Free Will to Choose.

The Healing Begins: ~Responsibility~

…….‘Our Free Will had been part of our demise, and yet it would be our ‘Free Will’ which would help heal Mother Gaia. And each were responsible for our thoughts and actions……..”

During one of the woman’s meditations with our Earth Mother, she had mentally asked about the ‘disease of mankind’ of his greed and how among such beauty had man chose his present path. Which had led to such pollution, destruction of habitats and species, and how can individuals help to change the world for the better?

The woman had sat focused upon the flame of a candle and the light of it showed her the beauty and purity of the Earth as it evolved. She saw how each of the species had chosen to be seeded and how those higher beings within creation had a master plan.

She saw the whole Universe breathe in and breathe out, as the vibration of creation moved as one. She saw the atoms spinning and was made to understand that each atom within its space was connected to the next.. And if one moved one atom then all other atoms had to move for one affected all, and that all were vibration.

She was shown how her DNA had been taken and fused and altered from its original intention. And she saw how those missing strands which had been taken, now trapped her within this Matrix by beings who long ago conquered this system for their own ends. 

Her vision then took her through her own body showing her the cells within her that died and were replaced.. Nothing was lost. The woman realised that she too was her own Universe forever being created a new. She felt the same, and yet her body was never the same for it was constantly changing constantly evolving… Renewing, Replenishing, Transforming.. She instinctively knew she could manipulate every living cell within her being if so desired. But we had lost this knowledge of BEing as our programming had been tampered with.   

She was shown how her thoughts through the years had created the blockages within her system.. The vortexes of light within her spinning chakras in some area’s now lacked the life force they should have. She understood how through the years this had affected her energies. Amplifying her  fears, affecting her  lack of self-love. Her  thoughts within creating her energy body causing illness and disease .. All came in a flash within her mind.

She was shown we were far from alone, and that we were still being guided and watched over, and that we each hold the ‘Key’ within us to help our Earth Mother. Our Free Will had been part of our demise, and yet it would be our ‘Free Will’ which would help heal Mother Gaia. And each were responsible for our thoughts and actions..

Sing your Song for the Trees of the Earth It seems many are under attack right now. 

She was taken up high out of her body to sit in space above the blue planet. She was permitted to see the many Ley lines of energy which was a girth around the planet. She saw how some were strong while others had weakened and others appeared broken, disconnected, lifeless lines that although visible had no energy running through them. She saw how many military bases were now positioned along these ley lines and power points. Everything is revealed to those who open their eyes. 

The woman saw how many souls were still Earth bound, trapped within the perpetual cycles of Attachments of Desires, Greed, Guilt, Anger, Grief, held entrapped, held prisoners by the very same thing that had given them Freedom of choice.. ‘Freewill’…

Each soul/Cell weighed down in the density of matter affecting the whole of consciousness, which in turn fed thoughts within the creation of reality. As around and around they span..

Yet she saw too how change was spreading as more now were asking questions, and seeking answers from both science and their governments. No longer are people readily in acceptance of control, ‘Free-will’ was dictating the need of responsibility which was accelerating humanities desire for harmony and Unity. 

Acceleration was now a tangible feeling as Time it’s self seemed to spin ever faster and yet confusion was still within many as the energies tossed them around creating a feeling of anticipation yet it held so much fear, for many still had not awoken to themselves. And could not trust their intuitive inner Being.

The Woman now knew it was TIME… Time to take responsibility.. Time to Speak her Truth as she perceived it to be, understanding that many held their versions of the Truth within them. And collectively when all pieces of that truth came together, no one could deny that truth, because they too  would just know it to be True. 

 All we need,is to trust in the LOVE within.

And share it with one another, 

MUCH LOVE.. 

💖 

 

  This is a resurrected post from the past. which has been tweaked. 

 

 

Divine Mission-Possible~ Seeking Truth.

Mission Possible Linda’s challenge at Litebeing Chronicles 

This is my contribution to Linda’s Mission-Possible  Blog Challenge 2018 the points Linda has asked  us to write about are if we think we are Star-seeds, or Lightworkers and what we think our Mission on Gaia, this Earth is.. The full requests of this challenge is included at the end of this post.

