Fear of the Future

Now most who follow me know I try to bring a positive touch within my posts… Yet to be quite honest with you all I am really struggling right now to lift myself from the doldrums of my own thoughts.

The key to conquering our fears lies in awareness. When we identify the irrational thoughts that frighten us and replace them with positive affirming ones.

Argh… all easier said than done I hear you say..

You would think with my inner Knowing, and my Spiritual mind I should be the last person to take a nose dive into that Pit of depression.. Especially when I dredged its depth before and vowed that I had been there done that and worn the T-shirt and I refuse to wear it again.  

I could blame it on my Fall which left me feeling bruised with aching, muscles which are still healing.. And I could blame it on grief as I lost a very beloved Aunt last week. I could blame my fatigue on me deciding to move a whole wall of books out the spare bedroom with wrists still recovering from the sprains of the fall.. And I could blame it on the weather being cold and miserable.. I could even blame it on the state of the world, or the Planets .. I have a whole host of excuses I could fall back upon to justify why I am feeling tired and jaded..

So what really is ailing me?

Last night I lay awake yet again, those dark hours of silence often give rise to the inner chatter as the inner-dialogue goes back and forth and replays over and over like and endless loop on a tape recorder..

At last I got up to make myself a drink of herbal tea.. And as we had put some of my spiritual books on a bookshelf on the landing, I grabbed a book in the half darkness what I thought was a Chicken Soup book of short stories by Jack Canfield, Instead it was the Book ‘ How to Get from Where You Are To Where You Want to Be’  By Jack Canfield.

I smiled.. I had had this book maybe around 5 or more years, and I knew I had only scanned the pages before. So I settle back with cup in hand and started to read..

The more I read the more I could see exactly what the author was getting at.. Didn’t I Know the principles of the ‘Secret’ another book upon my shelves which is on similar lines of positive thinking and affirmations. Yes I did.. so why was I sabotaging my thinking?

So I asked myself what was making me so low and feeling like my life was on hold? And I was coming up with all sorts of excuses to justify those feelings..

When I took early retirement I lapped up my spare time.. Gardening, knitting, painting and decorating.. Yet now there is a lull… a pause.. And I am asking myself what do I want to do to fill those hours in my day?..

When you have spent all your working life working often at the beck and call of others and putting others first.. It comes as a revelation to know you should be putting yourself first.. And that it’s Ok to do so.  And Its Ok too just to do nothing..

Your soul longs to fulfil its purpose—a purpose you agreed to in the timelessness in which you existed before your birth . And because of this, neither you nor the Universe will set any circumstance before you that you are not capable of handling. Fear of the future can paralyze you, preventing you from living in the moment and from working toward your goals in a mindful manner

(The key to conquering this fear lies in awareness. When you can identify the irrational thoughts that frighten you,)

I am now analysing my own thoughts more closely. We have to have courage when fear of the future  strikes out at us as we strive to create, as we evolve.

Change often creeps upon us in a gradual fashion. The World too is undergoing its Changes and I am sure we are all of us feeling those ‘Fearful ripples’ as we are swept up among them..

We have to try to disregard past patterns and disengage from the Fears we are bombarded with and focus on the present by stilling the inner voice that comments critically on all we do.

We also have to understand we can not just sit with our heads in the sand.. We are each of us responsible 100% for every thought, every Action which in turn creates a Reaction.. We too are creating our New World.. Let the goals we create help bring about Unity, Love and Peace.. 

Life changes can affect us in complex and unpredictable ways, taking us off of our comfort blanket, pushing us into new circumstances that test our limits, the mere idea of attaining the life of our dreams can shake us to the core.

As I read the first couple of chapters I was nodding along as I knew his words were ringing true. And I am 100% Responsible for my future.. I need to focus upon what sort of Future I wish to create.. And know that I can blame no one other than myself if it comes up short of my Dreams. So I had best get focusing! 😉 

Thank you for reading

Sue