A Puzzle to solve, Follow the Signs~ Meaningful Monday’s

My Painting~ Molecule Mandala ~  We may all be dots/Specs in the  Cosmos, But when we Unite we  create Form and Change..  We Become Change!

 

Standing In Space

 

Standing on the edge of outer space

Have you ever felt yourself in this place?

Alone and yet surrounded by stars

Women are from Venus and men are from Mars.

 

You look at the world and want to put right

All the wrongs of man, to stop the fights-

Of Nations, whose turmoil is beyond our control,

To stop all the suffering, and end the death toll.

 

And yet you’re but a spec, just standing on the edge

But the yearning inside me has become more than a pledge.

For to help make a difference is what I do seek

To help and encourage, and to show we’re not weak.

 

But how can I change the World and her wars?

We first must look within, and look at Universal Laws.

To realise that to change, we must start with our self.

Understanding Love and Compassion is our true wealth.

 

That to care for each other regardless of our creed

For you cannot gather Gold, and to your children feed.

But alone I stand, just a speck of cosmic dust.

But united together we can reach out and we must-

Succeed in our endeavours to create a better land

For our children’s sake, let’s take each other’s hand.

 

Unite in one voice that calls out for Peace

Before the Earth’s Power, will finally unleash-

Her own brand of cleansing, with one almighty sweep,

And tears of Nations will flood the rivers deep.

 

Mighty are we!.. Look again out to the stars,

But a Spec in the Cosmos, along with Moon and Mars.

So look to yourselves, and right all your wrongs

For 2018

will herald in a brand New Song!..

 ©Sue Dreamwalker

I have been doing some clearing out of my Archives, and retracing  of back posts  putting into categories etc. I wrote this poem back in 2008. Then I put 2012 where you now see 2018,  as then that was the year we seemed to focus upon and look towards, as the Mayan Calendar year ended and New Beginning were imminent..

As I read through many  New Year posts within our beautiful WordPress Community, I see many new goals being put into place and many intentions being given, as to what we each can achieve  and change within our own lives and that of the world.

We are the Change-makers of our society,  and each time we are true to ourselves, and we each hold the light of what we know to be true in our hearts, we each of us help heal the world. We do it for standing up and speaking out for what is right.

When we endeavour to help change our world, it means we are doing nothing more than holding ourselves in love and respect as we try our best to be the best we know how to be.

We are witnessing great changes right now, as we see individuals standing up for what is right. Corruption is being uncovered, and those who have long held power are seeing their walls beginning to crumble as LOVE is overcoming the Fear that they created, in standing up for what is right.

I am adding this to my Meaningful Mondays Category, because there is really only one thing we can positively change, and that is ourselves, Make 2018 Meaningful, in that you stand in your own Truth. As you keep Faith with what you know in your heart to be good and true..

In Love and Light..

Thank you Oprah For what you stood up for on January 7th 2018

Unifying  In One Voice .

“Age of Aquarius” Alignment January 7, 2018 – RARE!

We are Uniting in One Voice All over the World

Make your Voice and Heart Count!

 

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Rising Above Our Negative Emotions.

After writing down all of my thoughts of my perception of the world we are shown. I paused my pen over the paper. It hung there I don’t know how long, as a calm and peace seemed to overtake me.

It was as if through venting, I had expelled all the debris, that clung inside my mind. I remembered the words my daughter often says. “It is what it is”.  I breathed out.. ‘let is all go’ I thought.

I knew, and know deep inside, no amount of venting, shouting, pointing fingers, is ever going to change anything.

Unless we see and understand that in order to change anything we first must Choose to do so.   And the only thing we can change is ourselves.

I can often get vexed at myself, because I know this, I know in principle how the Universe works, as much as my own knowledge of understanding allows. I am far, far from perfect. And often navigate as most of us do, in our Earth School, by learning through our mistakes, and seeing we are all upon a journey of learning.  How we learn is different for each of us. For we are all of us unique, and we are all of us at various stages within that journey as we begin to discover who we are.