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Am I a Star-seed? … To be perfectly honest I don’t know.

We can give ourselves many labels as we want to ourselves. But labels put us all in little box’s for others to point their fingers at and make preconceived judgements given on the labels they read.

Am I Lightworker? Maybe..

But what I try to be, is a ‘Peace Maker’.  This I have known I’ve always been, from my early childhood. As I would step between arguing parents, as I would stand in the middle of them and shout ‘Stop!’

Later I would become negotiator and mediator in my work roles, and often others would seek me out to settle disputes because I brought calmness and reason to their differences. I was even a mentor in a large School Academy in my business and education role. Later still a Care giver for nearly twelve years to Adults with learning difficulties, such as those suffering with Autism, Mental Illness, along with Downs Syndrome, Asperger Syndrome and Adults who had brain damage from constant beatings and abuse as children. 

I could give myself a whole lot of fancy labels during my life, from; Sewing machinist, Supervisor, QFI  Assessor,  Training Manager, from Medium, to Intuitive Empath, to Clairvoyant, Clairsentient, Trance Medium, to Healer and Psychic, To Support Worker.   

But all of these labels put you into a BOX, to be judged by preconceived ideas of what the label says

Maybe I am none of them, but then maybe I am all of them and more.

But so are YOU,

Every one of you who are reading this right now you are all Truth Seekers, like me.  It is just some of us wake up knowing sooner rather than later, remembering at an earlier stage, who we really are.

But as my About Me page states, I am but an ordinary woman with a Knowing…. I knew from a young child, I was not of this Earth, and along the journey, between being- Wife and Mother, working a full-time job, I served Spirit and learnt how to traverse both worlds.

We all serve spirit in many ways, by listening and caring, healing, and nurturing others. While others volunteer to shake us awake to the light by creating the shadows they cast.  

Being a Lightworker for me means seeking Truth. But when you uncover the reality of that truth of the world and ‘wake up’, you have to be prepared to receive a shock. You have to become strong, because at first learning the real truth breaks you, it tears you down and rips you apart, especially if your wake up involves understanding all the truths at once.

Because this world is nothing like we have been taught. This world is an illusion, with the grains of truth hidden for us to find. That is why many are waking up bit by bit, as they see this reality and delve into history to uncover what is withheld in history books. To have all of this knowledge at once is often too much and in the beginning, I couldn’t comprehend what I was learning because it took me way out of my comfort zone… This is why many shy away from the Truth, because they can not handle it, so would sooner stay cocooned within their own world where they don’t have to think.

But the world is waking up and more and more now are beginning to see and sense things are not right, so the lies are now being exposed, bit by bit. Slowly we are waking up to this Huge deception, and those whom many thought were Godly and of high places also are being exposed for what they  truly really are.

My Mission: I think I have always known, is ‘Communicator’ (it took me a long while to find my voice, and no one was more surprised than I when people wanted to listen to my demonstrations and talks in spiritual centres)

Start by planting a seed

If I am a Star-seed, a Lightworker, then my mission is to get people to ‘Think’ outside of their boxes by planting a thought, a seed to grow. All seeds start their journey from the dark.  Many do not see themselves as emerging from the darkness, until they learn to plant the seed of love within their own hearts. It is then that the Light work begins.  As they wake up to the love of their own Christ Consciousness within.  

It is not my job to change anyone’s beliefs, because we all of us have Free-Will and choices to believe what we choose. I am not here for that. We all have eyes to see and ears to hear. But when we understand we ALL need to come from that point of love, only then will our external world begin to change into a more peaceful one. 

So we choose what we want to believe, given that we have knowledge and deeper understanding of All the Knowledge available, to make those informed choices.  Yet many do not seek outside their boxes, so only see their truth from their own perspectives. All of us have pieces of truth, and we are all of us trying to assemble them into greater understanding. And we all perceive our pieces differently, given our various backgrounds of knowledge.. 

