Expectations..

A Review of our Thinking.. 

 

As each year comes to an end we are often heard to say thank goodness as we say goodbye to a year that when it began started out with every expectation. Yet here we are again as we herald in another New Year as we wish and expect so much more from the year before.

 We make promises to ourselves that this year we will endeavour to  be healthier, as we start new fitness regimes, and as we say goodbye to our bad habits. Promises often we never keep up.   

We are all of us walking, searching to find ourselves and that which fulfills us. We constantly search outside of ourselves to bring us that feeling of happiness. Be it in our relationships, careers or through our possessions. We gather everything to us holding onto them, thinking all of these external things are what will bring us happiness.

So, we constantly strive, putting ourselves under pressure, working extra hours,seeking to gather yet more things we probably never really needed to fill up a yearning hole inside of us that cries out to feel complete.

I look around my own home at the ‘Things’ that I have gathered over the years, my glass paperweights from the countries I visited, my record collection, the books that I have read and re-read as I have searched the pages for wisdom to that which more of us are seeking which we call enlightenment.

Most times we are our own worst enemies, as our scattered thoughts distract us from finding our peaceful path we are all seeking whether we realise it or not.

We all too often look back and blame others for our failings, or we worry about our futures as our inner chatter is constantly pulling us down. Telling us we are not good enough, clever enough or we put things off saying when the children leave home, next year or when I retire..  We continually make excuses to ourselves as to why we do not keep those promises to ourselves.

I keep saying I am going to write a book.. Yet I make excuses to myself each year, putting it off.. I am no different from anyone else..

 Our Ego makes us defensive about our weakness’s often making us feel unworthy. We take on hurts and wounds as we take to heart other people’s opinions of us. We listen to gossip and then add our own two pennies worth to the mix..  

Our Inner Chatter often spills out in irritations as we then verbalise our dissatisfaction. Causing arguments and resentments as our pride is dented, so we bite back, lashing out with more words that wound.

We then carry guilt, holding it deep within, nurturing it as we feed that inner chatter with justification as to why we are right and others are wrong. It then festers deeper into resentment and anger bubbles turning inward into bitterness.  

We now not only hold onto our personal stuff, but as the world grows closer in its communication systems we get embroiled in politics and the weight then of the negative news that is being poured into our homes in hourly bulletins also weighs us further down..  
All of these emotions bite deep within us effective our energy body causing our dis-ease with self, allowing illnesses to manifest. Often our body kicks in as a last resort to stop us in our tracks. It’s trying to get our attention to alter our thinking and ways of being. So our body rebels with aches and pains.. As we push it too hard and we fail to nourish it and give it rest.. 

My own nervous breakdown and subsequent FMS years ago was my body’s wake up call.. Which was telling me to slow down and alter course.  All these emotions we carry weigh us down literally DE-Pressings us as our auras get blocked as the energy stops flowing.

One of the greatest lessons is learning to leave things behind as we walk our paths to finding ourselves. This is one of the best gifts we can give ourselves as we start afresh a new year is Letting Go! So we need to let go of our self expectations as well.. Stop forcing things into BEing and just allow things to BE.. Let go of guilt, regrets, anger and jealousies.As you develop patience with others and ourselves, you then begin to see how those you thought were  your enemies were in fact your greatest teachers as they helped strengthen you. 

 Learning that there really are no Cross-roads only those of our own making.. For we are stood in our own centre of our BEingness in our present Moment of Now..Making our own choices. 

Our roads are all leading us to one place. And that is to look inside of ourselves, as we alter our perspective and thinking.   Don’t let fear and anxiety take control of your thoughts… Allow yourself space to breathe. Take yourself out in Mother Nature allow her calm presence to guide you as you unscramble your thoughts.  

For by taking in the beauty of the moment, seeing how very blessed we are,  we then can stand within our own centre of happiness.. Its been right here inside of us all along.. Within our Hearts. But we got so busy with ‘Things’ We lost our Hearts connection. 

Our Futures are in our hands as we begin another year.. Let us keep those promises to ourselves.. As we open our hearts to ourselves, forgiving our faults and our failures, as we relearn how to love ourselves..

There is no greater power on this planet than Love.. Its what keeps us from Fear.. Don’t allow Fear to dominate yet another year of Expectations!..

Love and Blessings

~Sue~ 

Shine Your Light

Sometimes I think we need a reminder of how good we have it compared with others around the World. Yesterday I re-read my annual thank you letter from the

 Red Cross and also Save the Children as they showed me just where our donations had gone last year and the projects and people they had both helped.

We often get so caught up in our snug little worlds as we sometimes seldom take a look outside of our own four walls at the plight others find themselves in.