Many of us are being challenged right now, as the frequencies shift and shape us, we are all of us evolving, growing, learning. While many are wanting to break free, others are resisting. And others are oblivious. I wonder often at times is it best to be oblivious?

But when you wake up on your journey we also become aware of how our feelings are being affected by the masses. And how often the masses are manipulated by the media.  The Fear is kept at an all-time high, and whether we realise it or not, we are hooked into its system. And those prominent energies which surround us, ‘Like attracts Like’ and if we are not careful can devour us before we realise our vibration is being affected.

Just think how different we would perceive the world, if the media news only ever told us the good news.. Those stories of others helping others. Those who jump in and rescue, save, and support other human beings. Who do so from instinct and the goodness of their hearts.. Not seeking financial gain..  Those stories of people who put their own lives at risk to help another human being.. Or who save an animal and rescue it. Going the extra mile, to show compassion and Love..

If we heard more of this GOOD NEWS pumped into our homes from the media, we would then begin to feel safe, secure, happy that the world out there was not filled with death and destruction, war and violence..

Our perception would be Changed. We would then have that Feel Good Factor that would perhaps ripple out as more would contribute and do the same. Like attracts Like

The North Korea Crisis is a good example right now.  Those who live in North Korea are taught we are the enemy, they know no different. Because they are told and kept in the dark about the outside world..  They too are ruled within a regime of fear. And so are we, yet we cannot see it half the time.  Their perception is limited to that which their government tells them what to believe..

As I wrote my thoughts they then spun to the laws of Polarity. Opposites, two sides of a coin.. The Yin and Yang, Good and Bad, Light and Dark. Winter and Summer..

Polarity representing the two extremes of one thing.   Yet when does Winter change into Summer, when does Cold Water turn into Hot. These two Poles are the extremes of the same thing in continuum. Yet they each blend into each other in various degrees at both ends of the scale.  And So too, do we travel a fine line between Good and Bad.

Many of us who have woke up, do so through travelling through an emotional crisis, how many of you have had to turn inward through emotional pain to seek answers.  We go within, back to our hearts, our Centre.  We all of us have been faced with making choices and in a recent post I talked about how we had to trust in those choices and follow our instincts.

The world appears now to be in Crisis,  Yet how can we help it? We do so by not allowing ourselves to get caught up within the Fear, we have to find our own Middle ground. And take a step back to observe just what we are creating.

We Hope beyond Hope that the world will change.. But Hoping is not enough.. To change the world we sometimes need to see the Good Bad and the Ugly, to see what needs to be changed. Our personal crisis’s often occur to bring about a shift, that makes us aware of what needs changing in our own lives. It makes us take a deeper look, and then we have a choice, to either change or not. The Choice is always ours.. The world is asking us to take a deeper Look at ourselves..  

Our reality we are witnessing NOW, is what WE have created,  We live in our 3D world which reflects most things as Good or Bad, Black and White.. We either become optimistic of pessimistic in our views, Optimism expects more of the world, Pessimism expects the negative.  If we expect Doom and Gloom then that is what we will get.

Optimism works on a higher frequency of vibration and Pessimism on a lower level. Our thoughts are Energy, and it’s our thoughts which create our reality into being.  Look around you, everything was once an idea, someone’s thought, set into motion by Action.

Each of us have the power to choose, and in choosing to lift our vibration, we can create harmony and balance. Often its by going through our Dark night of the soul we learn to shed that conditioning, as we learn to Let go of our negative patterns that keep us trapped within Fear.

Maybe our Earth is showing us, her dark side, in order for us to observe, just what kind of a future do we wish to create.. Do we want some apocalyptic future that it seems the movie makers keep producing, or do we want a New Earth, One that thrives, instead of destroying, One that Loves instead of Hating, One that is filled with Peace instead of War..

Until we change our own internal Wars, and until we go within and find the centres of our own Being and find our own balance within that continuum of the Polarities of Love and Hate,  Unity and Separation.  War and Peace.. Until we find Balance and Love in our own hearts nothing will change. 

The pendulum will swing whichever way we choose..