No one is right, and no one is wrong, but when you come to understand the real truth. You just Know it for what it is. Truth..

Not everything is Black or White, and deception goes along way back, way beyond our many life times. For we have been here many times, repeating this same illusion over and over.

But if you ask me what I believe. I believe am a soul-part of many. And my Higher Divine-Self knows my soul part better than anyone else, because my Higher-self My God part-self Knows all of my other soul parts..

I believe there are Star-seeds, Star-Beings, Lightworkers and Aliens walking this planet.. Can I prove it?.. no… Can you prove otherwise?… No…  But I have come to understand many things which blow your mind on this Earth plane.

And I truly believe that those of us who are on this Planet RIGHT NOW all of us have a Mission..

And all of us have chosen to be here at this time. We chose to be here on Planet Earth at this time of transition of Gaia and ourselves.

We have to begin to wake up to what we are doing to ourselves, and to Gaia, and that many beings are watching what we are doing with our Free-will right now. Because this Planet is important, It is a living library that many Star-seeds have taken an interest in over Aeons of Time.  And NOW is the Time to Choose…

Now is the time to unite, stop finger-pointing and look in the mirror.

Now is the time to go within and re-connect with who you are, and find again that ‘ Christ-Consciousness’ within your heart. Which is your own LOVE Seed..  And you need to allow that love to grow within yourself and spread out that love to your family and friends and project it out into the world.

And Watch it grow.

You need to understand we are eternal beings held within our human form and that there is no greater power on earth than love in overcoming fear that is created to keep you trapped within this matrix.

And when you awaken further you will see how Fear will be used as weapon against us. So Hold light and love in your hearts. Even when the world seems to be going crazy, because this is why LIGHT-WORKERS all around the globe are uniting and waking others up. For they are exposing the world of darkness for what it is. We need to keep focused in that love vibration and not allow ourselves to take sides and be even more divided by the agenda of hate.

And its like the scene I showed a couple of posts back in The Matrix film. It is up to each of us as to

Which Pill do you swallow?

The Future of your Souls.. and this world is in your hands, it is up to all of us to choose wisely.

Our Mission-Possible is about to get Serious.

Lets Make it Together

In love and Light and Peace.

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Linda’s Challenge Points

1 – Write about your spiritual mission here on Gaia. Are you a lightworker, Star-seed, forerunner, Indigo, or none of the above? What have you incarnated to do or to be? Describe your mission and your journey to achieve it. Are you delighted to be here? There is no correct answer, by the way. Make it your own.

2- Pick a date and inform me here in the comments section.

3- Include ” Divine Mission-Possible blog challenge ” in the text and link back to this blog post.

4 Copy the blog badge and add it to your site.

Link to this Challenge and other contributors is HERE 

There are only Two Dates left in November left to fill, so I invite any of you to hop over to the link above and book your Mission-Possible..

True Awakening Stories Part III ~ Puzzle of Life ~Final Pieces.

Barbara over at http://memymagnificentself.com/

has invited others and myself to take part in the continuation of our stories on our Awakening journey. She asks us to tell us where we are right now on our awakening journey.  

The posts of which are linked on Barbara’s Blog post entitled http://memymagnificentself.com/2018/09/17/a-selection-of-true-awakening-stories-part-iii/You can find the ebooks on Barbara’s site or the bottom of my own

Part Three of my Awakening..  Fitting all of the Pieces Together  .

When does our true awakening begin? Looking back over time, there was no flash of inspiration, no NDE (Near Death Experience) that brought me to my awakened self. There was no Light bulb moment where I got some mystical revelation. 

 

We are never truly Complete, until each of those separate pieces wake up and return. Understanding we are all God Parts.

Like most of us who wake up, it can be gradual process, it’s not until you look back at the beauty of this orchestrated life, and see how one thing leads to another, and how people you meet, places you go, all lead you on the path you are meant to be on. Then you can look back and see how far you have come as all of those pieces of the puzzle came together. 