The poem I am about to post I wrote in the middle of last night as I couldn’t sleep, maybe as the images of those less fortunate than myself were whirling around my head..

The poem was obviously inspired as the pen never left the page and I didn’t pause for a seconds thought as the words wrote themselves.. 

So I would like to share my light with you..

Shine Your Light.

From time to time along our way

We need to speak and have our say

In order that the lights do shine

Other people we need to remind.

Of all the folk whose lights are dim

Where struggle is hard and life is grim

They need to see beyond their walls

That many more in darkness toils.

The little beggar boy on street

In India who has no feet.

In Africa where wars still rage

And children starve with wide eyed gaze.

Where hope is lost and villages run

From evil men with drugs and guns

Yes time to time along the way

We need to speak and have our say.

Of Shanty towns and orphan waifs

The suffering is endless case by case.

I could go on and list some more

But maybe you would shut the door

As in your bubble you nicely live

You need to see you need to give.

If not your money then add your light

Open your hearts and see their plights

Look further than the end of your nose

And my words will count as poem I pose

If just one who reads my lines

Opens your heart to let it shine…

Upon all those who are less fortunate than you

Your light will brighten the Worlds dim view

So dare to step outside your walls

And lift the darkness from serpent coils

Compassionate thoughts will add their swell

So come on give generously

Open your hearts see what I see

For when enough of us really awake

A better land then awaits

Where all are one and all are free

All I ask is

Shine your Light

With me.

 

© Sue Dreamwalker 2010-2016 All rights reserved

The above post was posted in 2011.. I have resheduled  as I experiment  a reblog this way,  I am taking a short break away as Scotland is calling me yet again so I will see you all when I return if I do not catch up with you today.

Keep Shinning your Light for WE are Making a Difference..

Love and Light

~Sue~

Technical Issues~ A lesson in Patience

Dear Friends..

 

You may well wonder where I have gone to as I try to access your blog posts.. I seem to be experiencing  problems every time I click to view your posts from WP with my PC freezing refusing to load up your pages.. Getting stuck with  (read .s1.wp.com) showing as the culprit.

I can access other internet services with no problems.. Any ideas of how to solve this blip would be most welcome..

In the meant time I keep trying.. I have even tried accessing blogs direct from email alerts, and still it your pages will not load.. Sometimes It even takes ages for my own blog to load with the same message getting stuck..

So pleased bare with me.. ( Maybe the Universe is nudging me along to buy a new PC.. 🙂 ) as my old PC is slow any way.. but this is beyond frustrating..

In the mean time

Another  Photo for you ..

 

Doune Castle Scotland you really have to look in the centre of the photo to find it 🙂  This was taken on our way to see Stirling Castle.

Hope to be back to viewing and commenting upon your posts as soon as this problems sorts itself.

Blessings Sue

 

 

I’m Busy doing Nothing, Working the whole day through.

I remember well that song Bing Crosby sang in it a film A Connecticut Yankee in  King Authurs Court   ‘Trying my best not to find things to do’ I have been busy going nowhere now isn’t that just a crime.. I try to be unhappy, but……. I never do have the time.” or something like that.. the song is in the link above..

So many times in my life I would loved to have had ‘Nothing’ to do,  We are taught from a young age, Not to waste our time, and Time costs money.. Working as I did for many a year within the textile industry on piece-work and later in training and on the production side, targets had to be met so working an 8 hour day meant you were on the go All of the time..

Even as a support worker for over 10 years  I would always be busy finding something to do.. I have spoken before about the transition of  taking early retirement and the difficulty I found in that adjustment..

Well some 10 months later I think this last week I finally got my head into gear as my head finally let go of the need to worry about things which I hadn’t got around to doing.. It stuck me only today, at how conditioned we are for us to feel ‘Guilty’ at pleasing ourselves.. And taking time out for one’s self and not being at other’s beck and call..

For many a year I would find it difficult to say that little word.. ‘NO’ for I would always fill in at a moments notice to cover an extra shift in my support worker role.. and be taken for granted that I would do so, then I would bemoan the fact I worked long hours as often other staff wouldn’t turn up for their shifts and I would have to stay to do a double.. Such was life when someone needs 24/7 support. And staffing levels were short.

