“And, when you want something, all the Universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”
Sometimes it maybe hard to see what is in front of us, especially if we turn a blind eye to the promptings of our inner selves.. As I read The Journey™ I was nodding along, thinking how I too had explored many avenues of self healing over the years. Which can be found in amongst my Soul Journey series.. I no longer suffered from Raynauds disease, I was no long in constant fatigue or pain from Fibromyalgia. I had done a lot of healing work.. Plus I still had regular acupuncture as top ups which concentrated upon problem area’s.. But even my therapist had not helped my digestive issues heal completely..
So was the Universe conspiring to show me how I still needed to work upon my inner self some more? Having a digestion problem of acid reflux and discomfort, I wondered what was not sitting right with me.. What was it I was finding hard to digest? And why would I be reading this book right now?
The Universe had been helping, nudging me along since January if I’d really thought about it.. My Falling so hard on my Chin: I recognize my own true worth.- Sprained wrists: Louise L. Hay says Sprains represent anger and resistance, not wanting to move in a certain direction! What was I not grasping? as for weeks my wrists could not hold the weight of a pan without pain.. Was I angry? or was I resisting still my decision to retire? I posed myself these internal Questions as I listened for the answers.
I had hospital tests done last year all proved negative so no worries there. So I had proceeded to altering my diet.. Cutting out Gluten and my diet got a boost in March as my daughter gifted me the Deliciously Ella Cook Book for Mother’s Day with lots of Goodies from her Health Food Store to get me started in cutting sugar out of my diet also..
So I began eating more Salads everyday for lunch, more fruit and Nuts, And my Veggies in the evenings with our evening meal we always had. Making myself a healthy Green Smoothie most days using recipes from Ella’s book… And I truly did and do feel more energised because of it… Yet out of the blue the symptoms would worsen… And I couldn’t pin point it all the time to what I was eating..
So what was I thinking? What patterns were I repeating?…. I sat awake one night trying to do the exercise in The Journey™ book.. But would get stuck as my mind would get caught within the Drama’s of what I was revisiting.. Brandon Bays had said not to stay in the drama, but go down through the emotions it was bringing up.. So I just wrote and wrote, All the past as it flooded in.. all the drama’s I poured down which had caused me and others pain..
One of the Big issues it did bring up was ‘rejection’ Not only in the adult years from my mother.. But when I went down through those stories which brought up emotions from my childhood, of feeling alone.. Not loved, in some ways not worthy. I had found myself trying to prove myself.. I realised I had done that throughout my career… Always nose to the grindstone.. Working my way up from age 15 from sewing machinist to – . N.V.Q. Assessor-External Verifier-Training Manager. Then how even after my Career change how I still was climbing in getting my qualifications in Support Working with Learning Difficulties and Mental Health. Was I still seeking approval?
Is my blog still not a means of seeking approval? How I need to try to visit posts all be it late of those who leave me their lovely comments…Was I still seeking external approval? And was I still wounding myself?
Then as I started reading through the various posts on other blog as the Synchronicities started again, as others too were revisiting old stuff.. Working to Let Go of emotional baggage. All was coming together
Is it a coincidence that as I at last got this post in my head on the 6th of April the anniversary of my Mother’s passing? Or that I went to bed last night after a beautiful day with my 4 yr old Granddaughter and wished my Mother a Happy Earth Birthday which was yesterday on the 7th.. I don’t believe in coincidences.. For All is part of the Universal Plan.
I can not say if my Inner work as got to the core issues.. But what I can say is I feel lighter, brighter in mind and spirit.. I am sure that my Inner healing will be on going throughout my life… None of us are given a manual in Life and Living.. But we are given the tools and guidance to explore the realms of our emotions which so often have such a lasting impact from the stories each of us have held onto .. Many suffer so much in traumatic events, especially in our young years…
Now all I need to work on is my aching muscles as I start the season of weeding and hoeing and digging in the allotments again… Practice as they say makes perfect.. I will be getting plenty of that.
What we All have to realise is what many have kept buried deep within is also in need of being weeded and cast out as we let go of the buried pain we have kept hidden sometimes without even realising it. Which gets embedded within our bodies as cellular memory to appear later down the line.
I thank you all who have managed to stay to course and read to the bottom of this post..
Love and Blessings
PS… I forgot to add.. My Laptop was returned with new keyboard and all data in tact.. Now maybe that also was telling me something 🙂