 It shows you how childhood was the learning ground that set you on your emotional journey of discovering yourself. I was lucky… I was guided and listened to my inner promptings …. Many are not. And it shows me again and again how we should all nurture our young children for they carry so much within their emotional bodies for the rest of their lives which shape their thinking and perception of the world about them and their own self-worth.

I don’t wish to repeat what I already shared in parts one and part two of Our Awakening process, for they can be found in Barbara’s eBooks.  But I can pin point a pivotal turning point that allowed me to travel along my own pathway of discoveries.  You know how sometimes, you just know you are being guided, Well that is how this ‘Sign’ jumped up at me, when searching for job vacancies, the advert a Meditation Class just JUMPED off the page. The first of many signs.  And if I had not seen it, I am certain I would not now be on this path. When you begin to wake up, to see how everything is connected you will see an escalation of ‘Signs’ Synchronicities, and you will start to notice numbers that keep repeating, and marvel at how once you open your mind how connected and orchestrated this Universe really is. Because we then begin to see how Thoughts are Energy. 

All seeds emerge from the darkness into the Light.

Where am I now in my awakening experience? Some would say I am deeper down the rabbit hole than ever before. And if I were to tell you of what I have discovered about the world and it’s history along the way many wouldn’t believe me, so I won’t even try..

What is important is your own soul journey, and waking up to all You can be.

The pieces of my puzzle have been coming together all of my life. We experience how the universal plan unfolds for all of us. And it’s only through our choices we live and learn. We were given Free Will after all!…  

Our waking up is not an easy journey, it takes work. It can be a painful process, there will be tears too. Painful memories which we think we have dealt with will often crop up again when you least expect it as something triggers a deeper subconscious memory deep within. Only recently at the beginning of the year, more digging deep  I had to do, as those childhood emotions of unworthiness  I had thought dealt with surfaced yet again. This time I looked at them not from my perspective, but I tried to look at the  reason why I kept hanging onto them.  So I revisited my childhood through my Mother’s perspective. And why she had perhaps not been able to show me and one of my sisters as much affection as she did my other three siblings. And I was able to extend more compassion out to her than before. And this time around I truly believe I forgave her treatment of me. And I was able to hold that inner child to reassure her she was loved by her Mother, but for what ever reasons, her Mother found it hard to give of herself.  

 Flower Petals created this bird each a separate piece to create the whole. Nature continues to create and just BE seeking no praise for doing so. 

It takes courage to dig deep to bring those hidden wounds to the surface. They’re many layers, and often many tears as raw wounds need to be dug out and exposed to the light of day.   

We have to Learn to forgive, and that is not just others, but we need learn to forgive ourselves and the guilt we so easily pile upon ourselves. Sometimes we discover it’s not just the guilt of this one life time. And after experiencing Past life Regression, I learnt I was carrying many things over from one life into the next.

And so it has to be with you, I cannot tell you how to awake, I can only tell you that you have to begin to trust a deeper ‘knowing’ Follow your intuition. Let go of old programming that holds you trapped within this ‘Matrix’. And as you begin to let go of the emotional baggage we carry around with us, you will also discover this world is not all that we have been programmed to believe it is. 

When you wake up you come to look at those who wound you in a different light, as you try to fathom what lessons did we learn and where it shaped our paths to take a different route. Some of our biggest enemies maybe are our greatest friends. As they perhaps agreed to be part of your wake-up call.

Creation is Constantly Evolving

All was meant to be, as I tried to unpick those childhood feelings of unworthiness which hung deep within.. And I would not then have learnt how to move blocked energy or delve into past life regression. Or read the books on Self healing. 

Solving the Puzzle is an ongoing process. We will never truly find all missing pieces, because we are all of us creating new experiences as we grow and evolve.

But to wake up, we don’t all need a spiritual path, we can come from ALL walks of life, From vagrants on the street, to Doctors and Scientists.  No one is higher or lower. We have all come to  Re-Remember who we Are as we raise our vibration and learn that we are Energy Beings,inside our Human shells. 