This week I have indulged myself in my Garden and  Allotments, and just sat on my lawn reading. I have dipped in and out of WP and for once not felt guilty to the many posts I know others have published that I have missed.. And I stopped feeling guilty I hadn’t posted..  And I have breathed in deeper and Sighed out even louder at the Freedom I have felt from the shift within.. Maybe those of you who are my friends here who know more about Astrology than I, can see that the planets have perhaps helped me get into my new groove in my alignment of my Letting GO and Flow phase. 🙂

Yes even though I thought I had moved that extra step a few months back as I let go.. Yet another shift has taken place, and a new lightness now surrounds me, a smile is now grinning even more often..  My vibration has learned another lesson, And as if to add to the flow, Even the Inland Revenue today sent a letter saying I had paid too much tax and was in for a  refund.. Whooo hoo! that felt Good!..

I am in the Flow!

Keep Flowing and Enjoy your weekend

~Sue~

 

 

A Different Perspective

Depending upon where we are standing in our lives we each of us are looking out from our own vantage point on life. I was looking out of my window the other day at the blossoms on the shrubs and admiring them. I was watching the blackbird gather worms from the lawn to fly back into the bushes to feed his young, when I thought what life from their perspective view point would be like. As they fly backwards and forwards across our garden.

I was in the allotments planting Peas yesterday and Swedes seeds, and unearthed many beetles and spiders as I disturbed their homes.. What a traumatic upheaval for them as their world was destroyed by my digging. And how indifferent we can seem about their plight!

Caterpillar Love taken in 2013

Seeing the world from another perspective, whether spiritually or mentally, can introduce you to all sorts of hidden treasures. How we react to Insects is an example, as we often hold the fear our parents passed down to us, (and how many more views we hold onto which is passed down  via our upbringing) that is why I try to teach my now 4 yr old Granddaughter not to fear spiders, insects and caterpillars.. And teach her everything has a right to Life, that we are all of us part of a huge chain that interlinks with one another.

 

Spiders may seem to some fearsome, ugly, and frightening, And yet they manage to weave something so beautiful we could never hope to create, and there is nothing more beautiful than catching a spiders web in the morning light full of dew

There may be at times experiences in life that from your vantage point may seem worrying, confusing and terrifying, we have all been there at some point. Or there may be events that look insignificant from where you are standing right now.

Whatever perspective we view our world from; it’s often good practice to see another’s point of view. Humankind is most often presented as a story about struggle, control, and survival, instead of one of trust and collaboration with the universe. So we grow up believing we must compete instead of co-operate

There are plenty of things that we cannot control, no matter how hard we try. But we can live by our values, which allow us to become a positive source of inspiration for others.

We may not be able to help those in far off places whose lives are a struggle, with conflict and war, or who are adrift in the ocean seeking refuge from the traumas of their own countries, But by simply being yourself, you can help the people in your life see how one person can make a difference by being a living example of consciousness. And we do that by recognizing and acknowledging the inherent value in everyone you encounter. Be it a Human or Insect.. Sometimes, the easiest way to encourage people – even challenging ones – to respect others is to respect them first.

The interconnectedness of all living beings using concrete, everyday examples. Many people are unaware of how their actions affect the world and are intrigued when they learn of the power they hold.

We each of us have that POWER, and we can do that by our own actions and intentions.. We do it by embracing the Positive, encouraging Peace and Tolerance and not allowing ourselves to get caught within the traps being set by Fear..

Love and Blessings

Sue

Fear of the Future

Now most who follow me know I try to bring a positive touch within my posts… Yet to be quite honest with you all I am really struggling right now to lift myself from the doldrums of my own thoughts.

The key to conquering our fears lies in awareness. When we identify the irrational thoughts that frighten us and replace them with positive affirming ones.

Argh… all easier said than done I hear you say..

You would think with my inner Knowing, and my Spiritual mind I should be the last person to take a nose dive into that Pit of depression.. Especially when I dredged its depth before and vowed that I had been there done that and worn the T-shirt and I refuse to wear it again.  

I could blame it on my Fall which left me feeling bruised with aching, muscles which are still healing.. And I could blame it on grief as I lost a very beloved Aunt last week. I could blame my fatigue on me deciding to move a whole wall of books out the spare bedroom with wrists still recovering from the sprains of the fall.. And I could blame it on the weather being cold and miserable.. I could even blame it on the state of the world, or the Planets .. I have a whole host of excuses I could fall back upon to justify why I am feeling tired and jaded..

So what really is ailing me?

Last night I lay awake yet again, those dark hours of silence often give rise to the inner chatter as the inner-dialogue goes back and forth and replays over and over like and endless loop on a tape recorder..

At last I got up to make myself a drink of herbal tea.. And as we had put some of my spiritual books on a bookshelf on the landing, I grabbed a book in the half darkness what I thought was a Chicken Soup book of short stories by Jack Canfield, Instead it was the Book ‘ How to Get from Where You Are To Where You Want to Be’  By Jack Canfield.

