I remember well that song Bing Crosby sang in it a film A Connecticut Yankee in King Authurs Court ‘Trying my best not to find things to do’ I have been busy going nowhere now isn’t that just a crime.. I try to be unhappy, but……. I never do have the time.” or something like that.. the song is in the link above..
So many times in my life I would loved to have had ‘Nothing’ to do, We are taught from a young age, Not to waste our time, and Time costs money.. Working as I did for many a year within the textile industry on piece-work and later in training and on the production side, targets had to be met so working an 8 hour day meant you were on the go All of the time..
Even as a support worker for over 10 years I would always be busy finding something to do.. I have spoken before about the transition of taking early retirement and the difficulty I found in that adjustment..
Well some 10 months later I think this last week I finally got my head into gear as my head finally let go of the need to worry about things which I hadn’t got around to doing.. It stuck me only today, at how conditioned we are for us to feel ‘Guilty’ at pleasing ourselves.. And taking time out for one’s self and not being at other’s beck and call..
For many a year I would find it difficult to say that little word.. ‘NO’ for I would always fill in at a moments notice to cover an extra shift in my support worker role.. and be taken for granted that I would do so, then I would bemoan the fact I worked long hours as often other staff wouldn’t turn up for their shifts and I would have to stay to do a double.. Such was life when someone needs 24/7 support. And staffing levels were short.
This week I have indulged myself in my Garden and Allotments, and just sat on my lawn reading. I have dipped in and out of WP and for once not felt guilty to the many posts I know others have published that I have missed.. And I stopped feeling guilty I hadn’t posted.. And I have breathed in deeper and Sighed out even louder at the Freedom I have felt from the shift within.. Maybe those of you who are my friends here who know more about Astrology than I, can see that the planets have perhaps helped me get into my new groove in my alignment of my Letting GO and Flow phase. 🙂
Yes even though I thought I had moved that extra step a few months back as I let go.. Yet another shift has taken place, and a new lightness now surrounds me, a smile is now grinning even more often.. My vibration has learned another lesson, And as if to add to the flow, Even the Inland Revenue today sent a letter saying I had paid too much tax and was in for a refund.. Whooo hoo! that felt Good!..
I am in the Flow!
Keep Flowing and Enjoy your weekend