Each of us are on our own individual journey’s as we wake up to the world around us and as we discover the Universe is far beyond what any imagination could visualise. When you start digging deeper into searching for answers, you begin to uncover for yourselves that you are ALL so much more that we have ever been led to believe.

We are Powerful Eternal Beings who have been held trapped within this dimension for far too long. Held within our perpetual wheels of this merry-go-round. Now is the time to break this cycle. As we let go once and for all of this material realm, as we raise our vibration in love. 

Waking up means you have to be prepared to step out of your box, and you have to be prepared to be able to accept that which you find. For many things will take you outside of your comfort zones.  But you have to search to find yourself and your own answers, for its your journey, your awakening.

We are all hear to remember! That which we know, but which most of us forgot.

 We raise our vibration Through Love.  

To Love ourselves.

I learnt to let go of ALL of that which you think is important.

I Learnt to Let go of the past, the hurt, grief, guilt, judgement and open your heart

I learnt to live with what I have within my grasp right NOW.

We have to stop blaming the past, and try to stop worrying about the future

For the only Moment we live is in this moment of NOW.

And I learnt to embrace the peace and beauty,in the minutest details from micro flowers to ants.

You have to Learn to love that Inner Child again, Laugh, play, and enJOY.  

And as you do, as you let go of thinking that this material world is all that matters

You shed the bonds that have kept us captive via our own ego’s and the deep emotions we have held within us.. A new sense of Freedom suddenly surrounds you. 

We came back to remember, and when we do, when we really remember WHO it is we are, No fear can stop us, for we are Eternal BE-ings of Light.

 

All photos taken by Sue Dreamwalker  ~Flowers and birds are from a Well Dressing. 

 

The Puzzle of Life~ Part Two.

 

Now was the time  the woman needed to share her thoughts. Yet here was her dilemma. How to place all of those pieces that had taken years to gather so that others could make sense of them was almost impossible, unless they too had also been searching and gathering similar pieces to think ‘outside the box’ that so many found themselves encased within.

Some were not even remotely aware there were pieces to find, let alone go searching for them, while others would contentedly sit within their own picture never wanting to create a new landscape of other possibilities 

She knew her own pieces were making sense, but would they make sense to others. She dipped her hand yet again into the pile of scattered thoughts, to reshuffle them and turn them over into view.

She smiled at how the Truth was often held hidden in plain sight and she marvelled at the speed at which those synchronicities had jumped up at her long ago on her journey, nudging her ever forward, confirming she was on the right path.  

The very first piece that jumped out at her was when she was looking for a new job in the 80’s as the stress was getting to her, but instead of finding a new job. An advertisement jumped from the local paper. The print seeming larger than life….

“ MEDITATION CLASS”

are you wishing to de-stress, relax and learn how to meditate?

Then come along to our Meditation Group….

She thought back to that very first piece, it was the one that had started her journey to discover more about who she was and to seek answers to unanswerable questions.

That one piece had opened doors to a new world, as she began to view this world from a different perspective, as she began to see how this world told its stories. And how hidden within them were messages, if one cared to look at the hints which were thrown out. Yet all the while the Truth was distorted.   

It never ceased to amaze her how truth could be found at the core, even if well hidden. From Star Trek,in the God scene, to The Matrix, and our choices, as to which Pill we swallow!  To  Avatar in the scene the tree of voices as we connect with the light which permeates everything.  Even in the successful Cartoon epic of Frozen, as the words of the song ‘Let it Go’ when we allow ourselves to be ourselves as we let go of fear, echoed in her memory. 

Yet she also knew what she had discovered was far from fiction. She was far from being on her own in fitting the pieces together.  For technology was also progressing, playing a vital role in allowing others to gather their own pieces together and connect. A.I. may well be gathering intelligence on the masses for its own ends, but the masses were also gathering their evidence and using their voices to unite.

 More were stirring from their slumbers as they began solving their own puzzles pieces.   And more and more were uniting, unifying, comparing their findings with others, and were beginning to see the larger picture take shape. And it wasn’t always what we had been taught. Uncovering such pieces could be disturbing, because it could shake the very foundations of our beliefs, but the more pieces of the puzzle she gathered. The more it started to make perfect sense.

