When the Universe Speaks I Listen ~Part 3.

“And, when you want something, all the Universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”

-Paulo Coelho-

Playfulness Art by Sue

Sometimes it maybe hard to see what is in front of us, especially if we turn a blind eye to the promptings of our inner selves..  As I read The Journey™ I was nodding along, thinking how I too had explored many avenues of self healing over the years.  Which can be found in amongst my Soul Journey series.. I no longer suffered from Raynauds disease, I was no long in constant fatigue or pain from Fibromyalgia. I had done a lot of healing work.. Plus I still had regular acupuncture as top ups  which concentrated upon problem area’s.. But even my therapist  had not helped my digestive issues heal completely..   

So was the Universe conspiring to show me how I still needed to work upon my inner self some more?  Having a digestion problem of acid reflux and discomfort, I wondered what was not sitting right with me.. What was it I was finding hard to digest? And why would I be reading this book right now?

The Universe had been helping, nudging me along since January if I’d really thought about it.. My Falling so hard on my Chin: I recognize my own true worth.- Sprained wrists: Louise L. Hay says Sprains represent anger and resistance, not wanting to move in a certain direction! What was I not grasping? as for weeks my wrists could not hold the weight of a pan without pain.. Was I angry? or was I resisting still my decision to retire?  I posed myself these internal Questions as I listened for the answers. 

 I had hospital tests done last year all proved negative so no worries there. So I had proceeded to altering my diet.. Cutting out Gluten and my diet got a boost in March as my daughter gifted me the Deliciously Ella Cook Book for Mother’s Day with lots of Goodies from her Health Food Store to get me started in cutting sugar out of my diet also..

So I began eating more Salads everyday for lunch, more fruit and Nuts, And my Veggies in the evenings with our evening meal we always had. Making  myself a healthy Green Smoothie most days using recipes from Ella’s book… And I truly did and do feel more energised because of it… Yet out of the blue the symptoms would worsen… And I couldn’t pin point it all the time to what I was eating..

So what was I thinking? What patterns were I repeating?…. I sat awake one night trying to do the exercise in The Journey™ book.. But would get stuck as my mind would get caught within the Drama’s of what I was revisiting.. Brandon Bays had said not to stay in the drama, but go down through the emotions it was bringing up..  So I just wrote and wrote, All the past as it flooded in.. all the drama’s I poured down which had caused me and others pain.. 

One of the Big issues it did bring up was ‘rejection’ Not only in the adult years from my mother.. But when I went down through those stories which brought up emotions from my childhood, of feeling alone.. Not loved, in some ways not worthy.  I had found myself trying to prove myself.. I realised I had done that throughout my career… Always nose to the grindstone.. Working my way up from age 15 from sewing machinist to – . N.V.Q. Assessor-External Verifier-Training Manager.  Then how even after my Career change how I still was climbing in getting my qualifications in Support Working with Learning Difficulties and Mental Health. Was I still seeking approval?

Is my blog still not a means of seeking approval?  How I need to try to visit posts all be it late of those who leave me their lovely comments…Was I still seeking external approval? And was I still wounding myself?

Then as I started reading through the various posts on other blog as the Synchronicities started again, as others too were revisiting old stuff.. Working to Let Go of emotional baggage. All was coming together

Watercolour Cat Moods Art by Sue

 

Is it a coincidence that as I at last got this post in my head on the 6th of April the anniversary of my Mother’s passing? Or that I went to bed last night after a beautiful day with my 4 yr old Granddaughter and wished my Mother a Happy Earth Birthday  which was yesterday on the 7th..  I don’t believe in coincidences.. For All is part of the Universal Plan. 

I can not say if my Inner work as got to the core issues.. But what I can say is I feel lighter, brighter in mind and spirit.. I am sure that my Inner healing will be on going throughout my life… None of us are given a manual in Life and Living.. But we are given the tools and guidance to explore the realms of our emotions which so often have such a lasting impact from the stories each of us have held onto .. Many suffer so much in traumatic events, especially in our young years…

Now all I need to work on is my aching muscles as I start the season of weeding and hoeing and digging in the allotments again… Practice as they say makes perfect.. I will  be getting plenty of that.

What we All have to realise is what many have kept buried deep within is also in need of being weeded and cast out as we let go of the buried pain we have kept hidden sometimes without even realising it. Which gets embedded within our bodies as cellular memory to appear later down the line. 

I thank you all who have managed to stay to course and read to the bottom of this post.. 

Love and Blessings

Sue

PS… I forgot to add.. My Laptop was returned with new keyboard and all data in tact.. Now maybe that also was telling me something 🙂

 

When The Universe Speaks I Listen ~Part 2

“We must assume every event has significance and contains a message that pertains to our questions…this especially applies to what we used to call bad things…the challenge is to find the silver lining in every event, no matter how negative.”  

James Redfield~ Celestine Prophecy. 

Watercolour Sleeping Cat  ~ My Artwork

So I trusted in the Universe as I allowed my laptop to be sent away, even though the nice man said if they can not get parts because its 7 yrs old it may be scrapped! I thought of the Data not yet backed up. But Trusted.. So I said “O.K”.. And a little voice inside said go with the flow.

This was a ‘Sign’ to get away from what can be very addictive blog-land and catch up with my knitting.. which I did.. But the Universe also pointed me to read.. Its been a while since I sat down to read a book cover to cover in a few hours.. And yes, that’s what I did..

I revisited by book shelf one sleepless night, and ran my fingers along the spines and thought there is something I need to read so I let my hand be guided as I pulled out a book at random in the half light.

I Almost put it back.. for it was one I had read, and at the time of reading I remember thinking how disappointed I had felt as the series of spin off’s from the original book had in my opinion not held the same impact as the first.   The First Book was the Celestine Prophecies by James Redfield . The book now in my Hand was The Twelfth Insight.  

Watercolour Sitting Cat.. By Sue

Straight away I was gripped by this book.It made me sit up and view how I had been caught up in the negativity of the horrors of the world a few weeks previously which had made me feel helpless and so sad.

Here I was reading what was happening in the world right now yet this was published 2011. As extremists within religion was playing out their own Armageddon agenda’s .  It spoke of the  Synchronisicities which I was always familiar with.. but it spoke of the power of Unity and Prayer and Trusting in a Universal Plan.

Its strange as I visit the many blogs I follow how even over the last few days how many posts I have read contain the words ‘Universal Plan’ .. And who are following their own “Signs” as Synchronisicities play out.

I have always known there is  a plan .. Yet not always known what my part is within it.. As we can all from time to time even with all the Spiritual awareness we hold, still ask those same questions of ” Who am I, and Why am I here?”

I read this book in  a matter of hours and once finished, I followed the same process.. As I went to my book shelves and picked a book at random.. not really looking at the titles, just ‘Feeling’ with my energy where I was directed.. The Book which came next was to be another surprise. 

The Journey™ by Brandon Bays.. 

Watercolour Thoughtful Contemplation~ By Sue

I had thought I had read this book previously, but I must have only read the first few chapters, for as I progressed I realised this was new. 

For those unfamiliar with Brandon Bays, her story can be found in the link above.. But my question which I asked myself.. ” Why was I reading it Now” What did I need to work upon? .. Yes I had been having stomach digestion problems.. What was it that I needed to revisit and work upon.. Surely I had done enough internal Inner work on letting Go of past hurts… 

You can find out in Part 3… 🙂 

Love and Blessings… ~ Sue