May we Choose Well.

The Good, Bad and Indifferent.

A couple of evenings ago I wrote a lengthy piece in my journal. I just wanted to get things off my chest and so I wrote and wrote.

 I spoke about our thoughts, I spoke about our judging of others. Saying we all judge, be it by status, gender, wealth, colour, religion, nationality.

I spoke about Truth, and how we seldom stretch ourselves to see the Truth of the world. This illusion, which holds us prisoners to become slaves to greed. As we buy into the beliefs of consumerism and debt. That never ending carrot which is dangled before us, that ties in so many to be forever slaves to debt.. I spoke how the commercial world Soft soaps and dupes us by clever advertising that lures us in, to make us believe we need all the things we can quiet easily live without that often many go into dept for just to keep up with the latest trends..  

I spoke about our thoughts, and how they spin us into the creation of our future, and how we constantly judge, and cannot see the Ugliness of our own thoughts that spin out in judgement on a daily basis. Be they to criticise how someone looks, dresses, speaks, behaves, We all of do it constantly, in condemnation, discrimination, that then turn to jealousies, bullying and hateful behaviours that stain and taint and blacken our natures, that drives bitterness and vindictiveness to sour our world.

I spoke about education. And to what we are exposing our children to.  How children are no longer allowed to be children and play. And how pressure of parents and education are pilled ever higher upon their young shoulders to succeed. So, the education systems often lose sight of the child as they become statistics as schools are rated by performances.

I wrote on how the film, media and gaming industries promote violence, war, murder, and rape. And then we wonder why the world is mirroring back such acts of violence.  And why we have become so desensitised, so we barely blink an eye in response.  Why so many live in a surreal world of virtual reality. And I wrote about how many are turning to escape the realities of living as suicides increase in our young, and more synthetic drugs come into their possession.  

I went on about living in our own little boxes, to which we categorise, label, then often shutting the lid, we try not to think about the suffering on going in so many parts of the world. So in recompense, to appease our conscience’s, we can often be seen tossing a few coins into some charity jar to make us feel we are doing something worthwhile to help the world. 

I spoke about how those who have become King of their own particular Forests no longer see the trees that surround them. They no longer see through eyes that reach up to the heavens to see why acid rain falls to Earth. They do not see the burnt forests or the indigenous lives destroyed. While smoke settles on the wind out of lands that drive families across borders with nothing other than their lives. All they see is their own importance as their own greed consumes them so their hearts are as black as the scorched earth they have devoured .. 

I asked what kind of a species have we become.. and to what are we turning into that we can watch our Children suffer as we destroy their future world.

In fact my writing was quite a rant!! Which is toned down for this post.

But then I went on to speak about HOPE.. That all elusive word that keeps us hanging on..

HOPE, Hope is a word we use often. How many times do we rely upon Hope

H – Helping ourselves to

O – Optimism in times of

P – Pain, we hope against hope that

E – Everything will turn out just fine.

 Well, I have said enough about all that is Bad… Now what about the GOOD. 

That is the theme for next time..

Unite in LOVE

“If we have no peace, it’s because we have forgotten that we belong to each other”

~Mother Teresa Quote~

I have so many thoughts running through my head today as I try to catch up here on WP, and so many interesting posts I have visited today which have inspired and uplifted me as we travel upon our collective journey’s of discovering just who we are.

Some days I am so full of Love for our fellow Human Beings as their stories inspire us to become the BEings we really are and who we we’re meant to be all along.. And at other times I can feel so saddened for a world entrapped within its own greed as we revolve ever deeper into the abyss of destruction. As many blindly believe all they are told instead of resolving to explore outside of their man-made boxes of the illusions we have created…

Over the years this date of 9-11 has become significant to many as a point in History to be marked as a black day… And for many years I have honoured this day as you can read here in its remembrance as I do for November the 11th Remembrance Day Here ..In fact all those who suffer through the cruelties of war should be remembered.