The woman understood there would also be those who would never entertain sitting around a table, and have the patience to inspect each piece. They were content to sit in the boxes of their limited thoughts.  They wanted only their Piece only, and believed what they had been programmed to believe, for they thought only their piece mattered. So, it was up to others to fit in and around with them.

The woman had worked for many bosses of this nature, they would sit smugly in their office, while others did all the work. Showing little respect for the man-hours it took to build their empires, and they cared little of how each other piece had come to be in their box.

But wasn’t this the way of Life? As she thought of the Hierarchy at the top of their pyramids! They cared little for those who slaved away, so long as they reaped in their profits, they cared little as to how each struggled to maintain themselves.

And when those little pieces became self-assured and it looked as if their Lights were beginning to break through, as they united together to protest at their conditions or others well-being, suddenly new fears were created.

But Darkness, is only the lack of Knowledge, Light is knowledge,

Seeds, like the seeds she planted, needed darkness to grow.

Humanity she saw was pushing its way through the darkness into the light through knowledge..

And more and more were now coming to understand the way of the world and how Fear controlled. 

Fear kept Humanity enslaved.  The woman thought back throughout history, it shows us when we build, work hard and think things are going smoothly, something comes along to shock us, knock us back, and in one fell swoop economies could come crashing down, Wars would begin, just as people were beginning to climb back up, stock markets would crash. And people believed all were unavoidable.. But the woman had discovered how these pieces were especially contrived to create turmoil and chaos within the mass’s. Nothing was by chance.. 

And all the while those at the top of their pyramids would prosper rake in their rewards, the little people had the lid closed firmly down on them as they were kept in their boxes.  They were the ones who went to war, who came back disabled and shell shocked.  While others sat in their ivory towers pressing their buttons.  One only had to look at the repetitive cycles, of the past to see History is cyclic to view Historic events throughout the world repeat at various intervals.

The question is, are we going to allow those same mistakes of the past?

 Are we brave enough to envision a New Earth, one of Peace and Co-operation?

Or are we going to allow Fear to rule?

The Media of News, Films, and advertising is used as a tool to constantly mind control.So that we begin to believe this world is darker than dark, and as we do, we slowly let go of vital pieces of ourselves. While companies pile on more pressures to the workforce, cutting people for more profit, we find ourselves crumbling under pressure. The woman had experienced first hand, that crumbling, and taking those prescribed little pills she thought would aid her depression..

It happens in our education system too. Pile on the pressure to our young children, some schools, not all, agenda’s are mainly about Statistics, good grades, as schools promote themselves in Ofsted’s Marking system in Schools. Is it any wonder that in the UK the number of children prescribed  anti-depression drugs has increased by 50% in the last seven years according to the World Health Organisation!.

So we turn to what we think are creative games…. Alternative escapism, and its all part of the ‘grand design’, as smart phones are used as another tool to de-sensitise the mind. As its jingles and tones pings your brain, with its gambling additives, You WIN! Free Game, sprats to catch a mackerel!  or Zap! your dead, Game Over!!  all alter our senses.

We are unaware Vibration is altering our Psych, while computer games and films teach us Killing and torture is normal.  And people no longer seem to care or feel disturbed by it, because its being streamed into our lives, into our very homes.

So, as we join the herd mentality, many now are throwing in the towel. They want to escape, but don’t understand what it is they are escaping from. They just feel out of place, and so is it any wonder suicides are on the increase. Because to be different means you get singled out and labelled.  We so easily point the finger and label, So, we conform and we no longer think for ourselves, because we have Alexa and Cortana to think for us.

But the woman knew this was all part of the Illusion, The Grand Deception. This was what we were all of us creating within our reality. If one believed this was real!

But what was real, and what of other realities, and other dimensions, how did these pieces fit?

Letting Go of Emotional Baggage

How long do we hang onto Emotions, that hold us in the past? 

