we measure ourselves against others achievements.  Especially if we have been brought up lacking in self-worth.

I know many times I have measured myself, against others whom I feel are gifted and blessed with their specific talents.

But at the same time, I  grew up also with the words of my father ringing in my ears, as he would tell me when I said I couldn’t do something, that there was no such word as can’t. And he was right, for if we do not try, we will never know what we can accomplish.

I grew achieving many things I never thought I would. And as I walked my walk, I also understood something else. That no one is better or beneath  us, for we are all of us Human Beings, who are here to learn and grow via our merits or our mistakes.  Some of my greatest achievements, have been through the errors I have made, because they have taught me so much more about the skills of life. 

I have learnt to knit, sew, dress make, grow vegetables, I have, papered, painted and decorated our home. I have laid lino- linoleum in our bathroom and learnt to crochet.  I learnt how to use a computer, often through trial and error.    And I learnt as I grew as an adult that we are all of us equal.   For we each of us have our own unique gifts.

Drawing was my first love, and yet I still measure my capabilities against others whom in my eyes are far more gifted than I. As I never had any kind of art training. I just paint what  I feel. 

 Many of us Self sabotage ourselves at the first hurdle. As we give up, feeling we are not good enough.  We either lack confidence, or are simply insecure and afraid of striding out in a new direction.  We  are all special and need to accept the gifts we have, be it a listening ear, or a musical voice, or a bright smile and a bubbly personality. Each of us are special and unique.  

 Leopard came to remind me and teach me. She came to show me confidence and perseverance, as I had always put off drawing a Leopard because of its spots.. Fearing I would not do it justice, and fearing it would be a failure. And was why when I  started to paint it, I put off painting the spots on its head straight away. This was the Image I was working from, as I looked through one of my wildlife photography books from my book shelf. As you can see it’s not that clear, and the spots are hard to define. As this Sunset photo from Untamed  by Steve Bloom shows . 

Image from the book UNTAMED,By Steve Bloom~ Wild Life Photographer.

Leopard came to remind me that I need to trust in the skills I have, and to accept my spots, my imperfections. She came to show me through your own appreciation of my art, that I need to appreciate my own talents more, and to stop putting myself down.  And she comes to remind me, and perhaps you also, as you find yourself reading this, that it is never to late to apply yourself as you follow your dreams.

Leopard also came to remind me that I have also been putting off another project that I set the intention this year to start. And that was to put some of my poetry together in the hopes of publishing it. I made that start, then I guess I self-sabotaged it, and deleted much of what I had written to accompany my poetry.

Nearly finished. I had more detail on the branch to do. As I concentrated on adding details to the branch. The pathway of Life.

I guess its time I stepped out along that branch of life, and put my faith in the steps I need now to follow to bring that particular gift into the Light.

Thank you All, for being part of my journey as I rediscover and apply myself in unfamiliar territory.

 And as the Buzzard whom I saw the other week, In the post ‘Look up and Soar’ spoke to me, saying ““( …… It is time to soar above your perceived limitations. Are you currently undergoing an internal death and rebirth cycle? Are you ready to assert your actions from your ideas?……)

Leopard came to make me sure I heard and tell me to lay down my fears. And yes I am ready. 

I hope as you walk through your life, you can also lay down your fears and boldly put one foot in front of the other, as you focus your Intent on your Dreams!

Are YOU Ready? 

The Finished Leopard
More details were added to the branch, adding moss, and new life out of dead wood.

Love and Blessings

~Sue~

Samhain’s Perfect Gift.

We may feel we are out on a limb.

~♥~

As the trees release their canopy letting go to float

The leaves like fallen time drift from hollowed Oak

Decay is part of Nature she never yet stands still

As birds and beasts hunker down to face the winter’s chill

~♥~

Samhain’s perfect gift is a time to release the old

Let go of those old grudges with the cobwebs of our souls

Collect that inner wisdom that is stored within the heart

Harvest new possibilities, now is the time to start

~♥~

So, stand firm in your roots and hold steadfast like the tree

Accept the Wheel is turning, though at times we may not see

Each Season has its purpose to regenerate and sow

Change comes to the World so that All our souls may grow.

© Sue Dreamwalker

Art By Sue Dreamwalker

Finding our Hearts.

 Finding our Hearts

Photo taken at Rufford Abbey UK.

Seeking, Searching, where do we begin?

Life times of debris beneath our skin

Digging, Delving, opening up old wounds

Peeling away shadows, expelling old fumes,

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Life times of hauntings, the nightmares that cling

Each layer we peel is not without its sting

Yet the deeper we go, the higher we rise

As we tare off the masks, revealing our true prize

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For when you find your centre, your true self

Its priceless, and more precious, this is true wealth

Life becomes so simple, and your head becomes so clear

When you let go of Lack, and release all of your fears

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Searching means exploring the power from within

Letting go of conditioning that began with original sin

The feminine is rising as the compassion and love expands

Embrace your brothers and sisters, extend a helping hand

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For the pain we see reflected are the revealing layers

Set to ignite Compassion through Unity and Prayers

So don’t let the Fear Divide us, for it weakens and controls

Reach deep into your hearts, Let Love be our Goal.

© Sue Dreamwalker  Sept 2017.