But today I want not to dwell upon what has been, but what CAN Be, for we each can help shape our future if we get the Balance right. We first need to start with ourselves and find within our own peaceful solutions as we do battle within our own trauma’s as we get embroiled with our opinions as we send our via our minds our thoughts into the worlds Vibration.

So.. What do YOU want the world to become in the future?

Ask yourself what sort of a world we want for our Grandchildren to experience and then look to see how we can change within our own box of thought.

For with every thought we are creating our Reality!

Maybe we just don’t do enough Thinking at all as we let others think for us as we follow blindly their lead, like sheep we bleat to the flavour of the month as we don’t want to stand out like the Black Sheep and cause waves!..

What are the mundane thoughts that swirl around your mind like? Are we in judgement? Do we criticize? I know I do.. I catch myself often and then ask myself on what do I base my opinion?

Do I really know the TRUTH,

or do I just think! I know the truth?

And for a long time I thought I did, until I started to Dig deeper and then I was shocked to discover this world was not at all what I had perceived it to be… We all perceive with the knowledge we are given.. and as we grow with awareness that Truth then alters,.. I once wrote a poem entitledDo You See the Truth and another post Unite For Peace in which I added my poems last verse of Unite For Peace is …

…It only needs a spark of faith to kindle and to brighten,

Those embittered souls who deal in death, their reason to enlighten.

Healing Hands of friendship held out for our tomorrow

Show them that the Power of Love can wipe away our sorrow.

So leaders of the World, Lets stop all this oppression

Only Peace and Love will guide us through to Man’s Progression!

~Sue~

 The Above post I created in 2013, I thought I would reshare it today.

Sending all Love and Blessings

Have a Wonderful Week.

Vision Quest 8 Conclusion.~ Facing Fears

Background to the story so far. Muna was brought up from the age of two and half by her Full blooded Native American Indian Grandmother.  Aponi had taught Muna lots of the Ancient ways of living from the land along with many traditional ceremonies.

Muna had reoccurring nightmares all of her life, Now in her late teens she was following her Grandmother’s advice and had embarked upon a Vision Quest to see it she could find the reason for the Shadows that haunted her Dream time.

The full part of this Vision Quest can be read in separate parts HERE.

This is the final part of the Vision Quest Chapter in which Muna finds out more about her past. This will be longer in length than the previous parts.

 Facing Fears

Once again the old fear came back as the garden no longer felt welcoming. She shuddered again, as a blanket of thick mists enveloped her. Muna knew she had to find out what lay beyond the door. What was the shadow that haunted her dreams? Muna turned to the North Door to help her overcome the fears she held so deep within.

“ Help me Grandfather Sky, clear the mists before my eyes, show me the way Grandmother Earth, help me overcome all that is hidden, that makes me afraid.” Muna’s voice was calm but she couldn’t help but feel fearful for what the North door had hidden behind it.

As if in answer to her plea the mists parted before her and the door in the North Wall loomed into  her vision. Her eyes took in the old wooden door, she saw the many grains etched upon its surface along with the knots, and she saw the old nails which held the rusty hinges in place. She thought of the long forgotten tree which was cut down to create such a door as she stroked the wood feeling the knots. At the same time she felt the knot twist within the pit of her stomach as that old emotion of dread surfaced.

Source: Google Images

But Muna  shook  off this feeling  as she concentrated upon the knocker positioned in the centre of this old arched shaped doorway, and she was not surprised that the handle was formed from two twisted engravings of snakes entwined together.  For some reason Muna remembered something her Grandmother had told her about Quetzalcoatl  And the symbolism of snakes primal energy. She knew now was the time to shed another skin as she let go of that which restricted her as she allowed the life force to heal and guide her through the changes. Knowing the door would open up more questions, but  would also lead her to new discoveries of her inner being. 

Looking down now at the water in which she thought she had to wade through, the mists had lifted revealing stepping-stones opening a path towards the door.. Muna smiled knowing all things were possible if only one believed. She took a deep breath as she made her first step as she stepped across the stones walking towards the door.