 If you are going through an emotional trauma this is teaching us how to let go of the emotions we hold onto in the past while honouring the emotion, but not hanging onto it..  

So many of us fall victim to our emotions, I did. For many years I felt unworthy, but once you begin to see how Emotions rule our present, because we are holding onto emotions held in the past.

When we begin to see life from a different perspective, and change our Programming, amazing strides forward into Health and Wellness can be made..  

 

This video is self-explanatory… 

ENJOY

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Going from the OLD Self to the NEW Self..

 

Dear friends..  Here is a little exercise to practice.. 

 I Know so many people whom seem to be struggling, feeling their is no hope, as they live in their circumstances. Often they are waiting for something to come along to change or heal their lives. Yet  often  they are uncertain how to step out of their comfort zones to change their daily routines or negative thinking, to break the cycles they are experiencing. 

I have some projects that are taking my attention away from WordPress over the next few days.. I may well pop back and in and out of your own blogs.. But over the next few posts, I am posting a series of videos..  

I know of several of you who are wanting to make positive changes in your lives.. I hope this video and some others in this series of Diving Deeper into yourselves  will help you see that you are SOoooo much more than your bodies….

And when you begin to practice this way of BEing it really will bring in those Changes to your lives..

But We  All have to put in the ground work and effort...  

I hope you will find time to listen to this 5 minutes from Dr Joe Dispenza..

And I hope you find 10 minutes at the start of your day to put this into practice.. 

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Knowing Empathy.

 

https://www.peacedirect.org

I have sat down many times this past couple of weeks with pen poised over blank pages in my journal. My head full of so many things that are crying to be heard, yet they will not tumble out onto the page.

My heart has broken, with every mother’s cry, my tears have risen at the slightest cause. So, I put down my pen, and pick up my brushes and I paint.  

I paint into the eyes of another whose own story of their kind have also known the burden of humans who seek glory in their power of weapons.  

My bones have become heavy, my heart heavier still, and a tiredness sweeps over me like a wave that saps the energy from me that I have found myself just wanting to sleep, and shut down the replay of the internal chatter and visions that screams to be let out.

I have tried shutting out the world, and lost. Because the world is within me, and I am within the world, we are one.

At times I can detach, step back, but then I have to look in as the observer, and what I observe is the reality portrayed through a key hole of a window through the lens of those whose view is wanting us to feel as I have been feeling, helpless, and bereft.  

But we are not helpless, we are strong, but we have to be prepared for change. I have said many times being empathic is not an easy journey. It can wear you down, drain you, and drag you into the depths of despair if you allow it to grab hold of you.  You have to be strong and realise not all moods are your own. And you have to understand how our energy is being affected in our addictive behaviours we may not think we are subjected to. But we are all of us being played in this game of life.

So I will keep painting a while longer as I leave you with these words I wrote some time ago

Knowing!

Here is the thing about internal knowing

It’s difficult to explain in words that are glowing

For many people step away, thinking you quite queer

When they do not understand, and live in fear.

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Our internal dialogue will banter to and fro

Revealing the truth, is something you just know

No words can describe the feelings deep inside

When you get this knowing, which inside resides

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We can search out all the knowledge written down in books

But a few of us find our answers, until inside ourselves we look

Once we’ve found the key, that opens up our hearts

That’s when our Knowing, and knowledge begins to start

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Trusting in our instincts each have long forgot

Brings that instant knowing, as we focus on the plot

You then begin to see the world through a different set of eyes

As you realise this world is made up of many lies

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The deeper that you focus, you uncover many layers

As you peel away your skins, ignoring all the stares

You begin to understand there’s more than man-made laws

And as the Knowing grows, so you open up more doors

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The labyrinth of life, well hidden in the maze

Stands right before you, hidden from your gaze

Make-believe becomes real, while reality is but a dream

While everything you touch has holographic seams

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The pathway to knowing, is letting go of what you know

Because when you open your heart, love begins to flow

Love is the key, it may turn you inside out

Universal laws, you will see no one can flout

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You then begin to see, we reap what we have sown

When you access ‘The Knowing’ your heart begins to grow

Knowing what I do, I often feel quite sad

That most have lost their knowing, and no, I’m not quite Mad!

  written 27th Oct 2017. © Sue Dreamwalker. 

