Nemesis of Thought!
Looking back over this year I have many things I have to be grateful for, my lovely Family for one, and I go around telling people like yourselves to be positive. And yet I found myself in that Dark place of despair, and when you get to this Dark pit, it takes some digging out of.
Many years ago I found myself in this pit.. But it was dug deeper by myself and my frustration of not knowing what it was I wanted, Not knowing me.. Who I was or how to become ME..
Today I know more about myself, and I find that these lessons repeat because I do need to learn from them.. We can all of us feel sadness from time to time for whatever reason.
And sometimes the teaching of sadness is compassion for others that are in pain, because it is only by feeling pain that we can really understand and allow for someone else’s. Sadness is something that we all go through, and we learn from it, and our awareness grows from its presence in our lives,,
Sometimes we can feel like we are carrying rocks..
And it can take a while before we shed them, but we do Step by Step as we walk through life and its lessons.
But by each step we get closer to knowing who we are..
The problem with knowing who you are, you may not always like what you see.. But we have a life time to get to know our true selves.
Sometimes the Nemesis is our own Shadow.. Its the thoughts we carry. It’s all the unhealed stuff that we haven’t dealt with. The Baggage we can all of us carry around within our minds.
I looked up the word NEMESIS and The word “Nemesis originally meant the distributor of fortune, neither good nor bad, simply in due proportion to each according to what was deserved;”
Each of us in life creates that which we need in order to grow. And it maybe through Sadness that we are able to heal a part of us we long ago were unable to reach.
We clash with the nemesis in order to heal ourselves in order to decide within our own being, for we sometimes struggle with our duel selves as we battle within to find out who we really are.
And it’s not until when we reach our lowest point that we are given the chance to go within and lift ourselves up. We can do that by allowing ourselves to heal. It may take many tears to wash out all that we don’t require but when you really open up and tap into that unseen world of thought that pure energy of creation, when you tap into the intelligence of the galaxy, you’re tapping into mysticism. You’re tapping into what many people call..
Ageless Wisdom, or Direct Knowing.
At that point, when you’re into Direct Knowing, you have questions that you may have been pondering for quite some time – you may have problems in your life, whatever, and they will be almost be effortlessly answered as you learn to shed that which you no longer need to hang onto.
You begin to have a direct linkage to what we call your
which is an aspect of yourself that actually exists far in the future in terms of linear time.
But, since time doesn’t really have any fundamental nature, in truth, it’s only another construct that we use to experience our linear existence. Time actually can be bent. It can be navigated around and it doesn’t have to be linear.
So this part of yourself that exists in the future is actually travelling back in time, and it’s giving you all these signposts to evolve.
It’s giving you dreams; it’s giving you synchronicity; it’s getting you to meet certain people at the right time, the right place.
You end up being guided through a progressive continuum of experiences that, ultimately, leads you to becoming that person that is your Higher Self.
That’s why we often say I’m just trying to find myself, why we meditate and go within, and we all of us including me get lost in that sadness once in awhile. And why we need to remember that our thoughts create our experiences.. And why we should embrace that energy which is positive and constructive and to try and leave behind the negative energy which is Destructive .. As we remember All Energy returns to its creator Ten fold as we say
What comes around ~Goes around
A read this passage from An Interview with Rosemary Altea on her book
“Every thought is a tiny pulse of energy which when it leaves us it goes out into the universe The universe absorbs this energy and depending on the type of energy it is, depending on whether it is a negative thought or a positive thought, negative or positive energy the universe absorbs that energy.”
To read more on that interview and how our thoughts affect others click Here and all links in red
I am often telling others to follow and yet I can still fall into that Pit of emotions.
But I am emerging out of that Nemesis. As I cast off the Shadows and once again begin to Shine.
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