As she looked where she put her feet, she saw the weed thick within the murky water, and was aware of something slithering its way across the water keeping pace with her as she saw the ripples just beneath the surface. She heard the occasional splash as if something either surfaced or dived, and her heart began to pound. Again her thoughts raced as her Grandmothers words once again came to mind.

“ Face Your Fear” she heard the echo of Aponi’s words as she got closer to the door.. ” You only fear what you do not know Muna. Fear is just a stranger whom you so not yet know. Once you become the observer you will see there is nothing to Fear but Fear itself.” Muna had long puzzled at this remark of her Grandmother’s.

So she squared her shoulders and took a deep breath and closed her eyes. She asked to become the ‘observer’. When she opened them she was there, she now saw the age of this old door, as the wood had splinted and dried. She reached out her hand and took hold of the door knocker and instinctively knocked twice. As if by magic the door swung open, as it did so more mists seemed to bellow out in front of her. Stepping through the mist, crossing the threshold of the doorway Muna waited hoping the mists would  recede, she saw a scene she half recognised, but wasn’t fully aware from where.

Before her a scene unravelled, she was in a small room with sparse furnishings with a wooden table in the centre, in the corner was a familiar rocking chair with a colourful crocheted shawl hung over its back, somewhere in the background Muna heard a child crying.

Muna’s attention was then taken to a young woman, cowering in the corner of the room who was crying. The woman had long raven black hair that was strewn across her face wet with tears. As the mists cleared further Muna saw there was also blood on the young woman’s face. A man’s voice shouted in rage

Muna found herself floating above the scene as the woman was pursued by a man. The man was screaming obscenities at her, yelling and screaming, he seemed to be possessed by the devil himself as his eyes bulged and his face was distorted in rage.  Sobbing the woman got up to run outside, she got half way across the yard as the man yelled as he ran after her, the woman turned running backwards at the same time before she stumbled and fell. She hit her head hard upon the ground, Her sobs instantly stopped as her body now motionless and lifeless lay upon the ground..

The man stopped in his tracks, as if waking up from a dream he looked down at his hands. Had he really hit his beautiful wife..   He looked up to the skies and now it was his turn to scream, as he let out such a wail of anguish as he yelled out the to the sky.. Words she knew he was speaking, and yet she couldn’t hear any of them. She only saw the woman lifeless on the floor, the child who cries she had heard now emerged from the doorway, she was only a young toddler but she ran to the fallen woman, tripping over as she fell beside the woman, crying “Mama, mama”

It was then that Muna understood, the toddler was herself, it was she crying ‘Mama’, and the fallen woman was her Mother. She looked now feeling the tears spill onto her cheeks, as she saw the man, her father.

Muna was seeing him now for the very first time.The toddler had fear in her eyes as the dark shadow of her father loomed over them both as he bent over the two of them he started to cry. Lifting his wife into his arms, asking for her forgiveness, as he didn’t mean it, he hadn’t meant it, as once again his temper and rage had flared taken over by the drink which consumed his soul. 

He was distraught and ran back into the cabin. Muna saw the toddler sitting at the side of her Mother pulling at her sleeve for her to wake up.  It was then a large Bang now echoed out into the air, not only sending a shudder through Muna, but she saw the toddler visibly jump, afraid of the noise, frightened and confused now no longer feeling her mother’s warmth, she watched as the toddler climbed onto her mother, hugging her as her blood still oozed out onto the ground from the back of her head. She saw the smoke now curl up around the edges of the cabin as it swept across the yard like a thick mist. The toddler lay curled in a ball sobbing on her Mother’s breast ………………..

Muna came too from her Vision, curled in the centre of the medicine wheel in a tight ball, the sky was now dusk as the Sun began to set the air had taken on a chill.. She sat up within her circle of stones feeling the tears upon her own cheeks.. She looked at the setting Sun her thoughts in a muddle for a second until she recalled she was on the mountain within her Vision Quest. Thanking Grandfather Sky and all her ancestors that had helped her to see her vision, Muna sat and thought upon all she had been shown.