 

See you all sometime soon. And I hope you will be patient as I may take time to moderate comments. Thank you.

What I have been painting will be shared next time around..

Much Love and Blessings.

Can a Leopard Change its spots? Can we change our ways?

Leopard half finished

How many of us put ourselves down, and tell ourselves we are not good enough, as we measure ourselves against others achievements.  Especially if we have been brought up lacking in self-worth.

I know many times I have measured myself, against others whom I feel are gifted and blessed with their specific talents.

But at the same time, I  grew up also with the words of my father ringing in my ears, as he would tell me when I said I couldn’t do something, that there was no such word as can’t. And he was right, for if we do not try, we will never know what we can accomplish.

I grew achieving many things I never thought I would. And as I walked my walk, I also understood something else. That no one is better or beneath  us, for we are all of us Human Beings, who are here to learn and grow via our merits or our mistakes.  Some of my greatest achievements, have been through the errors I have made, because they have taught me so much more about the skills of life. 

I have learnt to knit, sew, dress make, grow vegetables, I have, papered, painted and decorated our home. I have laid lino- linoleum in our bathroom and learnt to crochet.  I learnt how to use a computer, often through trial and error.    And I learnt as I grew as an adult that we are all of us equal.   For we each of us have our own unique gifts.

Drawing was my first love, and yet I still measure my capabilities against others whom in my eyes are far more gifted than I. As I never had any kind of art training. I just paint what  I feel. 

 Many of us Self sabotage ourselves at the first hurdle. As we give up, feeling we are not good enough.  We either lack confidence, or are simply insecure and afraid of striding out in a new direction.  We  are all special and need to accept the gifts we have, be it a listening ear, or a musical voice, or a bright smile and a bubbly personality. Each of us are special and unique.  

 Leopard came to remind me and teach me. She came to show me confidence and perseverance, as I had always put off drawing a Leopard because of its spots.. Fearing I would not do it justice, and fearing it would be a failure. And was why when I  started to paint it, I put off painting the spots on its head straight away. This was the Image I was working from, as I looked through one of my wildlife photography books from my book shelf. As you can see it’s not that clear, and the spots are hard to define. As this Sunset photo from Untamed  by Steve Bloom shows . 

Image from the book UNTAMED,By Steve Bloom~ Wild Life Photographer.

Leopard came to remind me that I need to trust in the skills I have, and to accept my spots, my imperfections. She came to show me through your own appreciation of my art, that I need to appreciate my own talents more, and to stop putting myself down.  And she comes to remind me, and perhaps you also, as you find yourself reading this, that it is never to late to apply yourself as you follow your dreams.

Leopard also came to remind me that I have also been putting off another project that I set the intention this year to start. And that was to put some of my poetry together in the hopes of publishing it. I made that start, then I guess I self-sabotaged it, and deleted much of what I had written to accompany my poetry.

Nearly finished. I had more detail on the branch to do. As I concentrated on adding details to the branch. The pathway of Life.

I guess its time I stepped out along that branch of life, and put my faith in the steps I need now to follow to bring that particular gift into the Light.

Thank you All, for being part of my journey as I rediscover and apply myself in unfamiliar territory.

 And as the Buzzard whom I saw the other week, In the post ‘Look up and Soar’ spoke to me, saying ““( …… It is time to soar above your perceived limitations. Are you currently undergoing an internal death and rebirth cycle? Are you ready to assert your actions from your ideas?……)

Leopard came to make me sure I heard and tell me to lay down my fears. And yes I am ready. 

I hope as you walk through your life, you can also lay down your fears and boldly put one foot in front of the other, as you focus your Intent on your Dreams!

Are YOU Ready? 

The Finished Leopard
More details were added to the branch, adding moss, and new life out of dead wood.

Love and Blessings

~Sue~