I smiled.. I had had this book maybe around 5 or more years, and I knew I had only scanned the pages before. So I settle back with cup in hand and started to read..

The more I read the more I could see exactly what the author was getting at.. Didn’t I Know the principles of the ‘Secret’ another book upon my shelves which is on similar lines of positive thinking and affirmations. Yes I did.. so why was I sabotaging my thinking?

So I asked myself what was making me so low and feeling like my life was on hold? And I was coming up with all sorts of excuses to justify those feelings..

When I took early retirement I lapped up my spare time.. Gardening, knitting, painting and decorating.. Yet now there is a lull… a pause.. And I am asking myself what do I want to do to fill those hours in my day?..

When you have spent all your working life working often at the beck and call of others and putting others first.. It comes as a revelation to know you should be putting yourself first.. And that it’s Ok to do so.  And Its Ok too just to do nothing..

Your soul longs to fulfil its purpose—a purpose you agreed to in the timelessness in which you existed before your birth . And because of this, neither you nor the Universe will set any circumstance before you that you are not capable of handling. Fear of the future can paralyze you, preventing you from living in the moment and from working toward your goals in a mindful manner

(The key to conquering this fear lies in awareness. When you can identify the irrational thoughts that frighten you,)

I am now analysing my own thoughts more closely. We have to have courage when fear of the future  strikes out at us as we strive to create, as we evolve.

Change often creeps upon us in a gradual fashion. The World too is undergoing its Changes and I am sure we are all of us feeling those ‘Fearful ripples’ as we are swept up among them..

We have to try to disregard past patterns and disengage from the Fears we are bombarded with and focus on the present by stilling the inner voice that comments critically on all we do.

We also have to understand we can not just sit with our heads in the sand.. We are each of us responsible 100% for every thought, every Action which in turn creates a Reaction.. We too are creating our New World.. Let the goals we create help bring about Unity, Love and Peace.. 

Life changes can affect us in complex and unpredictable ways, taking us off of our comfort blanket, pushing us into new circumstances that test our limits, the mere idea of attaining the life of our dreams can shake us to the core.

As I read the first couple of chapters I was nodding along as I knew his words were ringing true. And I am 100% Responsible for my future.. I need to focus upon what sort of Future I wish to create.. And know that I can blame no one other than myself if it comes up short of my Dreams. So I had best get focusing! 😉 

Thank you for reading

Sue

  

 

Surrender and Acceptance of Self.

Sadness is something we all go through, and we all learn from it and are deepened by its presence in our lives. While our own individual experiences of sadness carry with them unique lessons, the implications of what we learn are universal. For the World too is going through its own unique lessons as we grow through the experience.

The last thing most of us want to hear or think about when we are dealing with profound feelings of sadness is that deep learning can be found in this place.
The other thing we often would rather not hear is that the only way out of it is through it.

Sometimes being empathic means we do not always realise if the feelings of melancholy are ours or we are feeling the energies we link into.

I was feeling low of spirit way before my Dear Aunt passed away. I had already prepared a post in my drafts about Nature making us feel better, which I will post at a later date..   I had taken a walk on the Saturday taking snap shots for the post.. And went out again on Sunday to recharge my batteries again as I had felt much refreshed by walking in Nature ..

Yet not 5 minutes out of the car, I tripped and fell heavily meeting the concrete path from the car park with a crack so loud on my chin I thought I had broken my Jaw.  Luckily I only badly bruised my chin(Bruises: The little bumps in life. Self-punishment.)   and sprained my wrists.. ( Sprains: Anger and resistance. Not wanting to move in a certain direction in life). Which left my muscles feeling very stiff over the last few days, (Stiffness: Rigid, stiff thinking.) Life is showing me the ‘Signs’

Self analysis is also a painful business, and over the last few days I guess I have been reflecting upon the direction of my life. I embraced early retirement with so much gusto, and threw myself into the allotment, decorating, and knitting projects.. and yet I have still to find what fills that empty space..

I guess I am resisting being in my comfort zone of being ME…  

Sitting with our sadness takes the courage to believe that we can bear the pain and the faith that we will come out the other side. Sadness teachers us the ability to surrender and the acceptance of change go hand in hand.

I just need to change my thoughts and follow the above quote I guess I am still in the process of adjusting and the lessons are coming in thick and fast.

Thank you for reading Love and Blessings

Sue

 

 

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Alone with my thoughts today

 

 Goodbye my sweet Aunty, in this your 90th year

~Beatrice~

  March 9th 1926 – January 28th 2015

You are loved

Say hello to Dad for me..