It had  explained much more than Aponi had ever told her about the passing of her Mother and Father. Why had her Grandmother never told her the truth of how her parents had passed. All she had been told that her father was white and had struggled all his life with drink. As soon as Muna had been old enough to ask about her Mother she was always told it was in a tragic fire from which she had been rescued. When Muna had enquired how such a fire had started and wanted to learn more. Aponi had always dismissed her inquisitive questioning by saying..

“ When you are older Child, the Great Spirit will reveal All to you when the time is ripe, then your journeying will begin.”   Yet Muna had also heard the rumours from the village folk and had heard the whispers of turned heads looking her way of Murder and a fire, yet she had never dared ask if this was true fearing the worse of why she was orphaned .. But now she knew her Father had not murdered her Mother, but his rage had contributed to her tragic death.

Muna reached out for the precious locket and unwrapped it from the hand kerchief. She opened it and touched the lock of raven black hair. The locket had been her mother’s the only thing she had.

Muna then took the candle which had toppled over and gone out, she secured it upright by digging it into the earth, and relit it, sending a prayer to her Mother, and one for her Father asking that they both now rest in peace as she hoped now that her mind would be eased as at last she was able to recall those blurred visions of a toddler. 

So many Fears stem from the memories engraved within the growing pains of a child.. She saw now the reason she disliked loud noises and the shadows which always seemed so menacing. She also knew the truth of her deep-seated Fear.

She began to understand Aponi’s words of becoming the observer. Muna saw how her perception through being traumatized when her father’s shadow had blocked out the Sun when he had bent down over her Mother had created the fear, coupled with the loud bang.. She realised her father had killed himself then set their home on fire such was his anguish. 

She saw too how everyone must have thought her father had murdered her mother and presumed the truth. How easy it is she thought to judge, yet not be in full possession facts. She would obeserve more often in future rather than jump to conclusions she thought. 

She took another sip of her water, and was just going to stand up and make a fire, when she heard a voice.. She looked left and right of her, as she was uncertain as to where the voice had come from, it startled her to realise the voice was inside her head, But so clear did it speak..

“This is just the beginning of your Journey, Little One, You now have faced the fear of the past, now you have to face the fear of the future..”

Muna didn’t understand, but she soon would………………….

~~

This is the last of the series Vision Quest for a while    … I hope you enjoyed this lengthier last episode..

© Sue Dreamwalker 2010- 2016 All rights reserved.

Thank You! to you ALL for your Drum Beats

My Dear beautiful friends,

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for all of your wonderful contributions recently that you have made to my posts. Your comments have brought me so much love.. They have brought both smiles and tears of joy in your understandings of how our Journeys are bringing us together right now.. 

I was going to post I had scheduled but it can now wait for a little while longer. I  just have to share the last comment upon my post  February Awakening Challenge about finding Joy.. 

You all have added Joy to my life.. I have not been visiting as often to your posts as I have took time out to nurture.. But I hope in the next few days pay all of you who have left me your love a visit to catch up with what you have been doing all week.. 

A dear blogging friend Nadira left me such a wonderful comment that it encompassed all of you, I feel I have to share her words with you.  For we are all upon this path of enlightenment to find ourselves.. And so many of us are now awakening to this process and joining our hearts and minds in Unity of thought 

I thank all of you for the energies you bring, and leave you with Nadira’s words

Thank you all for your Drum Beats

 

“Here’s me adding a beat to your drum 🙂 I’ve been reading your post on this lazy Sunday morning on my desktop, while the strains of native American music is filling the air from another window open to the You Tube and it has filled this hour with so much peace and love….The comments from others, each remembering the paths of their own awakening…it feels like we’ve all reached a vast open green meadow on the top on a mountain, under blue skies and we’re dancing hand in hand in a large circle of love and empathy. We can see the different trails by which we reached here and remember the sweat and tears and uncertainties that plagued us.But the stones no longer prick the soles of our bare feet, our lungs no longer feel constricted by the effort of the climb; loneliness doesn’t haunt , for we now know that the perception of separation was just that and that had we really listened, we would’ve been able to hear the footsteps of others around us , also plodding along to reach here. Yes, it is important that you write of this open space , so that the others still climbing know that eventually this is where all have to and will reach. What a relief it is to know that our own energies of love can make the miles disappear. Loads of love dear friend :-)”

Thank you Nadiar and to each and Every One of you,

and know each of you are making great strides in bringing Unity and Love into our World.. 

Love and Blessings

~Sue~

February Challenge ~Inspiring Others by our own Awakening Experience ~ Finding Joy!

Amazing how time spins ever faster, and it doesn’t seem all that long ago I was participating in Barbara’s Awakening Challenge in 2014 in which she put our experiences into a Free e-book Book  “ A Selection of True Awakening Experiences”.. It was during this challenge I met so many more   Wonderful Light-workers here on WordPress, many who have since remained very good friends..

Barbara has once again set us a February Challenge~Inspiring others by our Awakening Experiences as she asked us to update in Part Two of  our experiences of where we are today within our awakening experiences …So our stories continue..

Overspill weir ~ Emotions

My own Soul Journey has taken me through many experiences, each one a stepping stone over some turbulent waters and rocky shores, but each step has led me to peel back yet more layers I had cloaked myself in. Hiding deep within slowly through each painful layer I discovered a new strength, a new skill, and a deeper perspective of who I really am..

Recently spending time in quiet reflection in that calm place of solitude caused me to go back in time. I revisited moments from my childhood, seeing the past in a new light, which made me see how I had brought my own childlike judgements through into my adult years. Something we all do as we grow up as we absorb our surroundings within our various cultures. 

Waking Up~ Following your own Path.

Each learning from our environment and elders. We then perceive the world in which we were brought up within, which often can be clouded as other people’s opinions bare down on how we conform within their sets of rules and preferences. We then carry the scars within our young emotional selves believing maybe we were unworthy or useless. So much emotional baggage is carried which starts out within our childhood years.  

Appearances are deceptive ~ Light surrounds us at all times

Waking up is not like someone flipping a switch, for me it has taken years to wake up to myself. And still I am in the process of peeling back yet more layers of the Me I carry around.

 We have many skins, and often our True selves are hidden behind those ‘masks’ we have built up to protect us from hurts and wounds that stem right back to our roots into our childhood years. So often as parents we do not see how deep those off the cuff remarks travel, as we brush aside our children’s questions, or fail to spend a moment listening to what they are trying to tell us.. I have been guilty of this often I know during my own busy Working Mum years to my own children.

Snowdrops push through the toughest of ground. And even though they appear delicate they show their Beauty and Strength

As a child I had low self esteem, no confidence, I was shy, often tongue tied and through my teenage years suffered often with depression. During that quiet time a few weeks ago my eyes opened up even further to the Me I had become, and why I took on so many wounds that I needn’t have throughout my life.

I saw why I abhor arguments, yet arguments had plagued and followed me throughout my life, be they misunderstandings, or other peoples that I have had to step in to act as a mediator in my role as a manager within the workplace, or supporting those with violent tendencies as a support worker.  Those self same heartbeats of panic and trepidation would echo within my chest as they took me back to the Fear I once felt as a 5 yr as my heart pounded within my ears as I remembered  how I banged on a closed door crying for my Mum and Dad to stop arguing and fighting  one another.

Even in murky waters Life is abundant and rich~ Over coming their differences and difficulties to survive

I became the mediator even then, used to relay messages from one to the other parent, and supposed to take sides… But I couldn’t pick a side for I loved both my parents equally. When I didn’t choose the right side when Divorce was the final outcome, some years after I had married. My mother made it clear even in my adult years she wanted me to still choose a side, and could not stop her bitterness bleeding into my life.

The mediator in me offered to mend the rift with my Mother, but when you are dealing with stubbornness there are only so many doors you can take that get slammed in one’s face. So you give up.. For you wake up to the fact the only person you are hurting is yourself. And we often over look the most important person of all that are in need of healing.. Ourselves!

She is in there somewhere!… If you look you can find her.

I  needed to Look, really LOOK within and find that little girl who got so, so lost and tell her I Loved her so very much..  I needed to go and find my Inner Child and tell her Life is not meant to be so serious and teach her how to Play again.

 I went to find her and sort her out in all of those things which brought me joy.. Be it to sit and be creative within the crafts that I so enjoy doing. Or just sitting within the silence in a Sunny Morning as the Sun filtered through the window as I look at the birds feeding.. I found her by just closing my eyes in the silence as I listen to her heart-beats. And within the silence the Universe was speaking back.. all I had to do was listen.    

Waking up to me has shown me that I need to be gentle with myself. As I learn that ALL that has passed within my life, came to help show me who I really am..

I think sometimes we are given our scars, for without their wounds we would not then dig deeper to heal them, and see how our words and thoughts have wounded others.. We see that there are two sides of every coin and that within our world of duality we have to have both Joy and Pain.. The Good and Bad, Happiness and Sadness. 

H.A.P.P.Y.  Happiness is a state of BEing

I have long learnt to forgive others; this new layer that I peeled away taught me how I needed to forgive myself.

I looked deeper within the Child of ME, and released the sadness she had carried for so long.

 So those quiet days sat with my projects in hand my mind did a lot of stripping back, going back to basics, and discovering all over again why you did the things you did in life as you sort out the one basic need all of us are here to discover.

To Love ourselves..

And to let go of ALL of that which you think is important. You Let go of the past, the hurt, grief, guilt and open your heart to what you have within your grasp right NOW..

 And LOVE your Inner Child. There is nothing like the sound of a child’s laughter..

I have always smiled widely, but once you WAKE up to yourself, you see how easily it is to Laugh! And enjoy all the Joy.

 For it is up to each of us to find and create it in our lives..

And I am once again finding the Music within my soul. 

Love and Blessings to you all upon your own Awakening Journey.

~Sue~

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Reconnecting with my Creative Self~ Part 1

Hello my lovely WordPress family, I only intended to be away from my blog for the weekend, as it turned out it has been over one week! It seemed the more I embraced those silent pursuits away from technology, the more reluctant I was in switching the modem back on.

Swan Family~ Flood water rises in a Nature park near by on one of my walks

Often when we go within those silent moments of deep thought, they take us to the realms of realisation of how far we have come. But they also bring to the fore just how much further we still have to travel.

We all of us look after our physical health.. Well I guess you could say I have been looking after my mental health. While I am always trying to be optimistic and work with positivity, sometimes our energy wanes, and I had to sit back and ask myself why I was beginning to feel so drained and emotionally wrung out.

Unity of family~Learning by example~ Finding Peace..

I have long come to recognise ‘the Signs’ of how those emotional feelings creep up on one, and how we get embroiled within the emotional circuits of other peoples energies.. Having come through my own uphill journey, overcoming my own nervous breakdown many years ago, the signs of tearfulness over the least little thing sent the alarm bells ringing. Disengaging from the Media is one thing, but how do you disengage from your friends whom you love whose emotional journeys are pulling you this way and that.

When you are empathic by nature, sometimes the only way of protecting yourself is to withdraw for a time. And get back to basics. I have to accept the world keeps on turning and there is nothing I can do about all the negativity that happen within it. For such is the Yin and Yang of our collective progression. And without the Negative how would we experience the Positive! All is part of the cycle. And getting all emotional about the many tragedies around our globe is not going to help heal the world if I end up contributing more negative emotions to the matrix which is already circulating in abundance.

So I needed to take myself out of those vibrations and create New Energy. So what have been up? I have been embracing several new projects and sitting within the silence and just listening to what answers have been coming back from the void of space I have surrounded my mind in.

Following your  instincts~ Knowing when it’s time to move on.

So over the next couple of post I will be sharing with you those projects, along with some of my thoughts and Inner guidance’s which have helped realign myself back ‘in tune’ so to speak with my ‘True Self’ something I shall be discussing in my next post.

I thank you all for your patience and will be visiting all who have left me wonderful comments and well wishes..

Love and Blessings